A/N: Hey their readers, wait I'm so sad of this fic. Please just read it and don't mind me.
Teddy Bears
I admit it that Lelouch is a sweet and romantic guy, every month he gave me a teddy bear, different color and different sizes, in our anniversaries he gave me numbers of life size teddy bears and when valentines he gave me also five different sizes and colors of teddy bears. My room is almost like a teddy bear paradise, starting from the doorway to the bathroom, full of cute bears, but still something is missing I never heard him tell me he loves me. Neither to the things he gave me, nor to the phone calls and text messages did I receive. Our five years relationship seems like it is not true. I decided to end it here. It hurts me more every time I think about it, it always made me…
She is cut off by the tears that she suddenly feel rolling down her cheeks, drops on the picture of Lelouch she is holding. She tries to stop the tears on falling down, but the tears itself have its own life, urging to escape her eyes, but as seconds, minutes has passed she calmed down.
Following the plan she decided to make, she reaches for her cellular phone lying comfortably in the bed; she sits next to it, placing the picture beside her. Dialing the number of Lelouch seems so hard to do; it is like something is holding her back for doing so. But preventing her to feel any more uncertainty is the best way she can least do to erase the doubts occupying her.
As soon as she clicks the dial button, shivers started to roll down her whole body and only a matter of seconds passed when Lelouch picks it up.
"Hello, C.C." She feels the happiness Lelouch had in his handsome face; from the cheery tone he spoke it is very painful for her. Calling him just to tell that she wants to break up is very stupid of her. Silence just feed him in response.
"Hello, C.C.? Are you still there?" when he heard no reply from her, he started to worry. "Hey, are you alright, C.C.?" Lelouch asked in a panic over the line.
"Ahm..Yeah. I am" she answered, doing an excellent work of hiding her swollen voice.
"Why did you call of a sudden?" he asked in a deep voice.
"Can you come over?" she said, gripping the phone in her hand, not letting any emotions surpass her composure.
"Well, if my witch misses me that much, can I said no" he said sweetly that it hurts her more, biting her lower lip and closing her eyes hardly to control the tears not to emerge.
Please don't appear, please don't do it to me, follow my command you stupid tears.
To her surprise, she manages to stop the tears from forming in her delicate amber-eyes.
"I love you" she unconsciously said, and there she was literally shocked that the phone happens to slide out of her hand and taps out of the floor with a clear 'thud' noise. Her eyes as wide as an owl's and when she thought that maybe he cut the line off, she reach for the phone and heard him said that.
"I know, C.C.. Wait for me there okay, I'll be there in any moment" He has a bright smile in her face, but he somewhat feels heart aches for an unknown reason. He feels like there will be something bad or may be worse that will happen on him this day, but he doesn't mind since he will be seeing his witch. "Bye" and he clicked the end button.
She freezes instantly in that word, hand with an open palm extended near the phone. She discarded the thought about getting it and places her hand on her chest with a clenching fist. She sits there still, allowing the silence to dance with the air, bowing her head down and her bangs barely covering half of her face.
"Yes…Goodbye, Lelouch" she hissed under her breath. This was the word she wishes not to hear, a lonely and sad word of Goodbye. She can't help but let her guards down and cry.
*20 minutes passed*
Lelouch knock at the door of C.C.'s condo unit and after several more knocks, still no one approaches him from the outside so he decided to open it himself when he find it unlocked and barge in. He proceeds to her room, only to find her mess up and crying. He quickly runs to her leaving the things he carries aside. He holds her in the shoulder, and gives her a worried look.
"C.C., why are you crying? Is there something wrong? Tell me" he queried, mad worried why she is crying like this. But she isn't answering back. He wants to take all the pain she has, he don't want her to suffer and be the one to suffer for her. He wants her to be happy, joyous and stay as she always is teasing but very loving.
He hugs her tight, he can't take it when he sees her like this, and it hurts him badly, that all he can do is nothing. C.C. just stays leaning in his chest, crying unsoundly.
"There, there, C.C.. Tell me is anything wrong?" rubbing her back for comfort.
"Lelouch…" she mused heavily, not wanting to say any word, not wanting to break off, but this is fate she needs to say it to prevent the pain from growing in her heart.
"Yeah?" he replied in a gentle tone he can heave as possible.
"Let's…let's break up" quite holding back in every words.
"Stop saying nonsense okay?" annoyed in her response that she can say such things like that when there is already something wrong in her.
"I'm serious. Let's break up" she pushes him away from her and moves away from him.
I'm sorry Lelouch but I can't bear anymore pain. This should stop or else I'd rather die.
"But C.C., why is there something wrong that I do, that it doesn't please you? Tell me I'll instantly change it." He stands up and moves to her holding her in the arm.
"Don't touch me" She cried in a mild tone and slaps away his hands of her arms
"Don't do this to me, C.C." he begged to her, nearly crying.
Please Lelouch stop this, I can't see you in such pain, it is hurting me too, please go!
"Get out of here, now" She said simply covering her emotions by the mock anger she is presenting.
"But C.C."
"Please" she pleaded to him, voice all swollen and mess up.
Lelouch move to him and caught him in a kiss, but for C.C. it seems that this is a good bye kiss, the last kiss that she will receive from him and it all ends from here, from the kiss. Lelouch pulled back and asked her.
"Do you love me, C.C."
Idiot! I'm doing this because I love you; I love you more than anything.
"No, everything in the past is all a show" she answered simply, bore no life at all.
When Lelouch heard this, he was on an extreme rage. He can believe that their five years of relationship is just nothing but a complete lie. He clenches his fist as he punches the wall beside her and when he pulled his arms back to him, his fist seems so broken, and it bleeds massively. But C.C. can only stare at him, she isn't allowed to do anything because they are done and if she does anything she might not end this thing.
"It does hurt very much when it comes out to your mouth" he said, he was crying, he is bursting in pain, but the woman he loves can't do anything nor to care if he is bleeding. He stands up, finding himself numb. He immediately left her, left this house, left his heart and left his love. He don't know what to do, it is very dark in his view.
After she found no trace of him anymore she cried, she cried as if there is no more tomorrow when he is not by her side. His teasing, sweetness, stubbornness, and his caring she will miss it all.
"I truly love you Lelouch"
A couple of hours already passed, she still can't get over with him. Indeed, she really really loves him very much. She is spacing out, remembering the moments when she and Lelouch is together, when her phone rings out of the blue that it disturbed her from sentimenting. She picks it up timidly.
"Hello" she said in a swallow voice.
"C.C." Suzaku mused in the line in a very sad tone.
"Yes, Suzaku?" she interrogated him, worried why does his voice eems controlling something.
Suzaku sobbed, his voice is broken. "Le-lelouch…" and there he completely cried.
C.C. is more worried one, when she heard Lelouch's name, tears again is fighting over her eyes.
"What happened to Lelouch? Tell me, Suzaku" she cried, gripping the phone hardly in her hand, scared and frightened what does that sobbed mean.
"H-He committed suicide." Suzaku stated while crying, phone all wet in his tears running throughout his eyes.
C.C. is terribly shocked of what she heard in the phone, the tears itself voluntarily flows in her eyes like a river, shivers travels in her whole body and her senses all gone numb; it is as if all her sensory neurons died and her body becomes like a living corpse, hot at the outside but cold in the inside.
"No…No…That is not true, it is impossible. Suzaku stop saying that! Lelouch can't possibly do thing such as stupid as to suicide." She cried helplessly, not believing Suzaku and his words and she stands up from her bed.
"I too can't believe that he can do such thing like this." He replied sniffing all the time, while conversing with her in the phone.
"No, that isn't true, Suzaku. Please stop that."
"C.C., he leave a note that says, life is nothing without you" and there their conversation ended as Suzaku press the end call button.
"Lelouch, committed suicide because of me, because of my selfishness." she ended up on her bed wherein all the teddy bears that Lelouch gave him are laying. "Only because he didn't say those words I want to hear, I broke up with him. How can I do this to him?"
She picks up all the teddy bears and throws it hard against the wall. It all talks and said the three words she long to hear. 'I love you' are the only words that echo in her room. She looks at every bears it all talks and said that words she wishes him to say to him. It made her feel guiltier, killing the one she loves is very painful and when she knows that the relationship they had is genuine and pure love. She wants to kill herself but she knows that Lelouch won't be happy in that thought. She directed to the bears all scattered in the floor, she reached one and hugged it tightly in her chest. Tears won't stop from flowing out her eyes.
All the while these bears are his messenger of his love for me. You are a very stupid man, Lelouch, stubborn I may add.
She shouted, she cried, but the pain won't stop from hurting her more as the bears won't stop from telling those words. All she can do is said his name with her heart in it.
"Yes, I love you too, Lelouch, I truly love you. Please come back to me, Please I beg you, come back!" She exploded while she burst out crying, it is like his is crying her throat off of her. "Come back now, please" Suddenly she felt someone hugged her and Tell her for the last time "I love you to C.C."
Finish
A/n: I'm so sad when I am typing this, it makes me cry in this thought. Sorry for giving you a sad ending, because a want anew, because a sad story gives off more meaning and emotions. Though this is a nonsense I may add. But still this story gives me more importance of our favourite couple and this makes me realize that it is very sad when any of the too died. Anyway hope you like it. R and R ^^