Title: Sharp hints of tears
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Category: Romance, AU, angst, V
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Lorelai/Max, Lorelai/Luke
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS.
Summary: Can a kiss change everything?
AUTHORS NOTE: In this Lorelai never broke up with Max and they
got married...They have been married for about a year.
English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
THANK YOU: To Sandra for helping me out here....
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"Maybe I oughta mention
Was never my intention
To harm you or your kin
Are you so scared to look within
The ghosts are crawling on our skin
We may race and we may run
We'll not undo what has been done
Or change the moment when it's gone
Honey if I'm honest
I still don't know what love is...."
( From "The other side" by David Gray 'A new day at midnight' )
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Sharp hints of tears (1/3)
by:Jessica
****************
I can hear him moving around upstairs.
The house is still now.
Calm.
The sun makes its way into the room as I rise.
My legs feel weak.
I should go to him.
But I know that I can't stop him.
He made that clear.
My hands tremble as I wipe away the last remaining tear.
I move into the kitchen and turn on the radio.
Some sappy love song fills the room.
I cling to the sink while he comes downstairs.
He stops in the doorway to the kitchen.
I don't turn around.
I can't see his eyes as he says goodbye.
That I can't take.
Everything besides that.
"Lor."
"Max..I.."
I want to say something.
A voice is screaming in my ear to stop him.
But I don't know how.
"No, Lor..don't.."
I turn around.
I avoid his eyes as I speak:
"I wasn't.."
"Don't lie to me. I have had too many lies told to me today."
"Max, please."
He moves closer to me.
Suitcase in one hand.
I keep my eyes fixed on that one.
Not wanting to see the pain in his eyes.
The pain I caused.
He stops in front of me.
I know that if he touches me now I will surely fall.
Crumble.
"I will come back for the other stuff.."
"Please..there has to be.."
"We talked about this.."
"But.."
"No, Lor.."
He turns to leave.
I'm already missing his touch.
A scream is lodged in my throat.
"MAX!"
I turn around.
He stops in the doorway with his back turned.
"I can't stay. You know why."
"But.."
"You have to make a decision."
"No, Max...I know..now.."
"Lor,.."
I move towards him.
I reach out my hand and take his hand in mine.
"Please, stay."
"Don't do this to me. I can't take it."
"Then stay."
"No, I can't. Not this time."
He turns towards me.
His eyes are clouded with pain as they meet mine.
"I will do what ever you want.."
"You know what I want."
"Everything but that."
"You have to."
"Please, Max..I can't."
"All I'm asking is for you to make a choice.."
"No..please.."
Tears fill my eyes as I look at him now.
"Don't.."
"Him or me, Lor...Make up your mind."
I stand there, holding the hand of the man I married.
The man I love in so many ways.
While my heart slowly falls a part.
"I can't do that.."
"Then there is not much more to talk about."
He lets go of my hand and pick up the suitcase.
"Max!"
"I'll be in Hartford for a couple of days then I will come back
here for my things..."
"Please..All I need is time."
His eyes pierce into me.
I can see pain there.
Sorrow.
Anger.
"Why? You have had a lifetime to choose."
"He is my friend, Max."
"You don't kiss a friend."
"He kissed me."
"You didn't fight him off."
"It was a mistake."
"I'm not so sure."
"Please, you have to believe me."
"Prove it! Make a choice..Him or me. That's all I'm asking."
"You are asking me to give up a big part of my life."
"Just Luke."
Silence followed.
I stood there in my kitchen feeling like the whole world
came down around me.
How could he ask me to give him up?
My friend.
Luke.
That had been there for me so many times.
That had saved me.
Helped me.
That made me smile.
How could he ask me to give up a friend?
"I don't know if I can..."
With those words I saw something break inside of him.
I could almost hear it.
His heart breaking.
"Then there's nothing else to say."
He started to walk towards the frontdoor.
I moved slowly.
Watching him go.
He open the door slowly.
He stopped in the doorway.
He looked back at me.
"Make a decision..."
Then he turned around and walked out of my life.
*********************************
Feedback j_rothen@yahoo.se
Part two deals with what happened between Luke and
Lorelai and the events that lead up to Max leaving.
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Category: Romance, AU, angst, V
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Lorelai/Max, Lorelai/Luke
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS.
Summary: Can a kiss change everything?
AUTHORS NOTE: In this Lorelai never broke up with Max and they
got married...They have been married for about a year.
English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
THANK YOU: To Sandra for helping me out here....
**********************
"Maybe I oughta mention
Was never my intention
To harm you or your kin
Are you so scared to look within
The ghosts are crawling on our skin
We may race and we may run
We'll not undo what has been done
Or change the moment when it's gone
Honey if I'm honest
I still don't know what love is...."
( From "The other side" by David Gray 'A new day at midnight' )
**********************
Sharp hints of tears (1/3)
by:Jessica
****************
I can hear him moving around upstairs.
The house is still now.
Calm.
The sun makes its way into the room as I rise.
My legs feel weak.
I should go to him.
But I know that I can't stop him.
He made that clear.
My hands tremble as I wipe away the last remaining tear.
I move into the kitchen and turn on the radio.
Some sappy love song fills the room.
I cling to the sink while he comes downstairs.
He stops in the doorway to the kitchen.
I don't turn around.
I can't see his eyes as he says goodbye.
That I can't take.
Everything besides that.
"Lor."
"Max..I.."
I want to say something.
A voice is screaming in my ear to stop him.
But I don't know how.
"No, Lor..don't.."
I turn around.
I avoid his eyes as I speak:
"I wasn't.."
"Don't lie to me. I have had too many lies told to me today."
"Max, please."
He moves closer to me.
Suitcase in one hand.
I keep my eyes fixed on that one.
Not wanting to see the pain in his eyes.
The pain I caused.
He stops in front of me.
I know that if he touches me now I will surely fall.
Crumble.
"I will come back for the other stuff.."
"Please..there has to be.."
"We talked about this.."
"But.."
"No, Lor.."
He turns to leave.
I'm already missing his touch.
A scream is lodged in my throat.
"MAX!"
I turn around.
He stops in the doorway with his back turned.
"I can't stay. You know why."
"But.."
"You have to make a decision."
"No, Max...I know..now.."
"Lor,.."
I move towards him.
I reach out my hand and take his hand in mine.
"Please, stay."
"Don't do this to me. I can't take it."
"Then stay."
"No, I can't. Not this time."
He turns towards me.
His eyes are clouded with pain as they meet mine.
"I will do what ever you want.."
"You know what I want."
"Everything but that."
"You have to."
"Please, Max..I can't."
"All I'm asking is for you to make a choice.."
"No..please.."
Tears fill my eyes as I look at him now.
"Don't.."
"Him or me, Lor...Make up your mind."
I stand there, holding the hand of the man I married.
The man I love in so many ways.
While my heart slowly falls a part.
"I can't do that.."
"Then there is not much more to talk about."
He lets go of my hand and pick up the suitcase.
"Max!"
"I'll be in Hartford for a couple of days then I will come back
here for my things..."
"Please..All I need is time."
His eyes pierce into me.
I can see pain there.
Sorrow.
Anger.
"Why? You have had a lifetime to choose."
"He is my friend, Max."
"You don't kiss a friend."
"He kissed me."
"You didn't fight him off."
"It was a mistake."
"I'm not so sure."
"Please, you have to believe me."
"Prove it! Make a choice..Him or me. That's all I'm asking."
"You are asking me to give up a big part of my life."
"Just Luke."
Silence followed.
I stood there in my kitchen feeling like the whole world
came down around me.
How could he ask me to give him up?
My friend.
Luke.
That had been there for me so many times.
That had saved me.
Helped me.
That made me smile.
How could he ask me to give up a friend?
"I don't know if I can..."
With those words I saw something break inside of him.
I could almost hear it.
His heart breaking.
"Then there's nothing else to say."
He started to walk towards the frontdoor.
I moved slowly.
Watching him go.
He open the door slowly.
He stopped in the doorway.
He looked back at me.
"Make a decision..."
Then he turned around and walked out of my life.
*********************************
Feedback j_rothen@yahoo.se
Part two deals with what happened between Luke and
Lorelai and the events that lead up to Max leaving.