Well here it is guys, just like I promised. For those of you who are reading my work for the first time, you might want to backtrack a little and read Struggle From Within first, as this is the sequel. Disclaimer: I don't own any of Twilight, or its characters. Neither do I own the song lyrics that shall be at the start or end of every chapter. Although I DO own Lily Hale, she was my own creation.

We're going straight into the action, after a little bit of backtracking on what happened.

And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now
Well I know that it's a wonderful world
From the sky down to the sea
But I can only see it when you're here, here with me

James Morrison – Wonderful World

"He has been dealt with," Aro answered simply, the smell of smoke was stronger now, I couldn't just be imagining it, it was too strong. Then it hit me and my jaw dropped, my heart stopping and then my heartbeat increased at an alarming speed. Fire was the only thing that hurt vampires, and Aro had just said he'd been dealt with. No it couldn't possible be could it!? Would they do that?! Jasper couldn't be gone? No that wasn't fair! We were too late, they HAD done that and it was Jasper burning that I smelt.

It was then that my heart broke into a thousand pieces, and then threatened to stop completely as I put a hand to my head, tears sliding down my cheeks. They had killed me Jasper, taken him away from the things he had loved and the people who had loved him. How was this fair? Oh wait it wasn't. I wanted to scream and cry at the same time, and then I wanted to vomit, but I held it down. Jasper had come here to be killed by these people in order to protect us and yet I still found it sick. They had killed the one I loved!

6 whole months had passed. 6 months of pain and grief. Had they really gone that quickly? It didn't seem like it had been that long, it had all passed in a complete blur of pain and heartache. I was still living with the Hales, although Charlie was now aware of this fact, as he hadn't been before. Esme had informed him just two weeks after HIS death. She had told him that I had come to live with them because I needed to see HIM because he had a fatal disease and that I had ended up living there to support him through his final days. Of course she had also added that he'd gone on a trip for treatment and would be home soon. She'd had to promise him that she would tutor me on all the things that I missed at college. Naturally he was reluctant to let me stay, but Esme had turned on her vampire charm and convinced him to let me stay. So I was living with my new adopted family and I visited Charlie every three days, though I wasn't really much fun to be around.

Although it just wasn't the same without HIM there by my side. I still hadn't recovered from the death of the one I loved and I knew I was never going to, not really. All the Hales had learnt that saying HIS name in front of me hurt, and so they now avoided it as much as possible. But now and then it would just slip out, but I would just wince a little and ignored it.

Of course my pain wasn't helped by the fact that I hadn't heard from Alice or Edward for over four months. They had called me just over four months ago and updated me on everything that was going on at college, all the little details. We had a full three hour conversation, it had been fine, completely lifted my spirits, that was until they asked how Jasper was doing. I had chocked back the tears and managed to tell them he had gone away for a few weeks, the same thing that Charlie had been told. I knew that I was going to have to tell them all soon. There had been silence for a few seconds, before Alice had asked when I was coming back. It broke my heart again to tell her that I wasn't going back, not ever and that I was staying with the Hales, it upset her.

That had been the last I'd heard from them. A horrible thought kept creeping into the back of mind, and that was that they were mad at me and didn't want to speak to me. But wasn't four months a little too long to ignore someone? And I knew they would never do that to me, not Alice and Edward was even less likely to do it. Not even if they were in the biggest mood ever. But I hadn't had a single letter or phone call, there was just silence from them, something was wrong. I had tried to call many times, because they had been the only things that were stopping me from throwing myself off a high cliff, but I always got the answering machine. I didn't have their support anymore, just the support of my new family. Apparently Charlie had received a call from them a week ago, but he said they sounded a little strange, like they were in pain and it had lasted for about three minutes. This put even more doubt in my mind and the thought that they were ignoring me returned.

I had to admit though; I wasn't exactly a good person to talk to, even if they had wanted to. And I couldn't have been much fun either. I felt that it was understandable though; my true love had been ripped away from me and brutally murdered by a group of vampires. But wait, they didn't know that did they? Oh yeah did I mention that I was madly in love with a vampire who lusted for my blood? Or should that be I had been in love with one. But he had been destroyed after he had decided to save his family and me. He had been brave and noble enough to run to his death in order to protect us.

We had tried desperately to stop him, but we had been too late. He had already been destroyed, by Aro and his followers. I vowed that I would pay him back for what he did. Though Esme was still under the impression that he wasn't dead, but the rest of us just knew that he was, there was no other option. HE had been killed; there wasn't a doubt about it. We had all smelt the smoke; we had all known what the Volturi were going to do to him when he reached them because of his actions.

I was stood now at the river that I had been stood at five months ago, when I had finally accepted the fact that he was gone. Not that I liked it one bit and it wasn't going to heal, just because I had accepted it. I had come out here every month on the date that HE had been killed, and dropped a single red rose in the water, just in remembrance of him.

"Bella," A voice purred from the other side of the river, I froze instantly. WHAT THE HELL!? My first thought was to run, but then I spotted the red eyes that shone from behind the trees. There was no out running a vampire, not a chance. "Bella come here," It carried on, coaxing me forwards to it. I just stood my eyes wide, completely frozen to the spot. I should have called for Esme, or Rose or Lily, but I couldn't find my voice.

My mind was screaming at me to run, but a little part was fighting it and telling me to step forwards. "What do you have to lose Bella? Jasper's gone..." I winced at his name, but listened still. "Alice and Edward don't care anymore...They haven't called in weeks. What is there for you now? You welcome death remember? You've thought about throwing yourself off a cliff many times before now, death is welcome in your eyes." I took a step forward, knowing I should be running, but I couldn't help but listen.

"No Bella," The rational half of my brain screamed at me, making me stop, mid-step. "Think of Esme, think of Charlie. Your family love you very much. Esme will be distraught at losing another child and as for Charlie, you're all he has! Don't take that away from him. Alice isn't here anymore, she's all grown up!" I gulped a little, stepping away from the red eyes, which were frightening me a little now. I knew they belonged to a vampire, because I'd seen them in Italy. Aro's eyes had been red, like all the vampires in that room.

With a small gasp I turned and shouted loudly for Esme and Rose, I knew Lily was out today. "Esme! Rose!" I called, turning back to the eyes, but they had gone. I panicked and tore for the house, meeting Esme halfway; she grabbed me and looked at me desperately.
"What is it child?" She asked as I gave a sob and hugged her tightly, burying my face against her shoulder, as I felt her hug me back. "Bella, tell me what happened," She whispered after a few moments silence. I don't know how, but I managed to find my voice.

"There was someone by the river, watching me," I choked, pulling away and looking over the river, where there was nothing. "They had red eyes Esme, they were a vampire." Esme froze and exchanged a look with Rose, whose eyes were widened in horror and shock, but she soon regained herself and looked at me normally. "I swear they were there-"
"We believe you Bella, now go inside," She instructed me firmly, letting me go fully and pushing me towards the door. I gladly ran in as she spoke to Rose in a quiet voice so that I wouldn't hear and the pair of them went to the river. I held my breath...