Summary: In school. It's bully or BE bullied. I took the safest option and became best friends with the bitchiest girl in my year. That is, I thought it was the safest option. I had always thought no one paid any notice of me, that I was the shadow in the school but that was until, I was noticed by Kai Hiwatari. Kai/OC

Chapter 1 – Dear Diary

Monday 14th September 2009

Dear Diary,
I guess it's been a long time since I've wrote in one of these. I haven't written in a diary for four years, in fact, I never even gave a thought of buying one during high school until now that is.

Firstly, let me talk about my current self. My name is Amy Willis. I'm below average height compared to other girls at the age of sixteen; I'm only 5"3. You may think that is an okay height but in my family, their average height is 6"1. Yes, even the females are close to that height. My family still treat me in more ways like a child rather than a young adult due to this – It's very frustrating, you know? I just want to shake them and go: "I'm not a child anymore!" But then they'd bring in the Law and say I have to be eighteen to legally be an adult. It's so annoying.
My hair colour right now is a mahogany colour. Unlike the other girls at school, I don't use permanent hair dye; it's pretty stupid too as if you don't keep dying your hair repetitively your real hair colour will show with the roots. At least with semi-permanent, the hair colour will fade out with hardly anyone noticing. I guess now you're thinking what my real hair colour is now, 'ay Diary? Well, it's not all different from the mahogany hair colour I have right now. Only my real hair colour is darker. I guess it is pretty stupid to dye it if it is near enough the same hair colour, but you know what it is like at school. People look down at you for not being "cool" and getting with the fashion programme.
I'm sounding pretty cool now, don't I? Well, it won't last. I'm a little over average weight and I'm slightly obese. ' Woop-dee-doo, a little over weigh.' . Believe me, weight is an important thing in school here. 'You have to be thin and get into the prettiest outfits'. Supposedly, 'the clothes that are 12+ are pregnant woman's clothes', a quote from my best friend from school, Jennifer. In school, its bully or BE bullied. I took the safest option and became best friends with the bitchiest girl in my year. That is, I thought it was the safest option.
You know the stereotype "nerd"? You know, having the big thick glasses? Yeah, I have them. They cover half my face and believe me. If I had not became best friends with Jennifer then my life in high school would have been worse than it has been lately. I mean, I do have contacts. But I don't wear them often. I wouldn't be able to wear them for a whole day of school, plus I was only allowed to wear them a year ago and so if I just started wearing those people would probably laugh at me for "trying so hard".
Okay, I know you're just itching to hear what's wrong with school at the moment but right now I just thought about something else to talk about. The only family member smaller than me is my little brother Zachary, he's currently seven at the moment. He goes to Rutbridge primary school, just down the road from my high school, Overton High. He's pretty cool I guess. We both have the same eye colour, chocolate brown. But unlike me he has my mum's hair colour, a real dirty blonde colour. I was pretty envious when I found out that he took up mum's side of the family. I mean, he has mum's nose! I wanted mum's nose! Instead I got dads! Supposedly a small button nose is considered cute but I don't like it at all. With my button nose, I can't even wear glasses properly. They just keep sliding down! I have the worse luck with glasses, these right now are my third pair and I haven't even done three weeks of school yet! On the first day, my glasses fell on the floor and someone stepped on them – by accident I might add. There was no maliciousness when they realised they stepped on them. He was either, very good at acting or he actually did feel bad, I believe the latter. My second pair got crushed, thanks to Zachary. He decided that, they would be his play toy while I wore contacts in the house for an hour to do the cooking.

Now, I'll tell you about my miserable time in school so far. Well, on my first day, I found out my homeroom class has had a few students swapped into others. That's no problem, but, then we find out that, Kai Hiwatari, the best looking and smartest boy in our year is now in our homeroom class. And Jennifer is flirting with him more than I thought was possible. He doesn't even show the slightest bit of interest in her. I think Jennifer is way over her head if she thinks Kai'll be with her. But I can't exactly tell her that, I'd hurt her feelings and when her feelings are hurt, that person is in for a world of torture in school. Truthfully though, I think what makes her believe she has a fighting chance to be with him, is that in the first year he took her to the end of year prom and ever since then she's been obsessive over him. I mean I can understand why she would fancy him. He's practically good at everything he does! He doesn't even try and he still gets the best grades in the class! Though there have been rumours on how his grandfather is very strict on him at home. He probably has a ton of private tutors waiting for him after every school day.

I overheard a conversation a week ago and would you believe what I heard?! You have to do a test to get into the club you want to go to! And if you don't pass, you have to go to the library for an hour every week after school or go to a homework club! And certain clubs have harder tests! And you know I have the worse luck possible. Music is one of the clubs with the hardest tests. You have to prove you are more than capable of benefitting from the club. Just my luck, I'll probably not get in there now! To make matters worse, there is a limit on just how many people can go into a club, so if there were fifteen people better at music than me I would not be allowed to go in! I just hope that I am good enough to get in because I'm not one who'd like to do home economics (I do enough of that at home) or English Language and literature (I don't want to be the modern Shakespeare). Plus, I hate to say this, but I also want to get in the club as Jennifer doesn't like music. Horrible to say I know, but sometimes I just need to have time away from her. She's too dominating and attention seeking, not to mention her perfume is thick and I could probably produce asthma from breathing it in too often.

Yet another problem which has occurred is that, in Physical Education, the girls now do sport with the boys. We've been split into large groups and we rotate sports every half term. And guess how the groups are decided. You guessed it, by the Homerooms. So guess what? Kai Hiwatari is in me and Jennifer's group. Fan-freakin'-tastic. I mean, I have nothing against the guy, honestly! But when he's around you feel mediocre and pretty much useless. I remember, in my second year the groups were set up differently and the boys were playing soccer. Kai called my name to kick the ball over. Pretty reasonable, don't you think? Wait for it. I aimed to kick the ball, but I had forgotten about my tennis match and would you have it not? The ball hit me on the back of my head, making my fall face first into the ground and-as luck would have it- broke my glasses and I had a headache for a week. Kai ran over to see if I had gained a serious injury, probably because he felt bad for making me go and kick the ball to him. And he took me to the first aid room as I was completely helpless without my glasses. We didn't talk when he took me there; actually he's the most quietest person I know. Well, Jennifer didn't talk to me for a week after that, she claimed my injury was self-harm just for his attention. After that week she started talking to me again, acting as if she was doing a favour being my friend – I guess that is true. At least then I don't get bullied as much as I would have been.

Well, tomorrow is when everyone has to decide on which club they will do as we have been back to school for two weeks now. We were given two weeks so that everyone would settle in their lessons and look around at all the clubs so they could decide straight away later on. At the end of the day, notices will be around the school on if they have been accepted to do a test in the chosen club. I'm pretty anxious. I mean, I have absolutely NO idea on who will be applying for the music club. I'm just thankful that certain clubs are on certain days and you only have your year in the club. So you won't have any hyperactive first years or "bored out of their minds" sixth years.

Well, I best leave it at that diary. I have much more to say but I'll write it up another time. I have to put Zachary to bed and then put the clothes up to dry from the washing machine. Mum's not well again so I have to do everything until mum's better again. I hope she gets well soon, I'm getting really worried about her, it's been two weeks now.

Bye

Amy.