Impossible
We try to take the good advice from people close to our hearts...Well sometimes even the good advice can cause a serious damage. Partially, in this story as well. Lily remembered one old lady had told her that she must be careful in things related to love...she was too young, she hadn't understood. Actually, the old lady had wanted to protect her from pain and disappointment but these things once have to come.
But now, now it was too late. He was strong and she wasn't. She had her illusions and ideas how she will meet her prince on the white horse. She was careless and that was the reason she forgot. She almost forgot her aim.
And now everything is done. She didn't know what to do. He had been serious and she, eagerly holding the advice, had messed it up. He had begrudgingly agreed and left. She had thought that without an effort but about to conversely. Lily sometimes in pique of anger thought, ´Go and tell them! That you gave me up!´
Lily, Lily...if you only knew how he was suffering as well. How many times she was going out and screaming angrily on the school grounds.
"Tell them everything I know! Shout it from the roof topsand write it on the sky! Everything is gone!"
He knew what she was feeling towards him but he didn't mean to make it easier for her. He wanted her to suffer a bit. She wanted to tell everybody that until she had fallen in love how she had been happy, but now she had a broken heart. Everything seemed difficult and tangled. He had been fighting for her all those years and she had been refusing him. Now she showed herself and he gave up. The pain in her heart, all the open wounds... She wanted to tell him what she was hoping for. But everything is so...
She felt that love is beautiful and difficult at the same time. That love is so hard but falling for the betrayal is even harder. She had broken his trust and his heart too...she had trampled it. She knew that.
She thought that he had been building trust on the love and words. However, that trust... it is hard to obtain. Lily had been cautious since that advice...sometimes it's pity. What horrible things had happened. She didn't want it to be like this.
She was angry with him that he had given up. Oh, those bitter thoughts, 'There´s nothing to say! If you are done with embarrassing me go and tell them! Go!' And along with them bitter tears and pressure on her soul...she couldn´t withstand that anymore.
Everything seemed to be so...
Things aren't always as bad as they seem. Even though their story continues, in that moment it was so hard... That lady had meant it well, but Lily misunderstood it. They both suffered for a time. Everything would have been better if they hadn't let their pride get in the way. Their love was stronger than their pride. Even Death could not defeat it, though it came so fast...