5 SECONDS IN HEAVEN
"With this curse, you and Me in Essential Serenity"
"Will you love me till my heart stop beating?"
"What if I never had one?"
-Ariotciv
I was there and he was with me. I was screaming and he was so calm. The stupid calm that always characterized him and for one reason that I never understand makes me sick, turn my angry word into loving glares.
But I was there and he was with me. I was standing near the border of the highest bridge and he was so calm.
When did I became this?
-Do it…-he said slowly and then smiles. Knowing that with the simple movement he burned my hate. - You don't love me anymore.-he whispers.
-This isn't right. –I said with a careless movement that almost makes me fall, but he didn't notice because he…
-Why?!-He screams for the first time in the night interrupting my thought.
-You don't see me anymore…-I said looking at his brilliant emerald without looking at them. I was having a big and horrendous war in my mind versus my new feelings. Feelings that I wasn't supposed to have. That wasn't supposed to even exist.
-Maybe you're right. I can't see you but I can feel….-He sights trying to read my face. - I can feel you.-
His word paralyzed my thoughts, my heart, and my whole soul.
-Stop! Please! - I scream at him…again. I really want him to understand but he was making so hard with all this drama. - It's so hard and you are not helping with your attitudes.
-Arianne accept it…you love me. I maybe can't see you, so! Buy I really love the way that you scream when the feeling of love burn your soul and make you want to kill me. You can't leave. –He said trying useless to make me understand what I've already knew. - You can't…you never would do such a thing. - He said in a whisper like he was trying to convince his mind.
-SHUT UP!-I scream hysterical. – What didn't you understand! I'm the ghost of a pathetic girl that tries to kill herself and for one stupid reason can't make it to hell. Why can't you accept that! I can't love you! I can't feel!
I have no time to react. I really don't know how he knew where my lips where but suddenly his warm lips where pressing mine with that persuasive touch and for the first time…I felt.
I was in heaven.
Was only for five seconds but the feel of his lips moving synchronized with mine make my heart's hole fill. Make my ghostly body take life and then I realized that t was raining.
Little raindrops rode in my face and in the instant that I felt them, my body parted as a freak out reaction. His eyes look at me with something new. I couldn't understand what was happening but somehow my instincts told me that it wasn't right.
-Don't leave me with this life without meaning. -He said with his eyes closed, breathing heavily because the kissing part.
The word were fighting they way through my throat, slowly I closed my eyes and then in almost a whisper said:
-Please forgive me…
And then…he was just kissing the air.
THE END
"My love will last till my last breath."
"What if I never breathe again?
"Will your love last so long?"
-Ariotciv