Pandora Drabbles
A collection of drabbles I wrote. I was doing this as an exercise to get into Doof's head and state of mind, and to try to be able to think like him off the top of my head. This exercise was similar to the iPod shuffle challenge, only I used Pandora. For those of you who are unfamiliar with it, this is how the game works: You put your iPod on shuffle and you write whatever comes to mind while listening to the song. You only write while the song plays, and once the song ends, you stop writing and move on to the next song. You can take it a step beyond and try to connect all the songs/drabbles together if you want; I was just playing around and wasn't focused on coherency. There are some repeating themes, and I apologize if that gets annoying. This was just a fun little exercise I spontaneously started doing. Again, I was doing this while trying to get into Doof's head, so it's supposed to be like from his point of view, almost as if he was doing the challenge. Does that make any sense? Ah well, whatever. Here are the drabbles and the songs/artists I wrote them to.
You'll never be alone
The darkness always remains
Whisper in your mind
I'll always be there
To find you
To guide you
To your own personal hell
Shadows inescapable
Colors fade
Everything is black and white after all
Light and dark
Hope and hate
Let the pain begin
Hate alights with the stars
-Whispers in the Dark, Skillet
Fall into line
Fall away
Blinded by hate
Writhing with rage
Vengeance
The promise that keeps me going
Shadows dance with the malice and hate that alights my mind
Burns fiercely
Keeps me going
Burns deep within
Sets my soul on fire
The blood boils
With the hate
Tearing me apart inside
Save the soul
Save the sun
Save the soul
Save this son
-Blow Me Away (Remix with Valora), Breaking Benjamin
Haunted by demons
Drives me mad
Lies, deceit, hate, madness
All of such are my ways
Not always like this
Once innocent, just like you
You turned me
Turned me away from the light
Turned me to darkness
Turned me to hate
Can you blame me?
Did I ever have a chance?
A chance to prove myself?
A chance to live
And be happy
No
Cursed to loneliness
Despair
Hatred
Jealousy
Why can you have what I cannot?
Insanity becomes me
Alone
Who is to save me from myself,
When no one cares to notice?
When no one cares
No one cares at all
The fault is yours
The blame on you
How can you blame the one who never had a chance?
Hate, anger
Madness, insanity
Infected by shadow
Lost in mind
Left to drift in madness
Why can you have what I cannot?
-Demons, Avenged Sevenfold
Hate, pain, melancholy
What madness is this?
How am I supposed to move on
When the past keeps smacking me in the face?
How am I supposed to move on
When I can't let go of your betrayal?
Faith, such blind faith
Led me off a cliff
To plunge into madness
To the dark chasms of my mind
Such an abyss
Will I ever return?
How can I be free
When you drag me down to misery?
Love becomes hate
Hate becomes focus
Acceptance, intolerance
Memories, pain
Vengeance will be mine
Just you wait and see
Just you wait and see
Vengeance will be mine
Just you wait and see
-Lost, Avenged Sevenfold
Shadows of an unwelcome past
Ambition will be my undoing
Crumbling under the weight of memory
-The Curse, Disturbed
Unholy night
Dark thoughts seeping into mind
Hate burns
Pain inflicts
The pattern continues
From times long ago
Such innocence destroyed
For the only reason of being there
World is pain
And it comes crumbling down
The rubble around me
The hell of my life
No redemption
No hope for the hopeless
No one to guard me
No one to guide me
No light to light the way
Only shadow to plunge me deeper into madness
Into hate
Insanity
I am gone
Never to return
Killed by those supposed to love
And did nothing but hate
Hate me
Hate me
Hate me for being there
Hate me for being alive
And breathing
Breathing
Take your breath away
Take your life away
Vengeance becomes me
Hate devours
And justice shall be mine
By my own dark-willed design
Hate consumes
There is no hope
No redemption
For the damned
Hell is no threat
It is a reality
It is my life
The life I never wanted to live
The life forced upon me
And now life I will force away
And vengeance will be mine
Sweet victory
Forever
-Unholy Confessions, Avenged Sevenfold
Vengeful
The day will be mine
Victory will be realized
Nothing wrong with being
Nothing wrong with living
Unlike you
Unlike what you forced me to be and to believe
Payment must be made
Punishment administered
For your crimes
For your betrayal
I hate you
Because I loved you
Won't rest 'til the day comes
The day when I stand above you
You have what I do not
What I never had
I will take it
If I cannot have it
I will take it by force
I deserve it
You do not
You will pay for your crimes
Your crimes against me
Your crimes against life
My life
Your life is now mine for the taking
-Bodies, Drowning Pool
Encouraged to die
Encouraged to leave forever
By those bestowing life
Conveying only hate
Contempt for their creation
Despising me
Why?
Why was I not good enough?
What must I do
To get you to see me?
What must I do
To set my spirit free
Tied down by the pain and hatred of the world
I am all that is wrong with you
You made me out to be your scapegoat
Hold your idol in front of me
Your prized possession
Compare me to a messiah
Disparity
Injustice
I hate what should be loved
Because they hate what was my love
-Miss Murder, AFI
Mind twisting and turning
Feeling my dead heart yearning
For all that should be promised
But was never given
Vanish from sight
To come back as bold as night
Dark and shadow, the ones who cared
Light and hope denied
Shut up and listen
Listen to what I have to say
I promise you there will be a day
Where you will have to listen to what I say
By law you will be required
To listen to me
To see me for the first time
The law you ordained
By your blatant disdain
I promise you there will be the day
The day when this pain will go away
And yours will begin
-One Step Closer, Linkin Park
Light flashes by with memory
This rage will never die
-Dragula, Rob Zombie
Fear is all I've known
Taken over consciousness
A way of life
No way to escape
Crawl away
Crawl out of the pits of hell
Rise and be something
Haunting notes
Of a past I wish for nothing more than to forget
Set me free
From the nightmare that will never leave me be
The shadow self
Laughing at my descent
A descent into his domain
Into shadow
Lost in despair
Lost to the past that grips me tightly
Wraps its claws around my throat
Squeeze the life out of me
Left broken and beaten
Sacrificed for the whole world to see
-Sweet Sacrifice, Evanescence (Inspired in part by "Nightmares," a fic by celebi4ever)
I remember a time when
I could hope and I could dream
Crushed down to nothing
Ground to a fine dust
By a cruel fate
A darkened destiny
Devours me
Eats my soul alive
Spare me from this fate
Spare me from this hate
How do I soar above the pain that is my foundation?
It is what I built myself on
How do I stand without it
How can I be free from it all
If it is what makes me "me"
How do I move on
When it's the past that drives me forward
Urge me on with the promise of a new future
Promised only by the memories of a defining past
Present torn apart
By mistakes and pain of the past
And the hopes and dreams of the future
Dreams of pain and suffering
For all but myself
Promised by the memories of suffering
Of no one but myself
-New Divide, Linkin Park
In hindsight, some of this could make some pretty kick-ass lyrics! Although inspired by other songs, this is still completely original. How cool is that? Too bad I can't write music to put these potential lyrics to any use. Anyway, hope you enjoyed, or at least found this interesting. Let me know if there was anything in particular you liked (such as a line or whatnot). I would also like to know if any of this could sound like a darker part of Doof or if I'm way off base. If there's one thing I over-focus on, it's staying in character, so let me know how I did (bearing in mind all of this was off the top of my head). I'd love to hear your thoughts!
Thanks for reading and, as our favorite pharmacist would say, stay evil! ^_^