Chapter 1 – Undesired or Desired?
Who was I to blame? I took the deep red flower and drowned it into my hands. The world was not fair. It was just not fair. Love is just like a flower, I thought as I opened my hands, revealing the crushed leaf. Love is like a flower, I thought again. It has a point where everything just falls apart. I could not wager the amount of sadness with anything I possess. A breeze then came, taking the golden leaf away from my hand, already ended with a repugnant twist in its life just as love had taken my heart away. The question of who was I to blame still ringed in my mind. Who wasI to blame? Was I to blame cocky, smart, and "girl magnet" Sasuke-Kun, or should I blame young and innocent Sakura-Chan for following him? I was given a choice for the love of my life and I ruined it in less than a week. Another breeze then arrived, sending a chill down my curved spine, making my cuddle myself more. I stood up from the stairs and went inside of the lightly beige house.
Sasuke-Kun and Sakura were having the time of their life. Well, Sakura seemed to but Sasuke just seemed like he was tagging along, no interest of the date they were having whatsoever. Relieved that it was late, he encouraged the highly spiritual girl to get some rest. She finally agreed and Sasuke walked the half drunk female home. He tried to be interested in their conversation as he walked her home, seemingly twitching to everything bad she had blurted about Naruto. This was surprisingly weird to Sakura but instead of asking a ruining the last few minutes she had with him, she ignored it as if a sign on unimportance. She, however, was wrong.
The next morning, Sakura was cheerfully jumpy and Sasuke was just his ordinary self, no emotion from him in any sign or way. I was a bit grumpy at the way Sakura was behaving. But I also lightened up at the emotionless of Sasuke. Must have been boring for him, I thought. A bell of heaven had rung, keeping me and Sakura apart. I didn't want to see Sakura for the first time in my life, being that she was too happy from being with Sasuke yesterday. Instead, I was stuck all day with Ino, who kept blabbering about why Sasuke had to go with an ugly, big forehead, pinked hair girl. I somehow lived through the first period, walking out of a dense classroom with bell ringing above my head. Lunch had been the usual, ramen with different kinds of seafood. Hunger took over my mind as a bite was taken, worries disappeared for the moment. I finished the meal and I was finally lightened up for once since last night when I had been rejected. The moment of happiness soon died away as Sasuke and Sakura appeared from one of the halls, Sasuke listening to Sakura's life and the way how Sasuke's face was cuter than mine and everything else that I did not really want to hear. I was walking with my head down now, not wanting to look at Sasuke. I don't seem to walk in a straight line so I accidentally bumped into Sasuke. For less than a second, I felt a slender build of body and warmth of heat being received into my body. I had to admit that it was a sensation that even I could not deny.
"Sorry," I muttered to Sasuke, not wanting to pick a fight cause of the obvious losing matter that would occur.
"Hey, Naruto." Sasuke actually seemed nice this time. "Don't be so scared."
I couldn't tell if that was an insult or something nice. Even thought there was both ways to interpret this, people that were around took the obvious and chuckled at the phrase. 'Don't be scared'. That phrase was for weak people, someone that was lower than be. But, since I was compared to Sasuke, I was the lower rank. I didn't respond to his saying and I just walked off, not even bother saying 'hi' to Sakura this time. I didn't even know why Sasuke wanted to be with Sakura all of a sudden. Was it all to make feel like a loser? Or was it really for a simple thing like love? I didn't want to think about it that much so I just went to class after the bell rang and concentrated on my studies since I was about to fail school.
After school, I hurried home, hoping that my favorite program was on. I packed up and ran out the door, a light breeze of warm summer wind blowing into my hair. It was a perfect day to sit back and eat ramen on a couch watching something that I, myself, love. I did the exact thing that I do when I got home. I ran upstairs, got changed into shorts for the warm occasion, and boiled some chicken ramen as a snack. I waited for it to boil, add the seasoning, and jumped on the couch, spilling boiling water on the table. Being too lazy to clean it up, I left it there to dry. Grabbing the remote, I turned the TV on and was just in time for my program. But for some strange reason, I couldn't pay any attention to the show I was watching. I realized after 10minutes of this that I was thinking about bumping into Sasuke and the warm sensation that I had felt. I felt my groin erect and I felt a tingle of a need to orgasm quickly. Without the patience to do anything I stripped off my shorts and grabbed my own erected shaft and started pumping my hand up and down it, moaning at the pleasure I was having. I followed this and the things that were going in my mind were scary and pleasant at the same time. I then ejaculated and I then cleaned up with my own tongue, just for momentarily pleasure before my ramen. After that, the show was still hard to interpret, since I was thinking of the deeply thoughts that I had when masturbating. I shivered and finished my ramen. I turned off the TV because it gave me no special entertainment and I stared up into the ceiling. Soon after a few minutes, I dozed off into my deep dreams.
I woke up in the morning, an unorganized morning. But, then again, since when I was I ever organized? I got up, dressed and ran out the door, since I was going to be late for school. I met Sasuke on the way, he smiled at me which was unusual and he asked to walk with me to school. I shrugged and I slowed down and walked with him. That day, I found him as a rather nice guy; he didn't seem mean at all. He then moved closer and placed a, surprisingly, but wonderful kiss on my soft lips. He then pushed me toward the fence, pressing his body against my own. I felt it again, the deep sensation of Sasuke's warm body against mine. What was he doing? I was thinking. He pinned me down as I struggled and now I knew that I was really the lower rank compared to him. Resisting was futile. He placed his mouth onto my neck as he engraved it with his teeth. It caused pain but pleasure at the same time. I got erected and soon realized that he was too. He moved his hand down to my waist, still sucking on that wonderful spot on my neck. He moved his hand lower and placed it onto my own length as his other hand was caressing my behind. Without any hesitation, he placed a forefinger into my opening and I tried to scream but no sound was heard. Leaving me at the particular spot, begging for more and wanting to stop at the same time, he released his grip and it seemed that he was fading off into the background, fog covering up my vision as it turned all white.