You had joined an organization not too long ago
Called the Rfa. You met some pretty amazing
People and honestly, they were some of
The greatest friends you could ever have.
Most of the time they would cheer you up
And that never failed to give you motivation to
Press on.
What they didn't know was your secret. You
We're almost sure seven knew because he
did background checks on you, but he never brought it
Up. You had a terminal disease eating away at
Every cell in your body. Constantly in pain but
You had to push on for these friends.
The days before the party were approaching,
And even though you tried to keep your distance
You couldn't help but fall for each member.
They were all so dear, which made it harder to
Make this decision. Your legs no longer worked
Like they used to before. Trying to play it off
In the camera, using the broken foot excuse.
But that would only work for so long. You can no longer
Breathe on your own, but the other members
Didn't know that. They treated you like you belonged,
Like one of them. And that warm feeling was addicting
You never want to ruin that. Which is why this party
Needs to be above and beyond. After all your end is approaching
You join the chat on the 11th day, and reminisce on
Past moments. Every bit of joy you've experienced
These past days were more than all the happiness
You've had in your entire life.
After talking for a little bit they each leave one
By one saying they'll see you soon. "Oh..."
You sigh, that's all you can manage. After
Checking up on last minute details, you
Wheel your way out of the apartment, with the
Oxygen tank attached to the wheelchair.
"Thank god for elevators" you manage to mumble
Only to be short of breath.
You don't want to surprise the other members so
You manage to sneak in undetected. You only
Want to see the party, not participate. Because
That would only make it harder to say goodbye.
You knew there was no cure or operation, as
Your mother passed away from the very same illness.
Sitting quietly in the corner the members enter
Your line of sight. Each one elegantly dressed, but
Show signs of worry. You already know, it's because
You're not there. "I'm sorry" you manage to gasp out.
Shortly after those words, Jaehee appears by your side.
"Excuse me, I don't believe you checked in. May I
Have your name?" She asks in a formal matter.
She was dressed in a slightly more fashionable work uniform.
Her eyes bore into you as she takes in the wheelchair. Along
The many other much needed health supplies.
After clearing your throat a few times you quietly
Manage to reply. "Y/n." It comes out raspy and
Even though you only said one word, your gasping
For more air, repositioning the nasal hose that
Breathes for you. For a split second you see shock.
Then a sense of sadness. "So it's you... You're quite.."
You knew she was struggling. Everyone does when
They see you, only looks of pity. Damn there goes
The sneak in sneak out plan. "I'm not what you were expecting
Right?" You manage to squeeze out, hurting your
Lungs in the process. It must've taken notice to the
Other members because now they're surrounding you.
Each one, taking in who you are. The first one to
Speak is yoosung. "Who cares if you're a little broken,
Your still amazing for putting this party together!".
No no no... Please stay away. You think, I don't want
To hurt you. But no words escape. Your vision blurs
As you think about your future. "Way to make the lady
Cry." Speaks Zen in a worried voice. You want to run
And never look back, scream and tell them to stop
You didn't think it would be this big of a problem. But
You manage to say "I.. Have cachexia... And many
Other..." You take a break to breathe. "Types of cancers."
You take a moment to catch you breath. Waiting
For their response. How will they react? Pity? Sadness?
What about yoosung? He lost a close one and he is
Soon to lose another. You want to hide, make them
Forget you ever existed. After all you're a time bomb
Waiting to explode, hurting everyone around you.
"Well let's make this the best first party!" Yoosung says
Quite excitedly. "Yoosung, please calm down."
You turn your head to the raven haired male who spoke.
"Jumin..." You say. He must've understood. After all
You can barely talk in your condition. "Well I believe it's time to give
Your great speech, impress the mighty God seven~"
You hear the energetic voice and it gives you hope.
False hope but confidence. After a struggle of getting
On the stage to the podium, you glance out. How
Did it end up this way? Sneak in sneak out, that was
The plan! You take a deep breathe, because God
Knows you'll need it. Haha funny how things work out
"Hello... Everyone, thank you for coming." Stopping
To breathe "It means allot ... To me to host... This
Great party... And I hope it meets.. Everyone's" you
Pause. Please not now, a few more words just work.
Your body catches up and you continue "expectations..
I know I... Might look a little worn..." After clearing your
Throat you start up again "but I promise to make it
Through the party at least... As this will be the..." Stopping
To hold back the tears, you inhale and exhale. Trying
To shake away the light head feeling. "This will be the
First and last one I'm hosting.." There's a few
Gasps and you turn to look at the members. Who all
Give you confused looks. All except the 2 members
Who figured it out, and instead of confusion it's...
Sadness. "I want to make this a good party so please
Do not let my announcement ruin the... Atmosphere."
Pausing for a moment, " thank you again, have a good
Night." You end abruptly and slowly wheel your way down.
Although it didn't last long as the next thing you know
Your seeing black and hearing a voice shout "Y/N!"
You wake up, the smell of sterilized utensils enters your
Nose. Hospital. You move around only to realize you're
Immobilized by needles and tubes in places that tubes
Shouldn't be. "Is this it?" You mumble to yourself, only
To reveal you're also wearing an oxygen mask. Figures.
After a quiet knock, the door slightly opens. To reveal
All the members except for one. Everyone but V, which was
Okay as you only talked to him a few times, and at the party
If that could be called talking. "Hey sleepyhead you were
Knocked out cold for a few days." Says a certain blonde
Haired boy. Oh how you loved them all. You couldn't
Bring yourself to push them away, but you don't want to
Say goodbye. They're your only friends. Hell they could
Even be called family. You look at each of them. Silence
Fills the air except for the machines keeping you
Alive. How did it turn out like this? How did you get such
Amazing people around you, you don't deserve it. The
Pain you will cause them, but you know your time is
Running out.
"I'm.. Sorry" you say quietly.
"Y/n... Your gonna be okay right?" Says yoosung, only
To get the response that comes off a little too harsh
"Please go away...".
"Can it be cured? I can hire only the best to help you."
Without even looking you knew who said it. Haha, only
If they knew. It's called terminal for a reason, incurable.
You only want to go in peace. But thats so hard to do
When the people you love most are right next to you.
"No... Don't waste it on someone... Like... Me" barely
Able to squeeze it out you give up on talking.
"Don't speak like that! You're gonna be alright!" The
Voice booms in the small room, letting out a chuckle
At the boys foolish words you manage to say
Full sentences, unbeknownst to you how but
That's okay. "I'm only gonna hurt you so please
Leave... I can feel it coming, it's so close..." You lift
Your restrained hand to reach up towards the
Fluorescent light. "The pain is gonna be gone
Forever" you feel tears springing to your eyes
At a fast pace. But you don't care, letting them
Flow freely. You turn your head only to realize
Every other person is trying their best to hold
Themselves together. You run through in your
Mind, croaking it out "You guys are the most
Amazing... People I've ever met. Please don't
Let my passing Ruin your warmth. Glow like...
Always.." The first to respond through choked
Tears is yoosung. The small boy wrapping his
Arms around you. "Please don't leave, we.. We
All love you! I know we haven't known eachother
For very long but You have to be strong! You can do
It I believe in you! Please... Please don't leave us.
Don't leave me! I-I love you so much!" His sudden
Confession only makes this ten times harder
"V is on his way at least try to hold out until he
gets here." Jumin announces quietly. Please Not another one,
it's hard enough with these but
No more... You turn your head back to yoosung,
Only to hear another voice speak up, but not
Directed to you. "Dude seriously she's on her
Death bed and you're gonna announce something
Like that? Jerk. Y/n don't mind him. Please relax a
Little I know it must be exhausting having all these
People around." The silver haired actor says waving his
Hand around motioning to everyone. I turn to face
yoosung yet again Looking into his amethyst eyes.
"I.. Me.. Too" you Can't bring yourself to say it. Why?
Why can't you Do this one thing. Stupid body, stupid lungs
why is this happening? Your mind goes into pits when
You realize your gasping, the pain is immense.
Shooting from you lungs to your brain.
Oh the sweet relief will be here soon. "Y/n!?" You
Hear a worried seven yell out, along with many other
Voices. Before choking out a few last words. "I
Love you too, yoosung... Please meet me again."
After that everything goes dark. No pain, nothing.
At Least for you... "Ok... y/n" says the distant voice.
To be continued...