Magnus sat on his bed and stared out of the window. The lights of Brooklyn glowing in the distance. He held the picture of Alec in his hand. His smile as radiant as the sun. His runes standing out black on white. There was a knock on the door. Magnus quickly shoved the picture under the covers and stood, stretching as he walked to the wooden door of his apartment. When he opened the door he saw Camille stood there. The light drizzle from outside had made her long hair have a shiny sheen.
"come in Camille" Magnus huffed and stalked away from the door where he slumped into his leopard print chair. Camille shut the door and walked towards Magnus, a sympathetic look on her face.
"you knew the time would come when you had to let go. You have never acted like this before" she sat down opposite him and regarded him with a searching look. He had never looked so normal. His hair was flat and lifeless, no glitter to make it shine like little stars on a midnight blue sky, his cat eyes dull and desolate. He wore a pair of plain blue jeans and a white shirt that was buttoned all the way up. He lacked his usual look of life. It had been a week since it had happened and he felt like his whole world had come to an end.
Magnus stared at his hands which were loosely folded on his lap "he was different" was all he could say before he started to choke up with tears. Camille sighed impatiently but none the less she went to his side and gave him a short reassuring hug.
Magnus didn't want her reassurance. She had told him to let go before it was to late. But he hadn't expected the end to come so soon. He looked up at Camille, his eyes pooling with fresh tears. He had promised himself he would be strong like when he had lost the others but this was just to much.
"Magnus why are you acting like this, you act like he was the only one you ever loved, the only one you ever cared for….and we know that isn't true. You have cared for many who have passed away. There was even a time when you loved me"
"BUT ITS NOT THE SAME!" roared Magnus. He jumped out of his seat and turned to face Camille.
"I truly thought that he was the one that I would spend a good, long, healthy amount of time with but no, shadowhunters never last long"
"You new him for such a short time though and he was so young, he shouldn't have gone to the island, the arrogant little Nephlim"
"ALEXANDER WAS NOT AN ARROGANT LITTLE NEPHLIM!" Magnus bellowed. "They drew him there, told him that they had me and would kill me if he didn't come, he did it because he loved me. He didn't even think to check here, where I was the whole time. He went straight to that bloody island where he was trapped by the greater demons and slaughtered" Magnus dropped to his knees a fresh load of sobs rattling his body.
Camille walked to the fire place and stared at what she thought was a pathetic excuse of a man, crumpled on the floor, sniffling.
"if he hadn't of disobeyed orders by the clave and been so hot headed you wouldn't have had to go there to find him lying there in a crumpled pile of broken bones and blood. Without a single breath left in his body". Magnus lifted his head to find Camille standing there with a satisfied look on her face. She new she had touched a nerve. He had been the first one there at the abandoned shack where, on the door step Alec lay, his face peaceful in deaths embrace. Magnus had tried with all his strength to get Alec's heart to beat, for his lungs to taste precious air. But he couldn't do it, he cried out with anger as he held on to Alec's lifeless form. He crouched, his strength nearly completely gone, as Jace stood, still as a statue, his shirt becoming red with the blood his Parabatai rune bled. As Isabelle, her face a mask of despair, sunk to her knees, to weak to stand, tears staining her cheeks, to shocked to make a sound. And then he heard the words that truly signified the end of Alecs young life, said in Clary's strong, sweet voice "Ave Atque Vale"
Magnus had helped Jace carry Alec into the institute, had been there in the hallway where he could hear the muffled sobs of the lightwood family as they sat by his body waiting for brother Zachariah to take him to the city of bones. He felt helpless and out of place, even though he had been in a relationship with Alec and loved him with all his heart he felt as if he shouldn't mourn him the way that Alec's family did.
So now slumped on the carpeted floor of his apartment he felt like his world had ended.
"I don't think I can go through this ever again" said Magnus. He slowly got up from the floor and turned to face Camille, his hand braced on the chair next to him to keep his balance.
"your such a sentimental fool Magnus, you'll never learn" Camille said in melodic voice.
"I have loved to many, watched to many people die, where as I live a life of leisure. I don't need worry about death like the average mundane. This life is cursed".
"This is not a cursed life, many would die multiple times to have what we have, they would go to any lengths to be able to see the world like we do, to physically see the changes that the world progresses to". Camille walked towards Magnus and gave him a menacing look. " Do not say that you wish to die. To throw away a gift so precious as immortality" and with that Camille stalked out of Magnus's apartment, slamming the door behind her.