A/N This is a letter that James Potter wrote to Lily Evans. It's in James' POV
Every look he gives, every smile, I feel strangled. but when you look at him and smile back, I'm being stabbed over and over again. You're torturing me.
Every time you laugh, every time you talk, its intoxicating me. I can't stand to know you will never laugh with me or talk to me, only with him.
I somehow always walk in on you kissing him, him kissing you. I try to hide the hurt your making me feel, but I'm failing. Fast.
You're always on my mind. I can't even eat peacefully anymore. I can only eat what you eat and only what you eat. This is the only way I feel some connection with you.
I hate to admit it but I dream about you. I dream about how it would feel to be with you, to kiss you like he does, to touch you like he does. To look into your eyes and see love and kindness. I dream about how are bodies fitting together as one, like pieces of a puzzle finally coming together. But those are just dreams, nothing more than dreams. And its killing me.
I hope you notice that I'm changing, for you. No longer bullying people, working on my studies, all for you. And have you noticed! Have you…..Do you see how much I care about you to change everything about myself, so that you would just give me one chance….
I love you, I really do……but your torturing me Lily Evans, your torturing me and you don't even realize it.
A/N Yay...thats it...spur of the moment thing I guess