New Years
She was miserable. It was the day before the big night. December 30. She and Maura were going to be spending New Year's together, at her parents' house along with everybody. Even Tommy and TJ would be there. Jane loved her little nephew, who was turning two so soon. She couldn't believe it. The little toddler grew up so fast.
But even though TJ could always make her happy, she was sad. All the time. She didn't know what to do. When she wasn't with Maura, she was thinking of her, while she was realizing how much she loved this woman. When she was with her, she was too shy to do anything about her feelings, and was acting all weird because last time it had been normal between them was a long time ago. What the hell was she going to do? Maura was straight; she knew that for a fact, because even though she wouldn't admit it, Jane would always know when she had someone new. This time his name was John. Maura had met him at this charity event they had both been at. Jane had seen how they were acting around each other. When Maura had had a date two days later, it was almost too easy to figure out.
Every day was a struggle for her. Here on their Christmas break, she hadn't even gotten to see Maura all the time like she was used to. She was going mad when she was alone at home. It hit her the day she wished for someone to get killed, just so that she would get to see her. Because even though they would meet every third day or so, it wasn't enough for her. Maura was a pretty blind genius if she didn't know how Jane felt.
And if she did know, that would be even worse. Because then it would be too late. It wouldn't matter at all, because if she had felt just a little bit for Jane, she would have said it. That was Jane's thoughts all day.
"I should go see a doctor", she thought one day. "One there's smaller than me, but still in 4 inches heels, and with blonde hair with waves in it. She should have those hazel green eyes that have had me under their spell since the first time I looked into them. She should have this great style, and sometimes be a little crazy about her outfit. It wouldn't be a problem. In fact, if I got the chance, I would help her pick something to wear every day."
She was a little ashamed of herself when she realized that she had been daydreaming about the doctor's gorgeous body. Again.
Why couldn't she just be normal? Be with someone like Casey. Or someone else. Why did she have to fall in love with the one person she knew she couldn't have?
AN: Thank you for reading. Let me know what you think. MN.