Chapter 1:Girls talk?

What do I want to hear..?

What are my expectations..?

Am I dreaming...?

What do I believe..?

What am I holding onto?

...

All these questions were swirling around in my head.

Right after I was certain that I didn't see it coming.

Or rather I knew the moment would come but I didn't want to admit it.

I wonder when did I began to doubt myself and my feelings.

No I'm sure I always doubted myself...

"Hey!Sakuraaa!You there?Helloo!"

The sound of a bothersome blonde met my ears.

That person never ceases to amaze me with her high piched voice.

Suddenly a slender Hand sways lively infront of my field of vision.

"Man stop spacing out and focus!I haven't got all day you know?"

I slap her Hand away and focus on her again.

Ino yamanaka. My childhood friend, rival and best friend.

Our relationship was always questioning...when we weren't quarreling over who Sasuke would be choosing, we would fight over other trivial things.

I guess you could say we were childish back then.

Despite all that, I always admired her. For everything.

Jealousy was also always a big issue regarding her beauty..

It's not that I found myself unattractive or ugly but Ino is a real beauty.

Her long almost platinum blonde locks grew longer since the war.

She still covers half of her face with them.

What I always liked about her beauty were those light sky blue eyes.

They always showed earnesty and determination in everything they did.

I was envious of these Eyes since I saw them..

Back then I would never have thought about her the way I was.

Now I cant't help but do ..I am grateful that she is here with me.

Considering her and me stopped fighting, the two of us grew closer.

And the fact that she and Sai are a couple plays a huge role in our "Rehabilitation"

"God damnit stop it already Ino! I'm not deaf..."

The blonde pouted.

"Well a certain someone called me and was whining about how desperately she had to talk to me."

I twiched at the sound of her sarcastic tone.

"Okay first of all I wasn't whining..."

This woman...

She eyed me curiously.

"So tell me..Whats up?You've been so quiet since I got here and constantly spacing out..!"

"Well there is bugging me something since...you know.."

"Is it about Sasuke?"

I nod.

"What is it?..Did he do something?..Or."

I sigh.

"No he didn't do 's me...I..gave up on him."

The next Thing I saw was hilarious, altough I am not supposed to laugh at it.

Inos eyes were wide like huge ozon holes..her eyes nearly looked like they were ready to falll out.

I simply snap my fingers before her face.

"Hey..don't forget to breath..."

The blonde grabbed me by my shoulders.

"Are you fucking serious right now?Tell me that you didn't take any drugs..Because if this is a joke its a crappy one-"

i flicked her forehead and she came back to her senses..

"Could you tell me why i would make this a crappy joke?!Does it seem so impossible for me to say such a thing?I-"

The table rattled as ino punched it.

"Haruno!Are you listening to yourself?You can't just expect me to believe the bullshit youre spouting!You honestly think you can say that?You waited for him almost 3 years!Chased him and told him you love him at least 2 times!You devoted half of your life to him and now you come here and tell me you're giving up on that uchiha?For what reason?"

This is ridiculous..So she still doesn't know huh...Okay i'll be the one to deliver the news.

"Could you slow down?This is getting really annoying with you not being able to read between the lines!Even Hinata could do it!Before I tell whats going on with Sasuke, I'll tell you my reasons."

She sat down and took a deep breath.

"Okay talk."

I turned my gaze to the window.

"I can't do this anymore Ino..all that crap talk about team seven and going back to the way it was...I was delusional.I am tired and sick of it...You're right.I..like devoted half of my lifet to him...but for what to be disappointed all over again..What i saw fnally freed me out of these damn chaines tht bid me from seeing the truth...I did a lot of thinking..and I still have to do alot more."

Ino closed her eyes..

"What do you mean a lot more ?"

I still look out of the window..

"Just what I said..i think I'll go on along time mission with hinata..I still gotta think about what i wanna do..or will do..!"

The blonde sighed.

"Okay i can understand what you mean by giving up on him and if you can do that then i'll support you...if you are happy with the decision you made..but what happened to Sasuke."

I blush a little at that thought-

I gulp hard but face her..

"Uhh...Well..Sasuke is..he..Naruto..uhgggg."

My head touched the wooden table with a brute force.

Ino blinked a few times but didn't speak.

"It's complicated ...but it was so obvious."

First I need a drink.