"I want to hurt you like you hurt me" Killian mutters almost all to calmly to my face.
If I wasn't frozen already, I'm sure I would have been paralyzed by his words. I feel paralyzed.
I deserve this, I realize. I expect this. Emma Swan is not the kind of person that gets a happy ending. I am not the person who gets to be happy. I'm just not.
My whole life, I have waited for this. The moment I would break. The moment my soul, my dignity, my heart would be crushed. Forever. The sad part of all this is that it was all over men. Two men to be exact.
I made myself a woman who's world revolved around men. First, in the form of my son, the boy who brought light into my soul. And what did I do in return? I crush his own light, crush his own chance of a happy ending. Some mother I am.
And to top things off, I managed to break my own heart by breaking the heart of the only man I have ever truly loved.
"Enough of a pity party", a loud, and annoyingly familiar voice rings in my head.
"Enough" I growl in return. Rumplestileskin was the last thing I need at the moment, or at any moment come to think of it.
"Now now that's not the way to talk to your only friend, now is it? Besides dearie, I have a proposition for you!" Gold then proceeded to clap his hands together in delight.
"I'm not in the mood Rumple. Now leave my presence. I'm done."
I proceed to turn my back to him, trying to block out the voice in my head once again. But one thing has me turning my back towards him again the next second. There was always one thing. One thing that you would do anything for. For me, it was peace.
"I can fix your bruised, broken heart darling".
This is what gets me to turn around. This sentence, this proposition gets me to turn my head.
"And what would that be, hmm?" I ask in my coldest voice. The darkness making me intrigued to hear more.
"I could break it forever darling" rumple giggles.
I look at the ground, my eyes filling with tears. I swipe them back roughly from my cheeks. Killian once told me that if a heart could be broken, then It still worked. I want my heart not to work.
"I'll do it" I answer quickly. There would be no chance to back out if I made the deal quickly.
Rumple, or more accurately, the embodiment of the dark one smiles.
"Very well darling. But there is one thing you have to know before I make this deal complete."
I can tell he is stalling at the last minute, thinking maybe I might back out if the deal really is as bad as I imagine it will be. I don't care at this moment. What ever it was, it couldn't make me feel any worse.
"Wait-" I yell. "I'll agree to anything as long as it doesn't affect my family. I've hurt them enough as it is. I at least have enough decency left to spare them pain this time".
The Dark One smiles. He got the permission he needed.
"Stand back then love, this ones gonna be a doozy".
Suddenly, the all to familiar grey smoke begins to rise from my dark hardwood floors. It bellows up to my high ceilings before coming back to the middle of the room and evaporating slowly to reveal a figure.
A beautiful woman comes immersing from the shadows.
"Oh thank God!" she gasps, a smile taking over her entire beautiful face. She comes strutting toward me with all the confidence in the world.
"Milah" she extends her hand to shake my hand.
Chapter One
"Emma" I barely stutter out.
"Any chance you could direct me to the docks love? I have a very sexy lover waiting for me. And as of two minutes ago, he thinks I'm dead. Think we should resolve that, don't you think?" She laughs, almost with no care in the world.
I can barely talk. I feel as if my throat is closing up and someone attached a 10-pound brick to my chest. All I can do is point to my door, almost as if I have no control over my actions.
Milah gives me a funny look as if I've gone mad. She simply saunters past me, opening the door and making her merry way to the docks. Making her merry way to my Killian.
What had I done.