Aloha! I was bored and was stumbling around on F*ckyeahcastle when I saw a compilation of the moments that they nearly died together with the quote, "I nearly died, and all I could think about was you". That's where this mess came from. I don't know if I'm going to continue it, but if you guys show me that you like it, i'll continue with the next chapter :)

Thanks and Enjoy!

"If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together...

There is something you must always remember.

You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.

But the most important thing is, even if we're apart...I'll always be with you."

-Winnie The Pooh

As they lay sated in his luxourious bed, tangled with each other and with 1000 Thread Egyptian sheets, the two listened to each other's breathing, not yet willing to stop the bliss with talking. But after what seems like an eternity, the man speaks up.

"You almost died."

"What?" it was said on a breath as she turned to face him, her hand landing on his chest as she pushed herself up to look at him.

"You said that you nearly died and all you could think about was me." He paused until she nodded. "What changed?"

"What do you mean?" her brow furrowed in the very same way it did on the first day they met.

"We nearly died together plenty of time, and yet, when you're away from me, you think of me?" Electric blue met emerald green as they held each other's gaze.

Taking in a slightly shaking breath, Beckett patted his chest twice and then started to speak. "When we almost died in the freezer, all I could think about was how you were there for me, even when we thought we were on the verge of a nuclear break down, you were there. You never left or even hesitated. You just sent off your family to be with me."

There was some silence as Castle took that in. "But when we got out, you went back with Josh," the name tasted sour in his mouth, "why?"

"Because he was safe at the time. He was always gone and that made it easier for me." She sat up, pulling the covers around herself as she sat crossed-legged on his bed.

"And I wasn't?" His brow furrowed as he sat up, reaching over to grab her hand softly, silently letting out a sigh of relief when she didn't pull away.

"You were always. He was a now. I wasn't ready for always until last night." Her eyes conveyed her message in a deeper meaning, not yet able to be spoken.

"What happened last night? Why did that change everything?" He was still so confused. They had nearly been frozen to death in each other's arms, they had nearly been killed by a nuclear bomb, she got shot in the heart, he was held hostage in a bank that was blown up, they were nearly eaten by a tiger, drowned in her car that was sent down the Hudson, and nearly shot by a United States enemy; what happened last night that could possibly be anymore life changing?

"I quit." It was a blunt, simply statement that had his mind reeling.

"W-what?"

"I handed in my badge and gun and I resigned." She shrugged, as if that was no big deal.

"Again, what?"

"Espo and I were chasing down the man that killed me. He got the drop on Esposito when we got to his hotel room and I chased him up to the rooftop of the hotel. I can't even call it a fight; I was no match against him. He threw me around like a rag doll and sent me off the side of the building." The grip his hand had on hers tightened to an almost painful level, but she allowed it. "I hung there with the tips of my fingers and he just left me there. Disappeared in thin air."

"Oh my god, Kate…"

"I know. But I'm alive. I'm here. Kevin called Gates and he caught my arm right when I couldn't hold on any longer." The corner of her lip tugged upwards and she leaned into him, resting their foreheads together.

"Kate…you could've died."

"But I didn't. I came to you." She smiled with her eyes as she looked into his. "It was the best decision I had made all night."

He grabbed the sides of her face, pulling her into a breath-taking kiss. "I'm so glad you came here, Kate. So glad."

"I am too." She responded to his kiss and leaned forward, falling into his lap as the kiss got heated.

Suddenly, the sound of a door opening in the loft alerted them.

Footsteps.

Then…

"Dad? Are you home?"