A.N: Ok please don't jump on this like it was something that shouldn't have
happened. I mean I've been meaning to post stuff and all but school got in
the way. This is in fact not my first fan fic.just the first to be posted.
I'm not sure of the perimeters of a one-shot fic but I'm winging it. I
don't own Rayearth.I love the CLAMP goddesses dearly ::sniff:: anyways the
only thing I own is my Ascot plushie and my imagination..so don't sue me
for anything 'cause you won't get it. ^.^ eee I hope this is ok.flames and
review are much needed on my quest for writer satisfaction!
(A. N: Hey if you guys can help me think of a title to this it'd be much appreciated.)
It was everything that went against the system, but I couldn't help it. Why was loving someone so wrong? And I could not sit by and question myself all day, but I would still feel guilty. I owed my people that much. The love I feel for him is tearing me heart and soul. As much as I love him, my people.I will not be able to forgive myself.
So I locked myself away. And he was right. I cried. It hurts soo much. I want to pray for my people my world, but my love for him.I would rather give up being the pillar.if I could be with him. Before I sealed myself, Clef told me they would understand that no one would blame me for my actions. But I know.I know that I wouldn't be able to forgive myself should they the people I love suffer because of my selfishness.
And here I sit. Crying my eyes out. And with each passing moment. my love for him grows. He genuinely cares for me. I can no longer help but love him. Now I'm praying with all my might that they will come. They who can truly set me free. I'm sorry.my love. I am soo sorry. I've caused so much suffering.
Outside a battle rages. My God.please stop!! If he looses I am sure no good will come of it. Please.Stop! This pain is not going away. I am doubled over in pain .trying to block out the sounds of the struggle. And then.I know. Everything slows down.as I realize.he's dead. "NOOOO!!!"
As suddenly as the realization sinks in I go into shock. It can't be.they killed him. My love.he's.gone. I can't stop the tears from falling and this numbing feeling that will not leave. I break free of this self made prison and I do not know where to go.
I am no longer that little girl who called strangers from another world to help me. Please..stop me before.I wish for the total death and destruction of this land!
(A. N: Hey if you guys can help me think of a title to this it'd be much appreciated.)
It was everything that went against the system, but I couldn't help it. Why was loving someone so wrong? And I could not sit by and question myself all day, but I would still feel guilty. I owed my people that much. The love I feel for him is tearing me heart and soul. As much as I love him, my people.I will not be able to forgive myself.
So I locked myself away. And he was right. I cried. It hurts soo much. I want to pray for my people my world, but my love for him.I would rather give up being the pillar.if I could be with him. Before I sealed myself, Clef told me they would understand that no one would blame me for my actions. But I know.I know that I wouldn't be able to forgive myself should they the people I love suffer because of my selfishness.
And here I sit. Crying my eyes out. And with each passing moment. my love for him grows. He genuinely cares for me. I can no longer help but love him. Now I'm praying with all my might that they will come. They who can truly set me free. I'm sorry.my love. I am soo sorry. I've caused so much suffering.
Outside a battle rages. My God.please stop!! If he looses I am sure no good will come of it. Please.Stop! This pain is not going away. I am doubled over in pain .trying to block out the sounds of the struggle. And then.I know. Everything slows down.as I realize.he's dead. "NOOOO!!!"
As suddenly as the realization sinks in I go into shock. It can't be.they killed him. My love.he's.gone. I can't stop the tears from falling and this numbing feeling that will not leave. I break free of this self made prison and I do not know where to go.
I am no longer that little girl who called strangers from another world to help me. Please..stop me before.I wish for the total death and destruction of this land!