Chapter 1
She had to see him. When she came out of the house, Voight put her immediately in a car headed for the district. She saw him for a brief second, never saying what she ever so wanted to say. After filling all the papers at the district, she headed upstairs to talk to Voight. She finally decided she wanted to keep her badge. It was a brief conversation as her mind was on someone else instead of Voight. Since one of the rules was that she had to stay with him, Erin went home with Hank. It was funny yet frightening to see that she was once again staying with Voight in the same house, and in the same room she occupied many years earlier. Being at Voight's house, she felt safe, but not as safe as she used to feel having Jay's arms cradled around her during the dark hours of the night. Jay. She couldn't keep him out of her mind the whole night. Even Voight knew something was wrong, but with the past events starting to unfold, he decided to look the other way and gave Erin the time she needed to come to terms with everything that had just happened.
After an old movie Hank made Erin watch with him, she was up to bed. Being in her same bed, with the same sheets she was frankly fearful of what was next on her path to a "normal life". She couldn't fall asleep the entire night until at 2am she was certain Hank was asleep. She knew she had to see him, it was just when, she wanted to see him. Knowing that she couldn't fall asleep, she left the house. It was all too easy for her to sneak out, as she had done it many before in the past. Once she was out, she didn't know where to go. She could go to Bunny's bar, or she could go her way on a walk around the city to her favorite place. She decided to talk a walk to the pier, overlooking the lake. It was her place to think. Once she got there, she didn't know what to do with herself. She couldn't decide where to go next. She didn't want to face her demons and actually think about what had happened in the past month. Especially with what happened to Jay. Once again her mind drifted off to his name. Jay. She couldn't get that name out of her head. She needed to see him. And she needed to see him now. The pier was not too far from Jay's apartment, so she decided to walk. Many times she had walked this sidewalk to Jay's house. She knew the way by heart. When she finally got there, she decided running up the stairs would be better than taking the elevator. After climbing 10 flights of stairs at a brisk speed she knew she was still in enough shape to be a cop. Walking to his apartment door was like second nature. She had been here too many times to not remember the direct way. Once she got to his door it finally hit her, is was 3am. But, since she was there, she decided she couldn't turn back and head home. So, she decided to knock, loud enough that Jay would here, but not too loud to wake up the neighbors. After about 5 minutes waiting, her reached her hand up again as to knock, as suddenly the door slowly but surely opened. But, it wasn't the person she was looking to see. It instead was Will. The look on Will's sleep deprived face told it all. He was overly surprised to see Erin standing right in front of him. Awake as an owl. After an awkward minute of Will's eyes getting used to the light in the hallway, he opened the door wide enough for Erin to come in. Once Erin walked inside the apartment, many memories of love cherished moments flooded back into her mind. Will sat next to her at the kitchen granite and offered her a cup of coffee. She agreed, as she knew it was going to be a long night. Getting right to the point, Erin asked where Jay was. Will smirked at this comment, as he knew the past with Erin and Jay. He didn't seem very hurt that Erin didn't want anything to do with him, except to know where her knight and shining Kevlar was. Will pointed to Jay's room, and mosied back to his room mumbling a good night to Erin. She sat and waited till she finished her coffee, as she didn't want to rush what was about to happen next. She walked inside to find…