Another day, of pretending.Everything's always the same.I get up, go shower, brush my hair and tge usual stuff you do in a bathroom, eat breakfast go training alone and then at 8 a.m I start pretending.Every.Single.Day.

But it never was like this.No, of course not.How could an Uchiha even admit that he had such an..mental..disorder..or something like that, not that I ever understood what they ment.I was 3 years old at that time, how could I?

I..remember doctors, hospitals..and the dissapointment in my fathers face.But Mother she..she looked the same.As if nothing ever happened.Everything gets blury after that, but I can recall the face that my aniki always made when I..didn't react like other children did.No I would only nod or say "oh" or simple phraises like "wow never heard of that" or "you're so cool nii-san!".And even tho it may sound like a normal thing to say to your sibling at that age, it wasn't.It wasn't anything good.

Well because...I never showed any emotions my eyes were simply..blank.But of course my mother told him the same thing over and over again.That I'm just a child and I will show my feelings at some age.At first,he didn't believe her.Well who would?He did, after 6 months of getting to listen' to the same phraise over and over again.Like a lullaby, that lured him into believing that it was normal.That I was normal.

But, after some time when I was 4 I realised something.I was different.It was the day when kaa-san ordered me to go buy some potatoes.A simple exercise since my every day training allowed me to lift suck things at that age.Not that it was heavy, it just seamed heavy to me.Not that I cared.

So I passed some alleys, then I heard it.A maybe 6 year old's scream.A girly scream that was pure of agony.So I turned around and saw the scene.

There were 4 kids, 2 boys one girl and the girk that was now on the ground herself.They were about 10 years and the little girl maybe about 3 or 4 like me I guessed.All stared at the now bleeding girl in front of them.The killer of the girl could have been my father, hell even my grandfather.So obviously some strange adult stabbed some kid.Ok not like I care..

The scene in front of me didn't faze me at all,but what confused me was the emotion in the other childrens eyes.Sorrow,terror,fear and anger.All written over their eyes.Their Eyes held emotion in them, emotions that I never had ans forced myself to believe I would get..at some age..but that little girl..had so much in those pretty damn eyes..they just made me..

To want to rip them out..To suck out all of the emotions they had..To feel somthing..but..I didn't, I was just 4 years old so I turned around the corner and left after hearing 4 more of those annoying screams.Yes annoying..they made me feel..as if they laughed at me..just like my bullies within' the Uchiha compound did.Callimg me a girl, pulling on my hair, trowhing me into bushes causkng me to bleed but, I never cared.Apperently it was normal I thought, apperently everyone had to go through that at some point in life but after one accident, where I accidently ripped out a bully's ear, no one talked to me.No one understood why I didn't cry or freak out or did anothing other than dropping the ear and looking at them with my lifeless eyes..

I..just couldn't care.So I asked my mother about all of this.Just after I broight her these potatoes."Mother, why.. am I different?" I asked her.I espected an "Sweeti you aren't you're going to change sometime you just have to wait!"

But what I've got..made me confused, annoyed, but also..kinda..hapoy if you cpuld call that since these damn eyes never got any emotion.

"Sasu-chan,my dearest son you overthink thing to much.I was exactly like you when I was younger, so was your grandfather and his mother and so on.But you wouldn't understand that yet.I'll explain this to you when you turn 6 ok? So it won't be too late but not too soon.Now go and practuse your jutsu"

Some could have called her dumb, or annoyed by my questions.But she always smiled and was so kind and just seemed..happy with life.I wanted that too, and she said I would be like her too..but when? How? and what was that different about us?

But I was raised to listen' to elders, so I started walking to our private training ground.

But after some time I realised that I actually felt something.It wasn't something that i longed to feel for.No it wasn't the happiness or anything that I wanted, it was pity.

I felt pity for my brother.How he was unfairly treaten' by our mother. How he was believing these lies but at the same time, looking at me with these..dissapointed and sad eyes.

Just like father's.Well not fully like our father's, hus eyes were alway dissapointed in me but they also had these ignorand vibes and..fear.

After some thinking I realised that he knew his wife.And his wife had tge same problem as I did so maybe..maybe mother did something?

But of course my 'innocent' mind wouldn't believe that.He was married to her.But maybe..well anyway back to my brother.

So I started stalking people.Yes stalking.I know you shouldn't do that, well that's what everybody says I don't know.But I studied their expresions.And after that I tried it.And hisbreaction was shocking, it didn't exactky fill me with joy but it made the pity go away.At least I guess so..

..because when I smiled at him he froze and since that day I always would be like "Oh really!? You're so cool nii-san!" and smile and forcefully blush like a nlrmal child would.Well without the force.

I tried to fool my parents too but they knew more then him.It didn't work and I started feeling..

Nothing.This time nothing changed with led me to believing that maybe I was meant to not caring for other persons and be this..this pretending shell of a person.

So yeah that's what i've done.Pretend.Pretend.Pretend.

Day in and day out.

But then after sime pretending time, I turned 6.Well we don't exactly do anything on birthdays or chrismas and so on (Truth story in my rl bro).

So well..my Aniki trained me the whole day and we hung out and I pretended to feel joy.And yes he fell for it.

But then at midnight my mother came into my room.And she sat there stroking my hair and just when I was about to ask why she answered me..and I wasn't exactly happy about it.Well not that I ever was happy.

She told me that we were different than the average person.We could not experience life like everybody else.She told me that her grandfather stayed like that forever because he hasn't found his solemate.She explained to me that she did, when she was 15 she saw my father training in the woods and in an instand all feelings a person can expirience crashed down on her.So she hid behind a rock and after that she stalked him.Everyday.He was like a heaven for her, a place where she could be a normal person.

Till my father met a girl named Jane.And even tho my father acted though, they hung out.And that's when, she told me, she felt a new feeling.Rage, jealousy, and worst the disaaer to Hurt.

I was confused by this.My mother seemed like a very friendly person but well I was 6 so I didn't ask.

She told me she started stalking this person.And after some time she found a conclusion to her never ending jealousy.She had to eliminate her.

But, she said, no one could find out.Or rather father couldn't find out.He would think of her as a monster and that would ruin her life.So she did.She pretended to act friendly.Just like I did with aniki.Pretending..

So yeah, she pretended to be interested in her.And after some time they became friends.The best lf friends and they hung out a lot.Jane trusted her with her life and my mother did too.

Well she pretended to.

So one day they went to the woods at age 17, so no one had to knlw they were nearly adults after all.

And it only took 3 seconds ti solve her jealousy and rage problem.After that she explained to me how to get away with murder, which confused me.But again I didn't ask.

But what I asked is how she ended up with father.

Well, she told me, that she started stalking him again but after the disapearience of his only friend he focused on training again.Till she wrote him a letter.He never got any letters at least not from any person that didn't want anything other than to know a secret about the clan since his father was the clans head-master.

So of course he went.Even though he wouldn't admit it he never got an realationship with anyone.He blamed it on his apperience.Maybe he was ugly or his personality,but mother told me that he was and still is a gid for her.

Again my mother had a creapy aura but I didn't think much of it.

So yes, they met under that cherry three.And she asked him something which gave him goosebums.

"You are the only thing that matters in my life, you are everything to me and I would sacrifise everything for you so, You have to be only mine"

Your father was creeped out, she told me.He was shocked and said "But I don't even know you ,miss"

"Of course you do" she smiled."I am your future wife senpai"

And he tried to turn away lr run or anything but that smile and that deep black eyes lured him in.And he, smiled to.

Again I wanted to know how she knew what brought him to smile but yes again I was too young and too shy to ask.Or some feeling I tried to pretend that I feeled..Which I regrett deeply now.I have so many unanswered questions.

Well yes, she smiled, and then we kissed and since that day we were a couple and soon wife and husband.I never got that empty feeling again, and when we got Itachi and some years later you to, I knew that he was never going to leave me.He was mine forever.

Yes,that creeped me out.At least I guess so.A normal person would be creeped out.Pretend.But then I had one question to ask.And yes this time I asked.

"But mother, how can I find this person?"

She smiled like she always did.

" You will find this person eventually Sasuke.My grandfather never could and he always stayed like this.But when you find this person you have to get this person to like you at every cost.Nothing else matters,no one else matters.It's only you and this person.My grand grand grand mother fell in love with that girl named Isabella.She killed her parents but as ahe saw her do this she ran.Ran away because she got chaught.Pretty pathatic ne Sasuke? I would've kidnapped my senpai at this point but whatever.She hoped to find anither senpai, but she didn't so she married at the gae of 21 to a man and pretended to love him and after sometime they got 2 kids.Their son knew he was different than his sister and yes, he felt jealousy because she talked and befriended a girl, my grand grand mother.So yeah he killed his own sister and asked her out.To his luck she already loved him and they were happy.And-oh my it's already oast two am!You better go to sleep your clumsy mother forgot to watch the time! Oh well" She stood up and flicked the light of and just before she dissapered.She whispered."But Sasuke, this stays between us.Do not end up like my grand grand grand mother and don't tell you brother, no normal person understands us..."

And after a second of staying still in the door frame, she said."This person is out there, this person exists."

That day I couldn't sleep.No the following moths thoughts filled my head.But I continued to pretend every single day.

And I lived in my fake world.

But years went on, everything was the same, till that happened.You have to understand that I love my family, at least I guess so.Everyone does it, so I pretend to care for them.

My brother killed them and I remebered a film that I secretly whatche with a "friend".A girl lost her whole famaly to a stalker so I copied her reaction.

And it worked.That day I learned that i could fool anybody and everyone woud believe in it.And not only persons believed in my fake reactions,I could also fool a thing like the sharingan to activite by a simple thing like pretending.

But I recalled my past years in the Uchiha clan and how hard it sometime was to fit the peoples exoected reaction.Some may not believe but Pretending everyday, every second of you life is hard.

So I noticed, I didn't need to anymore.The girl in the film, has chanded after that tragic day and she became full of hatred and cold and well sometimes even sassy.

So that's what I'm doing right now.I pretend to care when my teammates get hurt, I pretend to care that my brother killed them, I pretend to feel hatred, I pretend to revive the Uchiha clan and so on.

A normal person would probably already killed himself.Not that I haven't thought about this countles of tines even before the massacre.But One thing told me to hold on to.To live and see if there is anybody who could help me.It was that one sentence ..

"This person is out there, this person exists."

TBC?

(IMPORTAND READ TILL THE END)

Hi, i hope you liked this chapter.I'm not sure if this will be an os or a fanfic.But I hopefully will make this a fanfic since I really enjoyed writing that.And yes you probably feel some ys vibes but it isn't that copied right is it? Oh and resently I noticed that I never wrote an disclamer before.Well, Naruto isn't mine if it was Sasuke would..would be in a living yaoi hell ;)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Well with that done I need your attention.I am not sure who'll be Sasuke senpai.The only thing that is already planned is that this person needs to be MALE and not in team 7.Since I don't think Naruto is fitting because look at all this times Naruto wanted to reach out to Sasuke as a kid but he turned and walked away.Also Sakura is not male and Kakashi..well even tho Kakasasu is my OTP I don't think that's pretty fitting for this fanfic.My thoughts were about..-Neji(They met at the Chunnin exams I guess and that's when they asked each others names and so on)Or-Kabuto/someone from the sound)(Ut would explain the reason why he left Konoha)Or-A male Team Taka member/a akatsuki member(It would also explain his betrayal for konoha.Oh and btw,as you noticed this story isn't meant as any kind of Incest so ehem..no Itasasu here...sorry)Or-Kurama(They met.."inside" naruto (lol) so I vould make him an character who can turn into a human)or-An male OC(Well you would have to trust me with my creativity but I'm already working on a fanfic with Sasuke and 3 other Oc's so This isn't like my favorite option)You can write your ideas in the review section or simply pm me.My own favorite would be Sasuke x Neji but I sorta don't like the whole strict Hyuuga clan theme,plus i don't it's that easy to kill a Hyuuga while getting away with it.Well then these other two following options sound pretty good,but I think they turn out pretty lame but welp you decide.And about that kyusasu/Kurasasu thing..it would pretty mich destroy the story of Naruto..and I'm already working on a Kyusasu story too soooo...Well then there is the Oc thing but I'm someone who rather dislikes male oc x male original chracter storys.Yes I am writing a straight oc story.Pretty shocking ne? Well anywayYOU DECIDE!!!!!!!!!!!