I've always been a casual iCarly fan, but just recently I've become a much more enthusiastic one. I'm in the process of catching up on all of the episodes.
This just is a little drabbly ficlet exploring what makes Ms. Benson tick. Because although she's portrayed as a little nuts, I really do think she has good intentions.
This is just my take on her; feel free to add your own thoughts in a review!
--Brandi
Disclaimer: I don't own iCarly.
iPromise
I promised myself I wouldn't let it happen again. I wasn't going to lose Freddie like I lost Amanda.
I know I come off as crazy, especially to those girls who befriend him. But I can't help it. I worry about Freddie every minute of every day. Because he's my everything.
He's all I have left. When Amanda fell off that jungle gym, I went a little overboard with Freddie. He was just a baby then. But I promised myself that I wouldn't let him do anything careless. I would be a better mother.
When Freddie's father died, he was still so young. Losing two of the most important people in my life in such a short time really changed me. I used to smile all the time.
Freddie is the only one to bring me joy now. I know he loves me, deep down. But he's growing up, and I have to learn to let go a little bit. That's easier said than done.
If we hadn't moved in across the hall from the Shays, I know things would be so different—I wouldn't let him out of my sight.
But I trust Spencer and Carly. They provide him with a wonderful support system.
It seems they do that for Sam, too; her mother has opposite tendencies from my overbearing ones.
This does not mean, of course, than I can refrain from watching Spencer like a hawk. The boy has a penchant for creating chaos. But his heart's in the right place.
I realize that once Freddie's an adult, I'll have to stop with the tick baths and shampoo agreements. But right now, I just want to keep protecting my little boy. He has no idea what kind of world is out there. If I can keep him that much safer that much longer, I've done my job.
Because I love my son. I refuse to make the same mistakes I did with Amanda.
Freddie deserves better.