NOTE- So I have read some one-hots of Charlie's thought to Bella's 'death'. So, I decided to try my hand at a one-shot of Bella's thoughts to her 'death' as well.
(BPOV)
Carlisle hung up the phone as I sat and stared in silence. This is what I wanted. I wanted to be with them. I wanted to be with Edward. Charlie. How could I do this?
Expression vivid on my face Carlisle left me to my thoughts. My heart twisted in aguish. I didn't attempt to fight it off. I deserve this. I deserve to suffer. My throat swelled.
I had never gave much thought to how my 'death' would affect others. Yes, I thought of Jake, but hardly did I ever think of my parents. How selfish could I be? I wouldn't fight this pain.
Edward's arm snaked around my waist. I didn't budge. This was just like my Edward trying to carry my burden. Under different circumstances I would allow it, but not this time. Tears began to fall.
"Shh… Shh… B─" I cut him off. This was my battle.
"Please," I croaked. "Let me." A slight nod was all I needed. He understood. Pain jabbed at me again. I felt Edward become tense. I squeezed my eyes shut as I thought of the pain that Edward felt. Oh God! I'm hurting him too. It's perennial pain that I bring to those that I love. Pictures of Charlie and Renee grief stricken flashed vigorously through my mind.
I tried squeezing my eyes tighter. Tears continued to stream down my face, at a faster past. My breathing became ragged, as Edward slid me onto his lap. Agony continued to drill a hole in my chest. I knew that this hole would never heal. This hole would remain throughout my existence, but this hole was another one that I could bear.
I had already surrendered to misery, and it held me hostage. My breath intake began to speed up. Pulling in smaller amounts of oxygen each time. My eyes shot open as I sucked in as much air as possible. My gaze averted to Edward. He sat still and stared forward, anguish present on his face. I closed my eyes again, as my breathing slowed to a normal pace. I fixed myself into his lap. Misery took over until I drifted into unconsciousness.
NOTE- So did I do Bella justice? I mean how did I do? Please tell me my faults and strong points. If you guys like I'll write points of views from other Cullens. Only YOU can decide. Lol.
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