Title: Dear Diary (Lavender)
Author: Rhapsody
Summary: Life is full of happiness and sorrow, triumphs and downfalls. This is the diary of a Gryffindor girl who is usually overlooked. Take a peak into her life...
Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created and owned by JK Rowling, various publishers including but not limited to Bloomsbury Books, Scholastic Books and Raincoast Books, and Warner Bros., Inc. No money is being made and no copyright or trademark infringement is intended.
Author's Note: This story is real events (some recent, some not) . It was inspired by the lovely Jessi Rose. She has a companion story, called Dear Diary (Ginny) which can be found under my Favorite Authors page. I give her credit for the idea behind the Dear Diary theme. This entry coincides with Jessi's entry four.
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A blond girl in pink robes sat on her bed the cool autumn evening, a book open in front of her. She had a quill in her right hand and was sucking the end of the purple feather. It was not an unusual situation for her to do so. Especially lately...
Dear Diary,
It's funny how life works sometimes. I remember when I was little. People used to tell me I could do anything if I set my mind to it. I listened to them, and now I feel a fool for ever believing such crap. When one is feeling alone it becomes harder to trust others. Even those who are closest to you. Or in my case were closest.
I guess I should start from the beginning of the story. It was last term when it all happened, when my whole world fell apart, when I got raped. He was a sixth year at the time, now he's a seventh year. He's a Hufflepuff, just like Padma. Poor girl, I pity her for having to spend time with him. She's on the quidditch team with him.
Lavender sighed and set down the pen staring at the ceiling. Tears were welling up in her eyes. Silently they rolled down her cheeks. She closed her eyes.
I wish I could run away from it all but I can't. I waited too long to tell anyone, so he's still at Hogwarts. I reported it to McGonnagal but there's nothing she can do. I have to look at him every day in the halls. It makes me go mad. I start crying and pitching a fit. Not that I can help it, it's just another burden I must bear.
The world is so unfair. But there's nothing I can do about it complaining will get me nowhere and I have no one left to comfort me...
Parvati left me. She began ignoring me when I got sick and had to stay in the hospital wing. It was because of *him* that I was sick. But she ignored me. She started to avoid me and we stopped sharing a trunk. She doesn't sleep in our dorm anymore, she is staying with Ginny.
She got mad at me in the first place because of Ginny. It was my birthday and Parvati threw a party for me in the common room and we were playing spin the bottle. Ginny and I had a pretty good snog. And after that Parvati threw a fit. I started talking to her sister more often after that. Padma understood what had happened to me.
Parvati told Cypris about what I'd supposedly done to her. All I gleamed from the conversation was that I had wronged Parvati by "relying on her". I spent the next three days in bed crying. I feel so alone.
Lavender lied back in her bed, with her head resting lightly on her pillow. She tugged on a strand of hair that kept falling in her face. She sighed and sat up again, continuing to write.
I've come to the conclusion that I should have been in Slytherin. I've found that since Parvati left me, they are all I have. My family has always been associated with purebloods. It doesn't seem unreasonable that I would be friends with them. My fellow Gryffindors don't get along with them too well, especially lately.
I began spending more and more time with Crabbe. Him and Goyle spend loads of time together, but when he's free I usually find time for him. Goyle has been a bit preoccupied with his girlfriend Pansy. I've known her since we were both eight years old, and she's always there for me.
It's funny how I'm coping with all of my grievances. I busy myself with school work and people. All of my remaining time seems to be occupied by Cypris. She and I have gotten really close since school started. Blaise and Nott have been there for me too, but sometimes one needs a female companion. She's wonderful just to talk to, or to have a snog with. Me and Parvati used to do that, but it was always awkward. It's never like that with Cypris...
Lavender heard the door to the dormitory open and Ginny walked in. She was glowing with happiness but had a troubled look in her eyes. Lavender quickly shut the diary and shoved it into her trunk. Parvati entered the room soon after. Lavender quickly got up and left the dormitory and the two girls to their fancies. She left Gryffindor tower to walk the halls, alone...