Thursday's Tears

A Drake & Josh fan-fic created for the older fan (ages 17-adult)

A short story by Alison Lydon

Told in both the first and third person formats.

Lead characters:

Drake Parker & Josh Nichols

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters. No copyright infringement is intended.

Chapter 1: Thursday's Tears

Spring 2005

A Thursday night

I was hungry at midnight for some cheddar cheese and crackers. Plus I wanted to

check my e-mail messages on the family computer so I wouldn't wake up my sleeping

brother. I didn't think I was gone long at all. It couldn't have been no more than twenty-

five minutes max. Even though the computer crashed when I tried making a banner in

Photoshop. I was taken aback when I came back into our room. The silence would

have been eerie if weren't for the sound of my brother crying. I wasn't sure at first.

Maybe, he was just making sounds in his sleep. But, no there he was his back to me,

clutching his pillow, and crying.

I couldn't embarrass him and make him feel more uncomfortable, as I knew this

surely would. For those same reasons I couldn't tell Mom and Dad. I quietly turned

around to concoct the "I fell asleep on the living room couch watching Ghost

Monsters." lie.

I never saw him like that before. Was this the first time he cried in bed? And not the

five-year-old tummy ache cries to Mommy but real tears. Just like I used to a few

years back. I couldn't imagine why he'd be crying. He has everything going for him. All

I know is I couldn't let on that I witnessed it. It would only humiliate him and I love him

too much for that.

Next Day: Friday

It was a typical Friday morning at the Nichols-Parker house in San Diego, California.

Mom Audrey left early because she had a meeting that she was late for and Dad Walter

left ten minutes ago because the station was doing a live feed from a busy downtown

restaurant for a contest leaving the kids to make their own breakfast.

Megan Parker, "evil" sister extraordinaire laughed as the Boob sat on a strawberry

cream pie. It was for tonight's dessert but all Megan had to do was create one of her

parent proof fibs and it'd be her brothers who would be in trouble rather than her.

"Megan! Look what you've done. Now I have strawberry butt!"

"What a Boob!" Megan took her plate of waffles into the living room.

"Nice look, Josh." Drake laughed.

"It's not funny, Drake. Now I have to change my pants. I can't be late. Mindy and I are

having a coffee before school."

"Because you love her." Drake replied making kissy-face noises between bites of his

self-made waffle cake.

"Yeah. I do!" Josh wasn't about to deny it.

"Well before you leave. Don't forget to wash the dishes. It's your turn."

"Drake! Mom said it was your turn."

He always did this.

"No. It's your turn, Josh!"

"Fine," he sighed. "I'll do the stupid dishes."

"Thanks, Brotha."

"Knuckle touch?"

Drake rolled his eyes as they knuckle touched. Megan was right. Josh was a Boob—

but a good one.

Saturday

It was family night around the TV for the final results show of Canadian Idol. Drake was

waiting for the phone to ring to see if he made the final cut for the local talent show. He

couldn't concentrate on eating and his and Josh's special recipe of Cola and Dr. Fizz

was making his stomach nauseous.

"Megan! If you don't put down that phone. I'm going to throw a dinner roll at you!"

"Drake, don't torment your sister." Mom replied.

"We've been over this." Dad added for good measure.

Man, she had them hoodwinked.

I think I might have made too big a deal in my own head about last night. Everything

is fine and dandy.

Let's face it if something were wrong I think we'd all know about it by now.

"Oh don't tell me you are voting for Alicia." Drake tugged on Josh's arm.

"What's wrong with her?"

"She doesn't write her own music. It's obvious that Bryan should win."

"How come you aren't voting for him then?"

"Duh, Josh! I'm waiting for the phone to ring. You can vote online."

"Fine."

Drake was hoping to be a fourth-peat. Although it was going to be hard to top the cover

of The Blues Brother's "Soul Man" that he did with Josh and his band.

If he passed the final cut of the auditions then he'd be in the talent show. It didn't seem

as important as the other three. The doorbell rang and Mom asked Drake to answer it

as Josh was on the family computer racking up votes for pop-star wannabe Alicia.

"Oh, it's you, Creature." Drake said to Mindy.

"It's nice to see you, too, Drake."

Everyone said their 'hellos' and asked Mindy if she wanted to join them for dinner and

watch Canadian Idol with the family.

It looks like Josh forgot to inform everyone that he and Mindy were going to see the

astronomy exhibit at the local museum.

"Have fun you two." Mom and Dad waved goodbye to Josh and Mindy.

Drake couldn't believe it! Here he was on a Saturday night at home waiting for the

phone to ring.

Torey was supposed to be different. But she had plans with her mother and couldn't go

out on a date tonight. Drake tried to respect that she had a bond with her mother and all

that…but come on! He was Drake Parker! He wasn't supposed to be home on a

Saturday night waiting for the phone to ring! He won the talent show three years in a

row, what in the Hell was the committee waiting for? Let's face it he was the talent show!

Yet it was stepbrother Josh on yet another date with his steady and formal class rival

Mindy Crenshaw who tried to get him suspended for a stunt that she pulled by putting

Hafer's car in her classroom and trying to frame him for it.

And he was supposed to like her now because she was all lovey-dovey with Josh? No

way.

No fricking way.

Sunday

Everything is still fine. I'm not sure about dandy though. He sure is being extremely

moody lately. I don't understand why. It's like something in him is changing. But I

haven't heard him cry since I caught him a few night's ago.

I can't talk to him about it all. How could I? . He hates it when I talk about my problems.

It would only be embarrassing for him and me too. Plus most likely it would cause a

fight between us.

We should be doing our usual Sunday after Church routine before dinner and that is

play with the Gamesphere. But we're not. He's being all quiet and moody pretending

to watch TV on the bedroom sofa and I'm supposed to be installing the new anti-virus

software program on our computer. But all I can do is look at my brother and know that

something in his world is not quite right and there is nothing I can do about it.

Monday

Josh and Mindy started eating their lunch together. It just seemed like the natural

progression in a relationship. They didn't want to share a table with anyone but

themselves. There was a small side table that became their lunch haven. Drake nodded

and said he didn't mind. After all not only did he have his girlfriend Torey, but a bunch of

friends, including his band mates, as well as his female admirers who were all waiting

for him to break up with that "Torey witch." so that they could date the one and only

Drake Parker, Belleview's coolest high school junior.

"Josh, are you okay?" asked Mindy, who Josh was amazed could study to be on the

honor roll and all of her other class activities, date him, and still find time took as fresh

and beautiful as she did in her matchy preppy ensembles from J. Crew and the Gap.

"I'm fine. Why?"

"Because you haven't touched your apple slices. And I did remember the car-mel

dipping sauce."

"You say car-mel. I say cara-mel, but whatever." Josh laughed.

But Mindy could tell. Hey she was able to put a car in a classroom and clone her own

cockapoo so she could obviously tell when Josh was upset.

"Josh, I think—" Mindy started but something else grabbed her and everyone else's

attention when Drake stood on the lunch table with his electric guitar.

"May I have your attention, PLEASE?"

"Drake?" Josh stood up but couldn't move from his spot in the cafeteria.

"What's your brother doing on top of the table?" Mindy asked

Josh's first thought was that Drake was going to be in serious trouble for just breaking

into song while standing on top one of the lunch tables. But as Josh noted a few months

ago "it was good to be Drake" (until he got a real girlfriend of his own. And then Josh

thought it was good to be just Joshie.) and sure enough what teacher could get angry

over a kid in a vintage button-down blue striped shirt, faded jeans, and rock star

approved boots who could play the guitar better than some of the college kids they saw

in the under 21 clubs? Josh knew Drake was upset over not passing the audition for the

annual talent show. They finally got back to him on Sunday night after dinner. It wasn't

because Drake was bad. It was because Drake was too good. And the committee who

judges these things thought it wasn't fair to the other kids who wanted to enter the

contest if Drake was always the winner even if it was an audience applause determining

talent show. The drummer might have been using the salt and pepper shakers as

impromptu drumsticks, but it was Drake that was the real talent.

Josh knew that it was Drake's way to show the faceless THEM that nothing was going

to stop him from being a rock and roll star someday.

Only his brother could do this and not get suspended. When you not only have your

girlfriend amazed by your talents but the Principal snapping her fingers and dancing

then you don't have to worry about any bad marks on one's record. He really knew how

to take a sad song and make it better.

Yes, it was good to be Drake.

Tuesday

Josh had to work at the Premiere from five to nine tonight. Helen and the rest of the

management dropped the assistant "gold vest" manager employee incentive. But since

he started working there Josh Nichols was making an extra ten cents an hour. Wow. A

whole extra ten cents to take home in his paycheck so that he could definitely buy a new

tanning bed now. Not.

It was starting to get to him that Drake wasn't getting harped on by Mom nor Dad to find

a job. Yes, he was a talented musician and all that, but he wasn't a famous one yet and

there were no guarantees that he'd even make it big. It wasn't fair that he didn't have to

earn his own money. At least he stopped selling his personal possessions on Ebay.

Sometimes Josh was jealous of Drake, especially regarding matters of the opposite

sex. But that was pre-Mindy so it wasn't a point of contention anymore. He wished he

had Drake's good poster-boy looks, ability to play the guitar, and the smooth

confidence that he had where he could talk to just about anybody about almost anything

and not be twitchy or nervous about it like he could be. But Mindy was helping with

Josh's self-esteem a great deal and he was glad that their rivalry and short term feud

ended with them becoming more than friends. Although (and Josh could never tell

Drake about this) that he was keeping a Mindy journal to post all of his private

relationship thoughts in for his own private eyes only. He even kept it in his school locker

so Megan couldn't steal it. Granted it was just a single bound red spiral notebook from

the pharmacy, but it was still a place where he could write his secret thoughts in and not

get laughed at by anyone. He didn't even tell Mindy about the journal.

It might have been good to be Drake, but it was also awesome to be Josh.

Wednesday

It was a bright and sunny eighty-degree day and the Nichols-Parker house was having a

small pool party in their backyard. It was like a pretty picture postcard. A moderately

family sized in-ground pool and the lemon trees by the kitchen window made it look like

a page out of decorating magazine. Megan sat on her favorite lawn chair and pretended

to be reading her Highlights magazine but smiled as she looked up. She had a great

practical joke set up and couldn't wait to see results. It didn't matter which brother got it.

They were both Boobs. Walter and Audrey said the boys could invite their girlfriends if

they wanted but because tomorrow was still a school night the festivities would be over

at nine. Torey's Mom said that she had to be home at 9:30 and Mindy's Mom and Dad

didn't seem to care what hour she got home.

Josh and Mindy wanted get a team together to play volleyball before the barbeque.

"Is Drake afraid of the water?" Mindy asked in her best snark.

Drake seemed to think that he was the only one who couldn't like the other one, but

Mindy didn't exactly think highly of Drake either.

"He doesn't want to get his hair wet."

Which was why he was dressed in his jeans and yet another international football

(soccer) t-shirt with fancy team emblems. Rather than bright orange swim trunks and a

blindly matching Hawaiian inspired shirt ala Josh.

"Is that fair to Torey? I mean it's a pool party." Mindy rolled her eyes.

Couldn't Drake see that Torey was dressed in a teaberry colored one-piece? She was

there to use the pool too.

"Drake! Come on! Get in the pool! We want to play volleyball. Guys against the girls."

Those were the kind of stakes that Mindy liked. No offense to Josh, she just wanted to

cream Drake. It was the competitive nature of a girl who always beat Josh in the

science fairs.

"Come on, Drake—change into your swim trunks." Torey asked. She tried not to mind.

Besides, he did play a song for her on his acoustic guitar before, but it was ruined by

Megan's heckling.

He looked into her eyes and figured that he'd better. But God help him if he got his hair

wet.

Megan put her magazine down and stood up. How come her latest maneuver wasn't

working? The Boob (in this case Josh) should have gotten it by now!

"Josh, I hope you won't find it offensive if I say I want to beat Drake in volleyball." Mindy

said before Torey came into the pool.

Mom and Dad went back into the house to get everything ready for the picnic.

"I know Drake doesn't like you, but I thought you'd try to like him." Josh just wanted

everyone to get along.

"In the next life."

But Mindy did like Torey and they did share some girl bonding when they changed into

their swimsuits earlier by trying on lip-glosses and comparing the boys. She let Torey

keep the 'cinnamon fire' lip-gloss, because if she was going to reapply after kissing

Drake then Mindy certainly didn't want the tube back.

"I wanna play." Megan announced as she dove into the pool.

"But then it'll be three to two and that's not fair."

"Life is short, Josh. Let Megan play."

The little runt owed her fifteen dollars for shaving half of Josh's ill-fated moustache off

and she was going to collect it before she left the house tonight.

Mindy continued the eye rolling as Drake wouldn't jump in the pool and used the ladder

because he didn't want to get his hair wet. She couldn't wait to win this game and beat

his butt!

"Let's do this." Josh said as the game began.

The score was tied at 4-4. Even Megan scored a point. But she said she was tired and

wanted out of the water. Plus she wondered why her booby-trap was not working? The

parents called out that dinner was almost ready, but no one wanted to leave the pool

until the game was over.

It was up to Mindy. She could win this for herself and all of womankind. But she was at

first speechless and then quite angry when Megan proceeded to take her little yellow

sand pail and dump the contents of the pool water over Drake's head.

"She's evil. EVIL!" Josh said

"Megan! You better start running now!"

Drake pushed his hair out of his eyes.

"We're not finished playing." Mindy reminded. Gosh, why was Drake such a baby when

it came to superficial things like his own looks? Didn't he realize that he was going to

grow up wrinkled and old? It happens to everyone.

"Yeah, we are."

"Drake."

He turned around, "What?" and in spite of himself started to laugh.

"It's not the end of the world you know." Torey said

He kissed her on the cheek as Mom Audrey called the kids and their guests one last

time for dinner. They were going to have to eat inside because it looked like it was

about to rain.

When everyone was gone from sight Megan went back into the pool to carefully put her

hand in the jet. And that's when she got it with her very own washable yellow paint filled

ball.

"Darn it! I have to re-read the manual!" Megan wiped the paint from her face as she

quickly got out of the pool as she heard the sound of thunder in the sky.

Now her only goal was going through the front door and quickly taking a shower so that

no one would see that the joke was literally on her. But she was satisfied that she ruined

Drake's day and that was enough for now.

"I demand a rematch." Mindy said in the kitchen out of her swimsuit and in another

preppy outfit. This one was a pink v-neck shirt and green skirt.

"Mindy get new priorities." Drake said as he held Torey's hand under the table.

Mom and Dad were smartly eating in the living room to give the kids their privacy.

"Drake, I bet you can't even spell it."

"Mindy, Drake—do you guys have to fight?"

"No. I have new priorities." Drake replied, smiling as he continued holding Torey's hand.

Thursday

I love left over fried chicken and I knew now if I didn't have a midnight snack Megan

would scarf it for her lunch today.

She's selfish like that. How come Mom and Dad don't notice her obvious scheming

ways?

It was 11:00pm and I didn't think it would be happening again. But it was. As soon as I

came back upstairs at around 11:45 there he was his back towards me, holding onto

his pillow, and crying again. I was this close to saying something out loud this time. I

really was. But what good would come of it? He'd be embarrassed and I wouldn't really

know what to say. Does he do this every Thursday? And if so, how come I only noticed

these two times?

I don't know if I should hide in the guest room for a few hours and then worm my way

back into my own bed or if I should just be as quiet as possible and go back into my

bed right now? I'm opting for the guest room. I think I understand people and yet this

has me thrown for a loop. We all seemed to have a good time yesterday at the pool

party, despite Megan, well being Megan. So why? What is the reason that my brother

seems to cry every Thursday night when he thinks no one sees him doing it? I really

don't know what I'm going to do about it. I better sleep on it. I can't take the sound of

him crying. I hate seeing him like this.

What is the purpose behind Thursday's tears?

I don't know. But I'm going to find out.

To be continued…