Valhalla Chronicles

Chapter 1.

Stay the Night

There was a deep sadness that hung in the air without Kenzi. There was just something about Kenzi that held everyone together. She could always somehow make light out of the darkest of times. Bo had forgotten just how lonely life had been before Kenzi. Kenzi was always the constant in Bo's life. She never left her side, not even for a moment. She had kept Bo grounded more than anyone. If the truth were told, Kenzi was more a hero than Bo. Bo had succubus power but Kenzi never needed it.

Even though her life was filled with love and she had so much love for those around her, there was a deep void now. Tamsin was the only thing that was keeping her sane. Tamsin appeared to handle her emotions on the outside, but those who knew her saw the pain. Bottles of vodka had appeared under the sink in droves. The emotional walls Tamsin had torn down before came back up. The snark and bite was back in the way she talked. It wasn't just Tamsin's usual smart mouth but it was mean. Of course, Bo would take what she could get because it was rare for Tamsin to even talk these days. Bo knew that the best way for Tamsin to deal with pain was ignore it or turn it into anger. Tamsin knew how to deal with anger, but this kind of loss was new. Anger was safe, and it was Tamsin's default emotion.

They had spent many nights in the apartment being physically close but mentally in other worlds. They both spent a lot of time lost in thought. Bo wanted to comfort Tamsin, but it would mean facing something she wanted so badly to forget. Bo dealt with Tamsin's fits of rage that seemed to come out of nowhere. She could calm her but Tamsin was always so careful to keep Bo at arms length, even now. Tamsin didn't want to care anymore for Bo than she did already. If she allowed herself to love her like she had Kenzi, than Bo might suffer the same fate. Tamsin was beginning to feel like love was only a means to pain. Even though, she kept her distance, Tamsin tried to do little things that might make Bo happen if even for a second. Tamsin would fix dinner for the both of them most nights. It least they could take a shot at some normalcy, Tamsin reasoned. It may not have been much but Bo did appreciate Tamsin's effort.

It was another long night in the apartment, when all of the efforts the girls had made to be same came crashing to the ground. Tamsin had made Bo's favorite dinner and she did manage to get a small smile from the succubus. Bo was more than grateful that she had Tamsin. Without Tamsin with her in the apartment, she might never want to get out of bed. They sat on the couch after dinner in their pajamas, not saying much, but flipping though tv channels. Tamsin mindless flipped though the channels, not really paying attention until she heard a familiar voice. She looked up at the tv to see Kenzi's favorite character from her favorite show pop on the screen. Her finger hovered over the button as emotions mixed inside her.

Bo saw the distressed look on Tamsin's face. She reached out and put her hand on top of the hand that Tamsin had on the remote. Tamsin looked like she wanted to cry but the tears wouldn't form. Anger formed instead and the tv remote went flying across the room and shattered into pieces. Tamsin violently got up from the couch and ran up the stairs to the room that she used to share with Kenzi.

Bo sat in shock for several minutes as kenzi's show continued to play on the television. As hurt as she was by the loss, Tamsin was falling apart. Kenzi was like her mother. At least, she was the closest thing that Tamsin had ever had to a mother. Bo's heart hurt for Tamsin. She knew that if was fear of things like this that kept Tamsin so distant in the first place. This had been like Tamsin's worst nightmare come true. Bo decided that maybe the best thing to do was to let Tamsin deal with her feelings in her own time. It would be good to give her some space. Bo knew it was the best thing to do but it was killing her not to run after the broken hearted valkyrie.

Tamsin collapsed on her bed and for the first time since they had lost Kenzi, she allowed herself to cry. She sobbed into her pillow and leaned over to grab another pillow from kenzi's bed. She hugged that pillow close. It smelled like Kenzi. It smelled like her favorite shampoo. Tamsin cried harder as she thought of the last time she had smelled that familiar scent. It was when she carried Kenzi to Valhalla. It was so much for her to handle. Tamsin thought about Bo. Kenzi was her first real family too. Tamsin had never realized how much she and Bo were alike. Bo must be having just as much a difficult time dealing with all of this as she was.

Tamsin lay on her bed for a long time, just holding on to that pillow for all she was worth. She must have fallen asleep, because when she woke up it was dark outside. Tamsin could remember pieces of the dream she was having. She remembered the look Kenzi had when she walked into the doorway that took her life. It was a look of love as she looked back at the people who were her family. Tamsin would have cried more but she didn't feel like she had any more tears left. Her sadness had gone beyond tears.

Tamsin listened to the now unnatural silence that was in the room. She missed the sounds of Kenzi sleeping. Heck, she would have even have been happy to hear Kenzi having one of her Hale sex dreams. She would have loved anything that might fill the silence. She never thought that her wish would come true so quickly. She heard soft noises floating up from downstairs. She laid very still and waited for the noises to come again. They were so soft that she wasn't even sure that she really heard it. She was about to drift back to sleep when she heard it again. She wasn't sure what it was but she had to get up and find out.

She quickly and quietly walked down the stairs and toward Bo's bedroom where it sounded like the sounds were coming from. She walked down the hall and peered around the corner into Bo's dark bedroom. She had to let her eyes adjust to the darkness, but she could she the outline of Bo's lithe frame laying on the bed. She was on her side and doubled over like she was in pain. Tamsin could now clearly hear that what she had heard was crying. It was the cries of someone with a broken heart. It was a deep pain that caused that kind of crying. Tamsin had heard it so many times when she took warriors from the battle fields in front of those who loved them. Tamsin wondered briefly if her cries had sounded like that earlier.

Tamsin's body reacted before her mind could process what she was doing. She walked over to the bed and pulled back the sheets to climb in. She settled next to Bo and stroked her hair. Tamsin snuggled close to her and wrapped an arm around her. Bo's sobs stopped and became soft whimpers. Tamsin didn't know of anything she could say to ease the pain. It had all been said and it didn't change anything. She could have told her that Kenzi was in a better place. This was true, but saying it didn't put Kenzi back with her family. Tamsin didn't consider that it may have been harder for Bo because Bo didn't fully understand where Kenzi was. Tamsin knew Valhalla and knew Kenzi was more than safe. Bo just saw her as gone.

Bo turned around to face Tamsin and she didn't need to say anything. She gave Tamsin a look of hopelessness and the Valkyrie took her in her arms. She hugged her tight as the tears flowed. All Tamsin could do was rub her back try to soothe her. She had never had much practice at giving comfort but she loved Bo. It just seemed to come to her. Bo's leaned her head into Tamsin's chest. Tamsin's hands held her tight.

They lay like that for a long time until Tamsin sensed that Bo may have cried herself out. She should try to let her get some sleep and head back to her room, she reasoned. She started to pull herself away when Bo looked up at her. Tamsin had thought that she had fallen asleep so it surprised her. Bo held her to keep her from leaving.

"Don't leave. Please. I need you."

Tamsin tried to swallow the lump that had formed in her throat. She didn't know what to say. There was an internal struggle between her body and mind. She wanted Bo. She knew that, but she also knew that Bo was in deep pain. She didn't want to be someone that Bo slept with out of pain. She didn't know if she had enough self control to tell Bo no. The stood looking at Bo for several minutes.

"I want you to stay, but it's up to you. I didn't mean to pressure you." Bo said.

"It's not that. I don't want you acting out of pain. We are both upset and maybe Lauren or Dyson would be better for you right now." Tamsin said looking at the floor.

"Maybe you could just stay here with me? I just don't want to be alone."

"That could be nice," Tamsin said laying back down and getting close to Bo.

Bo watched as Tamsin's aura lit up. Tamsin might hide her feelings with her words but she couldn't hide everything. Bo pushed the hair away from Tamsin's face and looked into her eyes. Bo saw only love there. Bo had the same feelings for Tamsin but the reason she hadn't acted on it was because she didn't want Tamsin to feel like she was pushed into anything. She had hoped that she would deal with the feelings, Bo could clearly see that she had, in time.

Tamsin looked at Bo and her eyes filled with tears. She had never let anyone but Bo see her cry. Tears were weakness. She tried to hold them back but fell into Bo's arms giving up instead.

"It's okay. We're going to be okay. You can cry. I've got you." Bo said holding her close.

"I never even got to tell her that I loved her. She cared for me and loved me, even though we didn't really like each other at first. It didn't matter to her. She raised me and never treated me like the enemy."

"You were never an enemy. I had always seen the good in you, even before." Bo said taking a finger and wiping a tear that had fallen down Tamsin's cheek. "We're going to figure this out. I'm not giving up on Kenzi and you can't either. I have you and we can come out of this."

Tamsin heard Bo's plans to get Kenzi back in what she just said. Tamsin knew just how dangerous going to Valhalla was, and knew the consequences if she helped her. She didn't want to think about that just now though. Right now she just wanted to lose herself to Bo's touch. Tamsin lay her head down on Bo's shoulder and Bo wrapped her arms around her. Tamsin's worries would wait another day. Tamsin knew there was a way to get Kenzi back but there would be a great cost, and she didn't know what the cost would be yet.

Hope you guys like. I'm hoping to write 13 chapters for the 13 episodes next season