He'd pretended
that it was a normal goodbye,
pretended that he'd be here again tomorrow,
that the world didn't shift and bend away from them
There were no tears in his eyes
as he kissed him,
made that spark feel alive
yet again
There were no tears
as he whispered goodbye against his lips
and there was no tears as he turned away and walked off
Rei felt weak
at the knees
though his heart sank
like a concrete weight drowning him
He stared off
and wondered if Nagisa's lips
had always seemed so smooth,
his touch so gentle,
his eyes immune to crying
The world shifted away,
quicker now as if taunting him
Rei stared down at his feet
and felt the crushing weight of loss
even though he knew that Nagisa was only
a college away,
It felt as if he'd never return
Rei bit his lip,
hating instantly the taste of blood
and yet didn't fight back the weak impulse
of missing him,
of missing the boy that was once his boyfriend
He stared down at feet
and only saw Nagisa curl closer for a moment,
loving every touch,
cuddling close,
legs intertwined
like that of spiderwebs
Rei sighed,
fighting the urge to cry again
as Nagisa didn't shed a tear
as he left his life for good
Rei couldn't help the lump in his throat,
the wetness of the tears that he refused to let fall
or the fact that he missed him
though he'd always known
that they'd leave each other's sides
for their dreams.