A/N: This particular piece of fan fic is very emotional for me, because this is based off a real letter I wrote to my ex-boyfriend, who was my best friend for many years as well. As soon as I read of Lily's friendship with Sev in DH, I thought of me And this guy's time together. I changed the letter up a bit so it would be appropriate for Harry Potter. Please let me know what you think!
Final Letter
By: ChoCedric
Dearest Sev,
This is my final letter, the last letter I will ever write you. Through our many years of friendship, we often expressed our feelings to each other through these letters, and it has been a great way for us to express ourselves. My heart aches to know that it will be my last one. I will also, strangely enough, never give it to you, for I couldn't stand for you to read it. I don't want to really get to grips with the fact that it is all over.
I am so sorry, Sev, for being unable to help you and give you everything you needed. Over the years I tried to stop the flow of your bleeding heart, tried to mend the pieces of your life which didn't fit together. Every time I tried to do it, I thought I was making progress, but it seems as if I never did. Every foul word you ever said to me, every hurtful expression you threw my way, made my heart a little more fragile each time, but I forgave you repeatedly in order to give you a chance to change. I needed you as well, you helped me understand so many things about myself which I don't think I would have grasped without you. But now, it has been many years, and I cannot do it anymore, Sev. The hurt, the pain, the endless turmoil -- this cannot continue. I can't tolerate the abuse, what you say to me, everything. I want you to know that I will always care about you, I will always hold a special place for you in my heart. I have started to dream about you, I try to send telepathic messages to you that it will all be okay, but there is not much more I can do to help you, just pray to Merlin that he will do something. I am asking Him to give you guidance through this. It is all I can do to keep breathing, to keep going on like you asked me to when I'm depressed. I ask you to do the same, please don't give up, and my love will always be with you, I just can't show it to you anymore because it costs me too much pain and my mind reels with turmoil after every fight that we have. You were brought into my life for a reason, all our good times will always stay with me. I know no words I can ever say can take your feelings of despair away, but I wish something could help you. I wish you nothing but happiness, no pain or harm will I put upon you or have anyone else put upon you. I would take a curse for you anyday, I would die for you in any way. I would gladly trade places with you so I would know what a day as Sev was like, so I would know what you really go through every day. I don't know how you got this way, but I pray you will grow up and be happy, whether you're single, married, or whatever. I'm sorry that this cost us our friendship. I really am, I sincerely wish it didn't have to end this way.
I conclude this letter now with my deepest love, and I will carry a piece of you with me wherever I go. I will always love you, Sev, the first person who ever taught me about the wizarding world. Stay strong my soldier, I will never stop hoping for you.
My love forever,
Lily