Chapter 1 – Falling Into Depression !
Her heart stopped as they pulled up outside a house that had teenagers scattered around it. She had told her best friend that she was OK with going to the party but really she didn't want to even leave her own bedroom. The darkness had been taking over her life for a few weeks now and she didn't know what to do accept try for her best friend's sake.
" You okay Vanessa ? " Lucas asked for the fourth time that night.
She replied by just nodding her head slightly and turning to face the other way, so he could not tell she was lying. She looked as white as a ghost. Her body had changed over the very few weeks. She had lost all of her colour and she was now being marked down as "anorexic" by the doctors.
She had not been eating at all for the last couple of weeks but before that she hardly ate anything anyway. She had been underweight for sometime but at least before she had eaten something.
"Come on we better get inside before the party finishes."
She didn't want to go. She had many friends there but she thought her friends would hate her if they saw her like this. Be ashamed of her. They weren't ashamed they were worried for her health and how she was feeling. They knew her Uncle had just died but they had to make sure that she didn't hurt herself in the process of mourning. Lucas didn't tell Vanessa he was scared for her because he felt like it might make her worse , but nothing can be worse than what she is now right ?
They headed towards their friends house, earning alot of stares from the boys in the driveway. When they got inside they saw about 30-40 people in the main party room. Lucas kept Vanessa close to make sure she wouldn't get lost. Two Boys slowly Started to make their way towards Vanessa and Lucas.
" Hey Nessa , Luc you made it ." Corbin was so happy to see his friends whom he had not seen for at least a year since he moved up north. He was happy that he had just moved back to Tree-Hill with his friend Zac. He had missed his two best friends since high school.
" Hey Corbin, How ya been Man." Lucas Replied Cheerfully.
" I've been great man how about you."
" Great"
" Good to hear, How about you Ness ?
Vanessa noticed everyone was staring at her waiting for a response but she couldn't drag out a simple response. She was trembling and she didn't know why. It was just her friends she was talking to , why was she so scared? Sadness covered her face and she just looked down at the floor.
" Vanessa sweetie, What's wrong?" Corbin Questioned. Concern flashed over his face as he moved closer to the petite girl.
She wrapped her arm around her fragile body and began to shake her head signalling nothing was the matter. Lucas put an arm around his best friend. Worried was an understatement of how he felt. Zac's eyes stayed fixed on the small brunette and even though he didn't even know her , he wanted to comfort her. No one could disagree that Vanessa was beautiful, she was stunning, but right now she needed help , comfort.
" I'm gonna go get some drinks " Corbin changed the conversation because he saw Vanessa was too uncomfortable for talking about herself right now. He knew he had to help her but not right here, not now.
Lucas and Corbin left to fetch drinks for themselves and Zac. Vanessa had refused her drink, no surprise. She continued to stare down at the tiled floor whilst Zac stood their awkwardly.
" Hey by the way, I'm Zac , nice to meet you !" He needed to bring up some conversation, also he wanted to get to know this girl. There was something intriguing about her. He held out his hand for her to shake.
Vanessa looked up nervously and took the boys hand. " Vanessa" she mumbled so quiet Zac could barely hear her.
He was shocked at how skinny she was. Her tiny hands and her tiny fingers. Bones were sticking out of her body which he knew was not right. He knew for a fact that she was ten times skinnier than his little niece who was only 9.
With Lucas and Corbin "
" Well as you know her Uncle died and she hasn't been the same since. She won't eat, she won't sleep and she hardly talks. I sent her to a Doctor and he told me to get her into a shrink which I have been trying to do, but he also said that she has anorexia."
" Yeah, I can tell about the weight issues but I mean I will be here now so we can both help her to recover. She just needs her friends with her at all times."
The guys received their drinks and went back to where Zac and Vanessa were standing. They handed the drinks out and then they had a conversation about what they had been up to for the past year , which Vanessa had not joined in with. Zac could not help but stare at Vanessa, the girl he just met but the girl he wanted to comfort. She was like a misguided angel to him. He just wanted her to be okay again , no one deserved to have this much sadness in their lives.
Vanessa excused herself to use the rest-rooms , but secretly trying to get away from the hard conversation. Whilst in the bathroom on the 3rd floor she saw something that looked so tempting.
Why though? Why couldn't she stop this silly behaviour. Unable to fight the urge any more she double-checked the bathroom door was locked and picked up the RAZOR. She scraped the razor harshly against both her wrists and then watched as the sticky red substance oozed out of her. Too much of her blood rushed to the tile floor below but she just watched while it escaped her. She felt her self become dizzy and nauseas and dropped down to the tile floor. The blood came faster and faster and she then slipped into the darkness.
With The Boys" Vanessa has been like 20 minutes I better go and see if she is alright." Lucas was sure his best friend was okay but he knew she was upset so he just wanted to comfort her, little did he know what Vanessa had done.
" No its okay man. I got this, I was gonna go use the toilet now anyway ill just tell her you were looking for her." Zac told Lucas.
Lucas agreed to letting Zac check on his best friend, knowing that he was a nice guy. Zac stepped towards the 3rd floor bathroom and knocked lightly on the door.
" Vanessa it's me Zac, are you in there ?"
No response. Zac knocked a few more times then put his ear against the door. All he heard was a dripping noise of some sort. He knew if she was in there she probably was not going to answer
" Okay Vanessa sweetie, if you don't answer me I'm going to have to use this key to unlock this door."
No response came so Zac grabbed the key from behind the plant pot and unlocked the bathroom door. The image he saw next nearly sent him into a state of shock. A Petite Female surrounded by a pool of blood.