A/N - So I'm struggling with my first ever season finale of Suits. After binge watching the first 4 and half seasons in a couple of weeks, it was difficult to then go to watching weekly and now to have to wait until the summer. I have no idea why I'd never watched before but just put it down to the show not being advertised as much over here in the UK. Now I'm pretty addicted and thought I'd bridge the gap between seasons by writing some of my favourite episodes. I loved season 4 ep 7 "We're Done" and here is my take on it. Not sure where this is going currently. I pretty much ship everyone with everyone on this show, so anything could happen. Disclaimer- I wish I owned suits but unfortunately I have to give a huge thanks and credit to Aaron Korsh and anyone else involved in the creation of these masterpieces.

It Never Just Rains..

Soundtrack:

Hayden Calnin- For my help

The Airborne Toxic Event- Changing

"Well I'm drowning

In my clothing

And I'm hoping

You're worth knowing

Do you need my help?"

- Hayden Calnin - For My Help

Mike walked with his head down, into his office, trying to keep a low profile. He felt so disheartened. His first case as an investment banker and he'd blown it.

Of course, how could he have expected to beat Harvey Specter. It would have been much harsher had they all just played fair. But Mike knew he shouldn't have expected less. After all, it was his fault that Forstman was involved anyway. If it wasn't for that man, things would have gone a lot smoother. And how could he offer him a job? Things just weren't adding up.

At least he knew how the game was played now. Plus, he wouldn't have to see Logan or be involved in business with him again. How he had managed not to destroy that man by now: Mike was surprised by his own will power.

Reeling in his loss, he was surrounded by thought but this was broken by the sound of his secretary's worried voice.

"Mike, Mike! Sidwell wants to see you."

Suddenly his whole world came crashing down.

Mike sighed, "Don't tell me he-"

"Knows." Amy finished off his sentence for him.

Could this week get any worse? Mike could feel the bile of disappointment in the back of his throat. How could he possibly get past this one? He knew deep down that this was the end.

"Shit." It was the only response he could think of. He knew the only way to get through this was to go have a really uncomfortable conversation. And there was no reason to think it through before hand. Damn Forstman.

He made the walk over to Sidwell's office trying not to overthink things. Pushing his door open, there was no reason to announce his presence. Sidwell would know it was him at this late hour so he just let the door fall behind him.

"You little piece of shit." Sidwell didn't even look at him and he knew that it wasn't through fear, but disgust. For the first time in his life, Mike felt truly horrified by his actions. He would have never made any kind of deal to sell Harvey out like that.

Still, he felt he should argue his case. "Johnathon, let me explain-"

"There is nothing to explain." Sidwell was seething. "You sold me out the second you connected with Forstman."

"No, I.. I thought I could get out of it alright. But then you took Forstman's money and I.."

"Oh, your going to put that on me." That was the wrong thing to say. What was he thinking? He couldn't blame Sidwell for this mess. "I took his money because I thought we were partners. I didn't know you would stab me in the goddamn back."

Mike could feel the resentment radiating of Sidwell.

"Stab you in the back? If I didn't make this deal happen, you were going to fire me." Mike had to argue his case. He couldn't give up at the first hurdle.

"I don't give a shit what I said. I took a chance on you. You spat in my face."

"Jonathon, I-"

"You stood right there, selling me on Forstman to stop me from finding out you betrayed me."

"No, I did that to stop me from having to betray you. Jonathan he still owes us money, alright? We can still go after him."

"There isn't enough money in the world for me to ever trust you again."

"Listen to me-"

"No, YOU LISTEN TO ME." Sidwell was shouting now and Mike knew it was beyond his control. He'd already made up his mind. "There is no goddamn 'we'. You're fired."

It hit Mike like someone had burned a hole through him. He couldn't believe it. "Johnathon, w-we can still talk to Forestman alright?.."

"You think I didn't try that? Who the hell do you think told me that you sold me out in the first place?" Wow, now Mike was annoyed. How could he have allowed himself to be sold out by that rat?

"Here." Sidwell was pushing the glass trophy towards him. "Put this on your mantel, remember me every time you goddamn look at it." Mike felt ashamed and humiliated. How could he be treated like this? Not only had he lost the deal, he'd lost his job. Everything was over. He slowly turned and walked out of his former boss' office. There was no point saying another word.

Rachel was in her office, lacklusterly tidying things up before heading home for the night when she felt her phone vibrate. Thinking it was Mike, she unlocked it.

It was from Amy- 'Just to prewarn you, Mike got fired.'

Fuck.

How could this possibly happen? This was a huge blow. Mike would be devastated.

She felt the guilt and resentment at the situation. She had to be there to support Mike but couldn't be there for him properly when she was still hiding this big secret from him. As her thoughts were running through possible solutions, she heard the door to her office open. Donna.

"Hey! Did you hear the good news?" The redhead had a hint of smugness in her tone.

"There is no good news." Rachel felt herself sigh as Donna's face dropped. "Logan won. Which means he's not going anywhere."

Donna took a deep breath and posed herself. She shut Rachel's door, trying to keep some degree of secrecy to this conversation. "You want to tell Mike what happened."

It wasn't a question. Donna could read people with great certainty.

"I am going to tell Mike what happened." Rachel had made up her mind.

"No, you're not. Harvey said he would drop Logan when this is over and he will." Donna was trying to be convincing.

"And there is no way that he's dropping Logan if Mike can't even be a client."

"What are you talking about?" Donna had slightly lost track of the legal technicalities of the situation. Rachel often forgot that she didn't know everything about everything.

"I just got a text from Amy. Donna... Mike got fired."

Donna took a moment. "Now you really can't tell him!"

"You said I shouldn't go behind his back but not telling him is going behind his back.-"

"Even if you were going to tell him, this is the absolute worst time."

Rachel knew Donna was right but she was fed up with this guilt. "If not now then when? Just wait till he recovers and then smack him down again?" She knew she had a point.

"How about not smacking him down at all?" How did Donna always have a response to everything? But this was totally irrational.

"That would be great. But I already did. When I betrayed him and I.."

"Rachel, if you do this I am telling you it will bore a hole in his brain and you will be risking your whole life with Mike." And that was the problem.

"I am risking it if I don't."

"Rachel-"

"Donna. Mike kept a secret from me that almost ripped us apart before we even got started. And he found the courage to trust me with it. So I need to find the courage to trust him with this." Rachel had her decision. She was just terrified of it.

Mike was at a total loss. He was in his office for the last time, still in total disbelief of what was happening. He wasn't just a fraud anymore, now he was also a failure. He began packing his personal belongings into a box.

First all he felt was sadness. Every time he took a step forward, something pushed him right back again. He felt totally helpless.

His throat was tight as he yanked of his tie, almost symbolically, and placed it on top of the box. He wanted to be a child again, when everything felt right. When his Parents and Grandma were still around. He just wanted to go home and hide from the world.

He placed the glass trophy in the centre of the desk. How could he possibly get past this?

Then he felt anger. Why weren't things easy? He'd lost everything. His Parents, Grandma, Best Friend, Education and now his one chance at legitimate success.

He had to go home and face Rachel. But what would she think of him once she found out the truth? He was disgusted with himself so there was no telling how she would react to him.

As Mike stepped in the elevator, he was struggling to breath properly. Would she still love him? The box dropped to the ground.

He was drowning.