WARNING: This story contains angst and mentions of rape. Don´t read it, if something like this triggers you. This story will be about comfort and a slow healing process.

Disclaimer: I don´t own Kyou Kara Maou and its characters. Copyrights remains with its creators, Temari Matsumoto for the light novels and Japan Broadcasting Company for the anime franchise.

Yuuri POV

~~~Shin Makoku - Blood Pledge Castle~~~

It hurts. It hurts so bad.

"Yuuri?".

Wolf. That is Wolfs voice.

The first tear streams down my cheek.

"Yuuri, what is wrong?".

I can´t see.

Everything hurts.

My eyes won´t open.

It hurts so bad.

"Heika?". Conrads voice.

"Daddy?". Greta.

"Günther, please bring Greta to her room". Conrad.

"Daddy, are you hurt?" Greta again. Her voice seems desperate.

"Günther!", Conrad again.

"Daddy?... Daddy!", he voice seems to come from more and more of a distance.

Something touches my arm.

I flinch, start to tremble without wanting to.

Everything hurts. Everything.

"Yuuri?", Wolfs voice seems to have a desperate tone.

"W... W...", I can´t speak.

The words refuse to leave my mouth.

I think I taste blood in my mouth.

"Fuck, what happened to you?", now Wolfs voice is panicked.

Conrad screams some commands. I think he tells them to get Gisela.

My heart races. I feel like I can´t get air. My chest feels constricted. And everything hurts... It hurts so bad. I can´t... Why?

...

Why?

WHY?!

My thoughts run through my head to fast to even identify them. And it hurts... hurts so much.

I smell something. It´s soothing. As soothing a something can be right now. Sun and roses. Wolf.

"It´s alright Yuuri. You´re safe now. I won´t let anyone hurt you", Wolf says.

I can´t keep myself together anymore.

"They already did!... THEY... ALREADY... DID!", I scream.

Tears stream down my face.

I can´t open my eyes. I want to see him. Want to scream into his face. Want to see him. I need him.

He gasps.

Something on my arm again. I shiver uncontrollably. It hurts. It feels like something is burning my skin. It hurts so bad. I move my arm to get the feeling to stop.

Don´t touch me! I don´t want this! Don´t touch me! No!

"Yuuri, it´s me that is touching you. You don´t need to be scared".

Wolf.

I cry even harder.

"Wolf", is all that I can say.

I want to say so much. Want to scream. Want to yell that this is unfair. That everything hurts. I don´t want to be... Fuck...

"Yes, it´s me Yuuri. I´m at your side. You don´t need to be scared", he whispers.

"Wolf", I cry his name again.

I reach out to him. I need Wolf. I need him. My best friend. My soldier. My protector. My fiance. My...

Something warm touches my hands. Ah.. Hands.

"I need you to get him out of the pond and lay him down here".

Giselas voice.

"Yuuri, we need to move you". Conrads voice.

My eyes hurts so much. I want to open them. It hurts.

Something on my shoulders.

"NO!", I scream and throw myself to the side. I hit something hard with my chest. A horrifying sound. Ouch!

"I´m so sorry, Heika", Conrad apologizes.

"Yuuri". Wolf.

"Do you trust me, Yuuri?".

I don´t know. I don´t know if I´m able to trust anymore. Everything hurts.

"I will take your hand now, okay?", he asks.

Wolf...

It´s Wolf. Wolf is... save. Maybe the only save thing.

I nod.

Something touches my hand.

"This is my hand. Can you grab it and try to get up?", Wolf asks.

I grab his hand and pain shoots through my every nerve. But I can take this. Wolf wants me to move. I give it my best shot at standing up, but my lower body region explodes in pain and I sink back.

More tears. Maybe they never stopped.

"Can´t Wolf", I whisper.

He hushes me.

"It´s alright, Yuuri. I will take care of you", he says.

I cry even harder.

I..

I feel something soothing on my skin, soft, nice.

"Yuuri? Yuuri stop!", he screams. His voice sounds panicked.

But I feel finally somewhat safe. Like no one can touch me right now.

"Yuuri, you need to stop! You won´t be able to breathe like that!", he screams.

What?

Suddenly something hard around me. Someone holding me. I panic. No! Not again! No! No! No! NO! Stop! I don´t want this! No! Stop! No! My heart beats so fast. No... Stop!

"Yuuri. It´s me. Stop!", Wolfs voice sounds like it is far away.

"Trust me my love!", he says.

The soothing feeling disappears and only the hard grip of someone remains.

No... No... Make it stop...

"I have you wimp. I have you", Wolfs voice in my ear.

Can´t breathe.

"I have you, Yuuri. Breathe. Come, let´s breathe together. In... Out... In... Out...", I only listen to his voice.

I comply.

"You are doing great, love", he whispers.

I´m definitely in his arms right now. This has to be Wolf. He smells like Wolf, talks like Wolf, feels like Wolf. Wolf is save. I´m save.

"Lord of Bielefeld. It seems like he is calming down a little. Could you try to carry him here?", Gisela asks.

"Yuuri, I will carry you now", Wolf says.

I don´t care.

As long as Wolf is with me, I don´t care.

Wolf is save.

I feel him move. He carries me. I feel an explosion of pain. I scream.

More movement, before he squats down and places me on something soft. He tries so let go of me. I grab his clothes with every force that I still have.

"No... don´t leave. Don´t leave... Wolf...", I whimper.

Something touches my hair.

"I won´t leave you. I will help Gisela move you to the hospital ward", Wolf says with a soft voice.

"Don´t leave me, Wolf", I whisper.

I can´t lose my only safe haven.

"I won´t my love", he responds.

I hear some voices, can´t really make out what they say.

More movement.

Everything hurts. It hurts so much.

"Wolf?", I ask.

I want to make sure that he is still here. Once again, I try desperately to open my eyes. Impossible.

"Yes?", he answers.

"Stay with me", I whisper.

"I will", he responds.

"Wolf?", I ask again.

"Yes?".

"It hurts so bad".

I hear something like a whimper.

"I know, my love. We will start the healing as soon as we reach the hospital ward".

I want to tell him, that he can´t stop the pain, but...

I´m at the end of my strength.

"Don´t leave me", I slur once more before losing consciousness.

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