Author's Note: I haven't been on in a while and I mean a long, long time. I joined Fanfiction more than tens years ago. Makes me realize how old I am now. Anyway, big fan of the Regular Show since it first aired on T.V. I figure this will be a good time to get the blood flowing back into my writing.

Anyway like always I do not own anything base on the Regular Show or it's characters.

Chapter One

Control

When he look back on that night he always wondered if he had left the restaurant ten minutes later or earlier maybe he wouldn't have spotted her. It was an awkward night to say the least for a certain Blue Jay after Margaret and him declared to themselves that it would be better to be friends and nothing more, but that didn't mean he was 100% happy about it. He sighed as he ruffled up his feathers with his wings for warmth and turn down another empty street.

It was nearly midnight and most of the shops and restaurants were already closed and the only company he had were the street lights and once and a while a car passing by. He split up with Margaret about two hours ago, but instead of heading home he just park the cart in some unknown parking lot and decided he needed to walk to clear his mind. He didn't know why he was over thinking this anyway, what's done is done. They were friends because he didn't want to go through another relationship and she had a career to think about instead of settling. So why dose he feel so...so...

"I don't even know what to feel," He said to himself which cause him to stop walking and just stand there.

Mordecai looked around and realized that from all the thinking he was doing, he found himself without a clue where he was or how far he was from the Cart or home if that matter. He check his phone, thinking maybe Rigby called or text him about his whereabouts, but was surprised to see nothing whatsoever on the screen. Mostly likely he was with Eileen or asleep like he has been nowadays. Mordecai would laugh about how the roles between the two reverse where Rigby was out and about with his girlfriend while leaving his loser, single friend behind without much of a thought. It help him understand all the times he would do that to his raccoon friend and what an asshole he had been when he was out with Margaret and even more so when he was with CJ.

A gust of wind flew through his feathers and he looked up at the sky to see a few gray clouds passing by. He winced from that, he can't even look at a cloud anymore without bringing up bad memories of his last relationship and the guilt of knowing it was mostly his fault for the way things turned out.

(OK, why are we bringing up stuff like this anyway) His tired brain asked. (it should be all about us, Mordecai and no one else. Remember we are taking a break from the whole dating thing)

"That doesn't mean I don't get a little lonely once and a while." He said to himself.

(Probably why you keep bringing up your exes since it's been a year now since you had any female companionship) His brain said (It will pass.)

"It's been a year and nothing's changed" He shouted, "I'm still single and even though I'm OK with that that doesn't mean I don't think about it"

(You just don't know what you want.)

"Ugh, just shut up" He muttered to himself, "stupid brain."

A bright flash of light blinded him to the point he had to cover his face for a few seconds only to open them to blurriness and color spots. Once he focused, he saw the lights belonging to a small car that was turning into small Diner's parking lot across the street. A large sign above read "Ooh La La Cafe" and under it flash "opened 24-7."

His stomach started to growl and all that walking made him thirsty and his feet tired. Before he took another step he felt his heart sinking to the pit of his stomach when he saw a certain someone coming out of the car. First think he noticed was the pure white puffy hair flowing in the wind. He hardly see her hair down when they were together and those times were when he stayed at her place overnight. She closed her car down and stretch out her arms and popped her back a bit before letting out a big yawn. She probably just got off work since she was wearing some sort of uniform instead of her tank top and those short shorts.

Even with a tired look on her face, she put on a pretty smile as she walked into the Cafe without even noticing him across the street. Mordecai stood there not knowing what to do or should he even care that CJ was just across the street. They left of somewhat good terms...right?

He should've turned around and walk back to the cart he abandoned two hours ago, but instead his feet were moving down the street not even caring if he got hit by a car or not and over to the door of the Cafe. He peeked inside to see CJ talking to waitress who happened to be a middle aged woman and writing something in her notepad. There was no one else in the place, but his cloudy ex-girlfriend.

He opened the door and panic when he heard a little bell jingle which cause the two at the counter to turn around,

"Mordecai," CJ whispered while leaving her jaw slightly slanted from seeing him

Boy, she was pretty...

Mordecai shook his head from that thought and started to sweat.

"Good evening Sugar," The Waitress said, "you need help with something or would you like to take a seat and I'll get you a menu?"

"um...ah..." He really just lost his ability to speak or even move.

"um OK, how about you take a seat with this nice young lady and I'll get you a glass of water than" The waitress said as she walked over to him and escorted him to the seat next to CJ then went to the back room Kitchen. "I always get the weird ones at night," she muttered to herself.

They were quiet for a minute which seems like hours to Mordecai as he tapped his fingers on the counter. He looked over at CJ, who was just staring down at her coffee and avoiding him all together.

"I better go," The Blue Jay said getting up from his chair when she finally spoke.

"It's been a year and you still acting that way," she said, with a little sadness in her voice.

"Ah, acting like what," He asked, sitting down again.

He should've left...

"Like that, just weird and uncomfortable," she said, "you don't even look happy to see me."

"It's not...not...like that...it's just...well...," He looked away and scratch the back of his head, "It was just a surprised, I guess."

"I don't see how. After all I've been coming to this Cafe for years and here you are showing up at 12:30 in the morning," She said, sipping her coffee a bit.

She didn't look uncomfortable or anything like he did, she just look compose and kept her emotions under control. He check because she still had a pure white hue instead of gray and thunderous color she normally would get.

"And if you were really uncomfortable around me why did you come here in the first place since you most likely saw me through the glass windows." She finally looked at him, wanting answers were written in her large eyes. She was so pretty, he thought and tried even harder to keep himself under control. It's been a year, why was he so nervous around her.

"I was out walking and got lost and just found myself wanting to come in and maybe...just wanted to see if you were really you" He admitted.

"If I was really me?" She asked.

"Yeah, I haven't see you in a year and I know we didn't leave on good terms..."

"Like completely embarrassing us in front of Muscle Man's wedding and telling everyone you don't know who your soul mate was," She interrupted him and slammed the coffee mug on the counter.

He swallowed and tried very hard to keep his cool, "I guess I just wanted to see how you were doing, OK" He said, a little harsh, but was trying to get his point across. "I mean, I still care about you...your well being"

Maybe it wasn't a good time to say I still care about you since it was still a little awkward he thought. She just looked at him and sigh like she wanted to cuss him out, but decided to just let it go. She swirled her mug a bit and clear her throat. "So why are you here?"

"Why are you here?" He asked.

"I asked you first" She said.

"I was...well...I had a rather weird evening outing and just needed to walk around to clear my thoughts." He looked away from her again.

She can sense the guilt, "Margaret?"

As if she was reading his mind and she knew she hit the spot when he just stiffen and forgot to take a breath.

"I don't care what is going on with you two, but I can tell something about her is bothering you." She said.

Without evening knowing it, he lost the control and just spilled out what was on his mind, "I don't know what's going on with me, OK. I quit dating just to focus on myself, but it's hard because I see Rigby with someone and I'm just left behind and alone. And Margaret, my god, Margaret is right there and I thought we would get back together, but she moved on, we moved on, she has a career she wants to focus on and yet, I don't want to be with her at the same time because I don't want to hold her back and I don't want to be in another relationship where I would ruin everything again. She just wanted to be friends and I was so happy to hear that since it means no more drama. Last thing I want to make is all the mistakes like I did the last time, but I can't help, but feel lonely once and a while." He said, and just run his wings through his feathered head and tried to catch his breath.

He looked up to see CJ and the Waitress staring at him. CJ with some remorse look on her face while the Waitress raise an eyebrow at him and pour CJ more coffee. "Son, you just need to learn how to let things or in this case. the woman go or just go get laid."

CJ blushed and tried not to laugh as the Waitress walked back into the kitchen and again muttering to herself why only weirdos come out at this hour.

Mordecai was so embarrassed that the shade of red on his cheeks were turning into a deep purple due to his blue feathers. CJ cleared her throat, "Um, it's OK to feel that way sometimes, Mordecai, we all get a little lonely once in a while. As for Margaret, if you are happy just to be friends with her it shouldn't be so complicated. Unless you still have feelings for her," She said, there was a lot of resentment in that last statement.

He was silence and wondering what he was about to say would be something he would regret, "When I saw you, it made me realize how much I miss being around you."

She stop drinking her coffee and just stared at something beside him. For a second she thought he was a Bastard for bringing up something like that after so long.

"Everything was great til that Mistletoe thing with Margaret and I regret how we ended. I guess seeing you and...well...maybe I just wanted to clear the air that I'm sorry how things were between us. I don't know how deeply I hurt you since we never spoke again. I know I'm not suppose to say that, but I can't help it since you are here. Right in front of me."

Now she was a little upset, "You're right, things were great, but that's over now and we moved on, right?"

"Why are you upset?" He had to asked.

"I'm not upset," She sighed, "Can we just drop it. I had a long day at work and I just wanted to get some food before heading home then you show up and made everything weird again."

"I'm sorry, OK." He said, and it seems like that was the only thing he can say.

She stood up, place a few dollar bills on the counter and walked towards the door. Mordecai waited for a second and decided to follow her. He was stunned that she walked passed her car and onto the street, heading north.

"Where are you going." He asked, "It's not safe to walk out here alone. And what about your car?"

"I guess you forgot I only live a few blocks away from here and I'll be fine. I just need to "clear my mind." She said in a mock tone.

"I don't want you walking alone in the dark." He shouted and caught up to her.

Due to being surprised that he followed her, she tripped over her own two feet and nearly fell over when she was caught and held tightly in the blue jay's arms. The pile of white cloud hair spilled onto Mordecai's face and he deeply inhale. A flashback of memories, the good ones, play over and over in his head. The kiss on the New Year's Eve party, babysitting Death's kid, just them hanging out all the time, laughing at stupid things and even the romantic dates they had that ended in heated passion under tangled sheets. She smelled so good and she felt so soft in his arms. Like a zombie, he helped her on to her feet, but had a hard time letting her go.

She cleared her throat, "Um, I'm OK, Mordo, you can let me go"

He retracted his arms away from her as if he just touched a hot stove and blushed. "just making sure," he said rather quickly and started to sweat. He laughed nervously as she turned away from him, blushing badly herself, and played with her hair. Unwanted feelings started to turn up in her mind and part of her liked it, but she knew better not to think that way.

"Let me walk you home or at least back to your car."

CJ looked back at her car and the smart choice would be the car but...

"You can walk me home, after all it is a nice night to walk and talk." She said.

The walk wasn't as weird as Mordecai thought it would be, in fact he felt rather at ease and it got easier with each passing step and just listening to her talk about something off the subject like her work and how she's been working long hours for some lame ass boss because he would leave early to see his Side Chick before going home to his wife and blah blah blah...

Afterward he stopped listening and just kept staring at her. She didn't seem to noticed as she kept talking about whatever. He couldn't explain why he was just staring at her, but he like it. He forgot how awesome it felt when he was near her...

"There's my apartment," She said.

It made his senses run wild from remembering how soft she felt when touch, how she looked, the sweet smell of perfume she would wear...the taste of her kiss...

She took out her keys to unlock the door then looked at him with a somewhat sad smile. "Well, it was nice seeing you again..."

Whatever control he had on his feelings were thrown out the window when he realize how much he needed her...

"and I did miss you too as well but I'm not sure if I'm ready..."

He wanted her...

CJ didn't have time to finish when his hands gently cupped her face and pulled her into a heated kiss. Her eyes grew big like dinner plates and lost her train of thought for a moment. She placed her hands on his chest in a weak effort to pull him away, but she couldn't help it herself. She did miss him and had been lonely for the last couple of months. He broke the kiss just to catch some air and buried his face into her hair again.

"I don't want to go home alone again" He whispered and brought her into another kiss.

Without saying another word or breaking apart their embrace, they walked into the apartment with the door closing behind them with a light click...

Next Chapter 2: Daydreaming: After coming home early the next morning, Rigby is trying figure out what happened to Mordecai that night and why he seems to be daydreaming a lot.

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