A/N: This is a songfic for my 5x4 obsessed mind and because I love Evanescence! I read a few fics on them and I was hooked!! . Curse you good 5x4 writers!!! And you 1x4 writers are no better!!!...So addictive ;_;.....
Wufei: *snort* Baka Onna no ko....(Stupid girl)
A/N: *sniffles* Onore!(You jerk!) Quarter-chan!!!!!
Quatre: *appears* Hai(Yes) Rini-san?
Wufei: O.O
A/N: *still sniffling* ;_;
Quatre: ?? Rin, do natta iru no?(What is going on Rin?)
Wufei: Nani mo nai!!(Nothing!!)
A/N: Why thank you for answering RINI. *pointed glare*
Quatre: Shizuka Wufei-san....Onegai.(Please be quiet Wufei./Or something like that...)
Wufei: *mumbles but stays silent* .....-.-
Quatre: Now Rini, do natta iru no?
A/N: Wuffle-iron was being mean!! He called me a stupid girl!! And made it seem like I was just another crazy fangirl!!
Wufei: You ARE just another crazy fangirl!!
A/N: *burst into a fresh set of tears*
Wufei: Mataka!!(Not again!!)
Quatre: *pats Rini's back giving Wufei a disapproving look* I'm very disappointed in you Wufei-san....
Wufei: *looks crushed* Dis..appointed...with...me? *looks completely dead*
A/N: *gets attacked by Wufei lovers* Ahhhh!!! X_x....
Quatre: Oh my!!
A/N: I'm fine....happens to me a lot v.v;...
Quatre: Oh....alright then. *winces and turns to Wufei gently placing his hand over his heart* Wufei-san?
Wufei: ...Hai?
Quatre: Ogenki desu ka?(Are you alright?)
Wufei: Genki desu....(I'm fine/or something close to it..)
Quatre: Kitto?(Surely?)
Wufei: Zettai...(Definitely)
Quatre: Oh? Because my `uchuu no kokoro'(let's just say his `space heart' and be done with it...) tells me differently.
Wufei: *lowers eyes*
Quatre: *gently hugs him* Gomen nasai(I'm sorry)...if I made you sad Fei-chan that was never my intention!
Wufei: *blushes* *looks up quickly* Fei...-chan?
Quatre: *blushes and covers his mouth* I said that didn't I?....Gomen(Sorry)
Wufei: No need...I...kinda like it.
Quatre: *shy smile* I'm glad...
A/N: Hey, hey!!!! No mushy stuff before the story!!! .
~~~~~~~~~~~~~Story!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~Wufei's P.O.V.~~~~~~~~~~~~~
How can you see into my eyes
Like open doors?
I had always wondered, how you seemed to know exactly when you were needed, who needed you, and just how to help them. It was like an instinct you had, always being were others needed you to be, doing what others needed you to do. But....who was there for your needs? Who knew when you needed someone? Whether it be a hug, a quiet companion for tea, Someone to speak when they couldn't (or wouldn't...), A comforting presence, or simply a listening ear? Who would be you support? Your guidance? Your best friend? Your voice? (Kami knows you never needed it, you were always so open.) Your sunshine? (A/N: My only sunshine//Wufei: *gags her* -.-) Who made you happy (A/N: *laughs around the gag*//Wufei: *sedates her* v.v) when it seemed nothing could? Brightened your day just by being there? Who would listen to your broken and shattered heart and mend it piece by broken piece even if those shards cut your delicate hands? Who would fuss over you when others were too proud, anti-social, hyper, or shy to even look at you? Who would make you feel like somebody when you felt you were nothing? Who would give you a reason to live?
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb...
Maybe your life was just that perfect that you didn't need anyone to help you? I knew that wasn't true....I had made it a habit to know those around me, I had even figured the always grinning baka out, but you seemed to elude me, seemed to know my motives for my questions. I can still remember a conversation I had with you, trying desperately to coax some information out of you....
~~~~~~~~~~Begin Flashback~~~~~~~~~~
"So, are you an only child?" He asked it casually enough, trying to make it seem like an innocent curious question.
The small smile he got was, like all his smiles, warm and open. Yet it seemed to have a deeper meaning then he was letting on. "No, I am not."
Simple and short. He was smart, answering without really answering. "So you have siblings?"
"Yes, I do." He replied taking a small sip of his tea hiding his smile behind the cup.
"....Sisters?"
"Yes."
"Two?"
"Twenty-nine." He replied leaning back in his chair and looking at him with his calm ocean eyes over the rim of his cup.
A blink. He allowed the information to sink in before raising a brow. "Busy man your father." He winced at the words, he was hanging around Maxwell too much.
"Not really."
A quirk of a coal eyebrow. "Oh? Then how did you get 29 sisters? Adoption?"
"No, The Winners don't adopt." He silently noted how he termed it.
"...Then how?"
"Your tea is getting cold Wufei."
He frowned and took a sip of his tea, still boiling hot. "How did you get 29 sisters then?"
He didn't answer but smiled softly leaning forward to drop a sugar cube in his tea.
Frustrated he sat forward. "Well? Are you going to tell me or did you lie?"
It was his turn to raise a brow. "What would I gain by lying to you about the number of sisters I have?"
He frowned, knowing they were going no where with this topic. "So, you're a Winner ne?"
"I believe that's what it says in my file, unless I've been lied to my whole life." He replied, not a speck of sarcastic-ness in his words.
"I've heard about your father, although I've never seen him, do you look like him."
"Not that I know of." Was his nonchalant reply as he took an experimental sip of his tea before dropping in another sugar cube.
He sighed rubbing he bridge of his nose. "How did you meet the Dessert Bandits?"
He shook his head delicately letting strands of gold fall across his eyes. "There not bandits and I met them when I went on a trip." It was all he would say.
Wufei frowned and berated himself for wanting to push the strand of golden hair back. "Your not going to answer any of my questions directly are you?"
A small smile. "Your tea Wufei."
"Screw my tea Winner!! Why won't you answer my questions!?"
A purely innocent expression of confusion. "But I am answering your questions, Wufei-san?"
"Bull. You're playing ring-around-the-Rosie with me Winner, and you know it!"
He arched his delicate brow. "Ring-around-the-Rosie Wufei?"
"You know what I mean!! You're finding ways of not giving me a direct answer!!"
Quatre smiled softly. "I gave the only answer I could give Wufei-san." Finally a direct answer. He was getting somewhere.
"Well why is that?"
"Your tea is getting cold Wufei." He mused taking a sip of his tea again; one more sugar cube should suffice.
He was not giving up. "Do you not trust me?"
"I run blindly into flying bullets with you as my only cover on more than one occasion. I've stood with my back to you unarmed. I've allowed you to treat even my most serious wounds. I've fought with you as an enemy and yet I'm sitting here now without a single weapon. And you question my trust?"
Touch‚. He noted watching as the blonde sat back raising his tea again. Wufei watched him as the cup made another trip to the two pink lips, he smirked. "Are you gay Quatre?"
A spray of tea shot out the small lips, as the blonde coughed patting himself on his chest. He wiped his mouth with a napkin and tried to make himself presentable again. "I beg your pardon?"
"Well, I was wondering, are you gay?"
Quatre blushed and coughed softly. "That is a very rude question to ask."
"Not really, if I were to have asked you if you were fucking someone that would be rude." Another spray of tea and coughing; he was definitely hanging around Maxwell too much.
"Wufei-san!!!"
"What? It's a question."
Quatre blushed and placed his abused tea down. "I don't believe my....ah...bed life is any of your business Mr. Chang."
"Then you are sleeping with someone!"
"I never said that!!"
"Your not then?"
"I didn't say that either!!"
"What are you saying? That you had sex with one of the guys but only occasionally?"
"NO!!"
"Oh so you had a one night stand with one of them?"
"NO!!"
"With someone else?"
"I didn't sleep with anyone! I'm a virgin!!" He slapped his hands over his mouth turning a lovely shade of crimson.
"You are Virgin!! Ha! Why am I not surprised?"
"And what is that supposed to mean?!"
"Nothing, just it's not hard to imagine."
He huffed slightly and stood gently running his small hands down the front of his suit to smooth out any possible wrinkles, there were none. "If you don't mind, I have a very important meeting to go to. And I have no time for such...games." He frowned and walked to the door, with every intent on walking out. But Ofcorse that went against who he was. He struggled with himself at the door before finally caving in. "Ja ne Wufei-san."
Wufei stifled a chuckle. A gentlemen to thee end. "Ja ne Winner."
He gave a curt nod before walking out, the teenager in him screaming at him for not slamming the door. Wufei did find something out that day though.
Quatre took three sugars in his tea.
~~~~~~~~End Flashback~~~~~~~~
It had taken forever to get even that much out of you, and even after that you would dodge all my questions with either one's of your own or by using clever half answers or riddles. You had even joked about my sudden interest in you, and that accursed Maxwell had turned it into something sexual, although he wasn't wrong..
Without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold.
I wonder what you'd think if you knew.
If you knew that I dreamed of you at night? That just looking at you could give me a raging hard on? I know it sounds perverted, but my body reacted around you. Did it mean, I liked you? Ofcorse I did, I knew I would when I met you. The first time I heard your voice. Even though at the time I had made the huge mistake of thinking you weak. You proved me wrong, and you constantly continue to. I think they knew what they were doing when they let you be a Pilot. You could fool anyone. Even the pilots themselves. Hell even Yuy didn't believe you were a pilot, although that didn't stop him from using to the missions advantage. He even partnered with you to go see that Onna, Relena Peacecraft. According to the others, you made friends very fast.
Until you find it there and lead
It back.....home
I wasn't surprised though, you had managed to make us all your friend. Even Yuy, hell even me. Maxwell had basically claimed you as his friend when we all really got to meet. Barton and you had already met so you two were already becoming fast friends. Not long after Yuy fell into it, and then I was practically drop kicked into it when other emotions tumbled in. Even through this war, where gentle things were a treasured thing, you were a treasured thing. Even when all our innocence was torn from us, you still managed to blush at curses and dodge topics of sex. Even when our families were taken from us, you still manage to smile and see to our emotional needs. No matter how bad your life got. We always came first in your life. How? That's what I need to know.
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my Name and Save me from the dark
How could you be so kind? When everyone treated you horribly and threw your friendship back in your face. How could you freely offer it again with no problem? When you gave the enemy chances to escape that they never took. How could you still ask time after time? When they tried to kill you with every chance they got. How could you still show them mercy? When they blamed you for everything from the colonies splitting to the cause of morons on power trips. How can you still say you fight for them? When they would gladly turn you over for their own gains. How can you still save them? When they ignore your pain and focus only on their selves. How can you wish them well lives? When they turned their back on you, when your services were no longer needed. How could you smile and feel happy for them? When they blamed your father and damned him. How could you still wish to protect them? When they were the cause of your father and sisters death, and even your insanity. How could you mourn for what you did to them? To the people who deserved their death? How could you feel you failed them? They failed you! This whole damn space failed you!
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone.
(Save Me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
They failed to keep you happy! They failed to make your life wonderful! They failed to protect your innocence! They failed to protect the only precious thing you had! They failed to spare you heartbreak; Cuz I'll be damned if you think that I believe that `I'm fine' bullshit! They failed to bring the peace you so longed for! They failed to keep you untainted! They failed to keep you safe from harm!! They failed you Quatre not the other way around!! Your to pure for this war, to pure for any of us here. You deserve so much better than you have. Yet you still smile, never complaining and acting as if life is made of roses and fucking rainbows. I don't get you Quatre. What is it about your mentality that makes you see the bright side of every fucking situation? You could have been shot a million times and told you had three minutes to live and you'd be worrying over our minor scratches and bruises and berating us for not being careful, then go on about how sorry you are that you failed us...us not how sorry or disappointed in how we failed to protect you. To protect a fellow comrade, a friend, our angel. I have never once heard you think of yourself, and scolding yourself for something that almost all the time is never your fault does not count. Hell you've even apologized for Maxwell's stupidity and Kami only knows that not even he can be blamed for that mistake! How can you be so damn cheerful when everything around you is crumbling down? How could you fix everyone else's life and leave yours in ruins? Why won't you ever get pissed off at us? And Zero system does not count. I know I must have pushed your buttons a million times yet you still are my friend? Even when that Catalonia bitch stabbed you, you worried if she was o.k. If she made it out alright. Who the hell cared!? She tried to kill you and you worry about her well being?!
Now that I know what I'm without.
You can't just leave me.
I was glad that you hadn't died that time, you have got to be the luckiest guy I ever met, besides Yuy; and that's only because he's freakin' INSANE!!! But you and he seem to attract danger. But still I wonder about you. Anyone who can smile in the face of death is alright in my book....except Maxwell he's a weirdo.... I sometimes wonder what would have happened if you really had died then. What would we be like? What would happen to our little group without our communicator? Didn't think that was what you were? Well it's true. None of us had anything in common, not that we'd sanely admit, yet with you there, that didn't matter. You brought us together, made us into the little dysfunctional family we are, and I do mean dysfunctional... I wonder if we would have drifted away from one another without you? If we'd only meet up if a mission came up. I know Maxwell and Yuy would probably find each other, they are close. I think Barton would go inside himself again, he'd probably go back with that circus Onna. Scariest job in the world in my opinion, willingly allowing an Onna to throw sharp objects at you? Not very smart if you ask me, unless you were always on her good side. But seriously, we'd never stay together. You gave us that feeling that we were needed, that we belonged, and that we had more purposes in life other than to fight. OH does that bring up memories...Now that I think about, I did get to see you pissed once....
~~~~~~~~Flash back Begin (*flashback dance*)~~~~~~~
"Wufei!!" He ignored the voice continuing to storm away. But the young Winner heir would have none of that.
He grabbed his shoulders, and with more strength than appeared to be in his small body turned Wufei toward him. "You almost killed those people!"
"SO!?" He growled breaking out of the too warm grip.
"So?! They were bystanders!!"
"They were in the way!"
"In the!? Wufei what is wrong with you!?"
He whirled around so suddenly the blonde nearly fell over. "You wanna know what my problem is!? You!! And people like you!! People with those constant smiles, people who always think `everything will turn out right' Rich little snots like you who think the world is all daisies and sugar! We'll it's NOT!!!! Wake up and look around you Winner!! This is a war! A war!! There's no such things as peace, theirs no such things as `being fair', theirs no such thing as `innocence', and their sure as hell aint no `happy endings' not for them and not for us! We don't get that sort of thing here in the MAGICAL land of REALITY!! You should try LIVING in it for one fucking minute!!!" He shouted flinging his arms into the air in near hysterics.
Quatre stayed calm speaking in his normal soft voice. "I know all that Wufei, but there is a such thing as innocence. The children of those people who you nearly murdered are innocent, and so are the children we make orphans every time we step out our safe house. I know what reality is Wufei, I've been living in it, if I wasn't I wouldn't be here would I?"
"You probably think this is all some game for you. Something your rich daddy can add to as `community service'. None of this means anything to you. You have no purpose here, you have no reason to fight!!"
Quatre was quiet a moment but his face never lost its soft smile. "I under stand that Wufei, but-"
"Don't give me that `I understand' shit!! Do you have any idea how many times I've heard it from corporate pigs like you and yours?! It means NOTHING to me!! Just like this and all us mean NOTHING to you!!!"
"That's not true, you all mean something to me!"
"Yeah right, give that `I have a heart' shit to someone who cares Winner. Face it, you're here by default. Don't get in my way, or next time I will shoot you.....And stop smiling so damn much." He turned around with every intent to simply leave the blonde out here. He was surprised however when he was whirled around and smacked with such ferocity that it made his head snap to the side and defocused his sight. He blinked in surprise to find a frowning Quatre looking at him, fire in his normally calm eyes.
"You, Mr. Chang, are an infuriating jerk!!" He narrowed his eyes staring right into his eyes. "You can say whatever you will about me, I'm used to it. But don't you DARE even think for one millisecond that I will let you harm someone who has nothing to do with this! You're storming around, like God's gift to the world. Acting as though all your actions are just, well I have news for you, their NOT. You are fighting for your own causes and that is not just, that is selfish and YOU are selfish!! What kind of man are you to run around here shooting everything that gets in your way?! You get a Gundam and you're suddenly invincible?! I would expect that from Duo, but even he has the decency to shoot only at enemies if he can help it!! How DARE you even THINK that you have a right to end some innocent person's life because you're upset!? If this is how you're going to act you don't DESERVE to pilot a Gundam!! What sort of example are you setting!? What do you think you'll be seen as?! A savior!? You think you have reason to be like you are!? Ha!! Don't make me laugh! If you even think for a second that you're the only one who hurts inside your wrong!! Every last one of us has our secrets!! We ALL have a purpose in this war! That's right Wufei, even the Spoiled rich brat has a purpose, and no it certainly isn't for the father that didn't even want me out here in the first place!! So there goes your mighty justice!!" He took a calming breath lowering his voice. "You'd better get your priorities straight because if you think I'll let you back out their to fight with your mindset. You're dead wrong. We are all fighting this war for the colonies, not for whatever has gotten you so ticked off at life. You are a danger to the mission, your comrades, and yourself. So you'd best straighten yourself out before you try to step back into your Gundam." He turned and began to walk away before pausing. "And Wufei?"
Wufei was all for ignoring the blonde pilot but he couldn't bring himself to. "What.."
"Don't think I won't pull my gun out on you too. If you think I'm joking....just try to go back to fight thinking the way you do. You'll learn soon enough. I'm very serious on this matter....Ja ne Wufei-san."
Wufei narrowed his eyes, all of that yet he still had the nerve to call him, by his first name?! "..Whatever...."
~~~~~~~~End Flashback (*flashback end dance*)~~~~~~~
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life.
Even then you didn't curse me out, I think all I managed to do was upset you, I doubt you were pissed, I heard what you could do when pissed. But like I said Zero doesn't count. You'd already paid enough for that mistake. Yet still I can't help but wonder. My mind wonders often these days, were mission's are few and far between. What would it be like, if Heero was like Duo, and Duo was like Trowa, Trowa like Me, Me like you, and you like Heero? How on earth would that have gone? With Duo always in the corner staying quiet watching us from under his shaggy bangs, waiting for a quiet invitation to a musical duet. Heero bouncing around on a permanent sugar high annoying the hell out of everyone. Trowa ranting about justice constantly before slinking off to worship his precious Gundam. Me walking around with a glowing smile, the very definition of innocence, trying to pull together this weird group as a team and family. And you shutting the world out in favor of your laptop, giving only short answers of `hns' and grunts. I shudder at the thought. It would be...weird. I like things the way they are now. With Heero, being antisocial, Duo being a pain in the ass, Trowa being his shy bashful self, me being the ranting justice freak I am, and you being the sweet angel we all need and love.
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
I wonder if you know that too? Know how much you mean to us? Noticed how much we depend on you? How accustomed we've become to you? I wonder what would happen if you were to just disappear one day? .....We'd be lost. I know it. You're our light. Our hope. If you can stay cool calm and collected then so can we. If you can live through your battles, so can we. If you can get something good out of a bad situation, so can we. If you can be optimistic, we can be brave for you. You trust in us so much, did you ever notice how hard we try knowing we have your full support? Have you ever noted the change? It's all because of you. Everything we do now, is for our cause, and to make a better world for our little hope. Our ray of sunshine. I know you hate being seen as it, but you are our Angel. You're our center when were messed up, inside and out. Depending on you has become a second nature, like breathing, walking, fighting. It just come naturally to us now. I swear I'll do everything in my power to keep you safe, protected. I've had enough `what if' dreams to last me a life time. The real thing would kill me. Even trying to imagine life without you sets me into such a panic that I go searching for you, glad that your intuition has you walk in right when I'm about to go nuts. With that smile on your face, you'd look right at me and smile giving me a gentle `Ohayo Wufei-san.' Before going back to what ever you were doing. You don't even probe me for information, you simply come to assure me that your still here, that your still were your most needed. I remember asking all of them their thoughts on you leaving us, some were harder to get information from but I had gotten it.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save Me)
Save me from the nothing I've become.
~~~~~~~~~Another Flashback (Woot! *another dance*)~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~Wufei and Duo~~~~~~~~~
"Maxwell?" He called from his spot on the lounge chair. Closing the book he had been reading and placing it on his lap.
Duo who was on the window seat looking out the window at the rain like some poor puppy raised his head but didn't turn. "What is it Wu-man?"
He scowled at the nickname before speaking. "Have you ever thought of what would happen if one of us left?"
He shrugged. "It's not something that would surprise me." He watched a raindrop trail down the window.
"What if say....Quatre were to leave."
Duo whirled around almost immediately. "Don't even JOKE about something like that!!" He narrowed his eyes. "What? Did he say something to you about leaving? He'd better not be!! I'll kill him if he thinks he's leaving me behind!!"
Wufei raised his hand stopping him from going into a full rant. "No, it was just a question, a what if."
"I don't like you're `what ifs' that's not something I want to even think about." He frowned turning back to the window looking lost in thought.
"But think about it Maxwell. We have nothing in common except the war, none of us do. I mean he has a family, why wouldn't he want to go to them?"
"Because were his family!! He wouldn't just up and leave us!! Not Quatre!! Your wrong Wufei, being different is what makes all of us so special! And Quatre wouldn't just leave us!!" He shouted standing and storming out.
He spent the rest of the day hugged up under Quatre, who was concerned of the sadness he sensed in his braided friend and the obvious glares he was giving Wufei.
~~~~~~~~Wufei and Trowa~~~~~~~~~
"I mean think about it, none of us are even on the same page half the time, were all always in our own little world, why wouldn't he leave?"
Trowa shook his head slowly after some thought. "He's not the type to abandon people, not him."
Wufei shook his head. It was no use talking to Trowa, the poor boy was like Duo, he didn't believe Quatre would ever leave them. "But what if he decides to go to his remaining family?"
"He wouldn't leave us, he'd probably even bring us along. He'd never leave us all alone. He cares too much for that."
"What makes you so sure? We practically ignore him, why wouldn't he go?" He asked crossing his arms as the uni-banged pilot wiped the grease from his Gundam off his hands with a rag.
"He....wouldn't do that. Not to people he cares about. It's just not..." He paused searching for a word.
"Nice?"
"No."
"Polite?"
"No."
"Logical?"
"No......Quatre-ish.....it's not something I could ever see him doing." He shrugged lightly and looked to his Gundam his eyes sliding to Sandrock a ways down before he stood and walked to the door. "I'm going now, see you later Wufei."
"Alright."
Trowa spent the day making small quiet conversations with Quatre, and had the blonde perform countless duets with him and volunteered to help him all day. Again Quatre sensed the sadness and felt that like Duo's it was directed at him.
~~~~~~~~~~Wufei and Heero~~~~~~~~
"Hn."
"Is that all you have to say? I mean really, it's all logical. None of us even really talk with him, were almost never in the same room as each other, I mean why wouldn't he want to go with his family? Hell for all we know he could be planning with them to go back to claim his place as Head of Winner Enterprises!"
Heero continued seeming not to notice anything Wufei said. "...Hn."
"So you don't think it'll happen either? Why is it that everyone thinks Quatre owes it to us to stay here!?" He continued to rant before storming out and going to practice katana's.
Heero just kept typing before he paused and leaned back in his seat eyes staring intently at the screen of his laptop. "Hn....Mission Accepted."
Heero spent the remainder of the day following Quatre's every movement, tapping his calls and intercepting all his mail. He even made an effort of saying something to Quatre whenever he saw him and had basically taken the other pilots hostage and locked them all in the living room where Quatre had taken a nap. Heero may have been the perfect solider but his sadness was felt all the same by Quatre's `uchuu no kokoro' and again it was directed at him.
~~~~~~~Wufei~~~~~~~
Wufei sighed to himself meditating in the wide yard of their new safe house, it was one of the Winner's many vacation houses and Quatre knew for a fact that none of them used it. No matter how peaceful and quiet it was he just couldn't seem to concentrate, thoughts of the Arabian pilot leaving them ran through his mind. He had scared himself with his words and now he was just as worried as the others that they might lose their angel. He was right, Quatre owed them nothing, if anything they owed him, he had no reason to stay, he could get his missions at his house and still go on missions, unless he quit being a pilot all together. Wufei didn't even want to conceder that an option. The thought of him leaving was scary by itself without that to help boost it. What if his assumptions were all true? What if pilot 04 was no more? If Quatre decided being a pilot was not for him and up and left? What would they do with Sandrock? Keep it as a memorial!?
With a frown Wufei stood and walked around, needing to see the small cherub face and bright sparkling Ocean eyes, and sweet smile. As usual Quatre walked by giving him a small smile and a normal `Ohayo Wufei-san' but before he could go away like always, Wufei challenged him to a sword fight, confused Quatre agreed, he lost, his whole focus on the identical sadness leaking from Wufei which again was directed at him.
~~~~~~~~`Quatre~~~~~~~~
The small blonde frowned.
`First Duo nearly had a fit when I wanted to go grocery shopping making me promise he could come along, and sitting outside my bathroom while I bathed. Then Trowa nearly killed me with those musical performances, which Duo Ofcorse attended. And Heero nearly scared the be-Jesus out of me following me like my shadow and I know it was him taking all my junk mail. And lastly Wufei challenges me and it seems more like he's trying to kill me rather than practice like he said. And why were they all sad when they were with me? Are they afraid theirs some thing wrong with me? Or maybe they don't want to tell me I'm out of the team?' He growled softly in frustration before coming to a decision and leaving.
~~~~~~Pilots 01, 02, 03,05~~~~~~~~
Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love darling
The boys nearly cried when they awoke to no nice smells, no cheery humming, no breakfast, and most importantly no Quatre!! They all visibly paled when he was no where in sight. His room showed no sign that he had been in their recently but there was nothing on his computer, he didn't get any missions, but he was not there. After three whole hours they began to run around all looking as though they were crazy, when he still didn't show up they sat down looking as if the next sudden movement would scare the life out of them.
"He...couldn't have left us...could he?" Duo asked desperately, hoping for some comfort, but the only one trained in that was the very reason for his distress.
Trowa frowned softly fiddling with the end of his sweater. "I'm sure he's just visiting someone, or maybe he had something to do."
"Yeah, he wouldn't just leave without saying goodbye atleast..." Wufei chirped in, not looking like he believed his own words.
Heero was glaring at the door as if willing the blonde to just suddenly burst through smiling and laughing telling them he had tricked them or something along those lines. Ofcorse he would promptly lock him in his room and teach him the proper things to joke about. But no such luck. "Hn."
Half an hour later the boys were just about ready to go stampeding off in their Gundam's, Duo had gotten up many times to do just that but was held back. When the boys were about to just say `fuck it' and go the door opened softly. They all turned at the sound.
"Ohayo? Minna-san? Is anyone home?"
They looked at each other before rushing to their feet and going to greet him. Duo nearly flattened the poor boy hugging him and laughing happily as if he had just received his Christmas gift early. "Heya Q-chan!!"
Quatre smiled and patted his friends head as Duo nuzzled into his chest. "Ohayo Duo-kun. What has gotten you so affectionate?"
"No reason, just missed ya!!"
He smiled. "I only went to town for a few hours." He chuckled and smiled warmly at the other three, tilting his head in that way he does. "Ohayo Wufei-san, Trowa-kun, Heero-san. How are you?"
Trowa smiled. "Hello Quatre. I'm fine, and you?"
"Wonderful." He smiled.
Heero allowed a small smile to tug at the corner of his lips. "Hey Quatre."
Quatre smiled. "Hey! You talked to me! And it wasn't `Mission anything' `Hn' or `Omae o Korosu'! You CAN say other words!!" He giggled when Heero gave him a playful glare.
"Hn....Omae O Korosu." He smirked lightly.
"You can't kill Quatre!! He's like...Quatre!" Duo argued Heero rolled his eyes.
"I can if I wanted to."
"Uh uh."
"Yes I can."
"No you can't"
"Yes I can."
"No you can't!"
Heero pulled out his gun pointing it at Duo. "Omae O Korosu!"
"Heero!!"
Heero frowned but put the gun away at Quatre's pointed look. The blonde sighed before grinning and disentangling himself from Duo before tackling Wufei. "You didn't say hi to me! How rude!!"
Wufei smiled softly. "Hello Winner, now would you mind getting your rich ass off of me?"
"Hmm....nope! Pretty comfy up here!"
"Winner..."
"I'm joking I'm joking!!"
Poor Quatre wasn't allowed out the house by himself anymore after that.
~~~~~~~~End Flashback (*End flashback dance!* Woo!)~~~~~~~`
Only you are the life among the dead.
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
I think it was around that time I found my `need' for you was fueled by my `lust' for you, and soon a feeling that can only be the `love' you so freely give to us. How can you do it? How can you be so...open about your feelings? So giving? Were you not trained like we all were? To be guarded and suspicious of anything within a five mile radius of us? We were all so guarded; even Maxwell with his constant smiles was hiding behind a guarded mask. Yet you broke through it, you broke through all of our masks, without really meaning to. You tried to be there for us yet still allow us to keep our space. Yet you still managed to get under our skin and make us care so much about you. How? Is this a gift you were born with? Or were you specifically trained to be that way? Is that why you seemed to wear your emotions on your sleeve with a big neon sign? Because it was what you were taught to do? Or are you really that trusting? Really that innocent, that you freely open your arms to anyone? Whether they be friend, or foe?
Kept in the dark
But you were there infront of me
I think you are, maybe that's why we all feel so compelled to protect you. Maybe it's that which allows us to ignore the fact that you are also a Gundam pilot and simply see you as a fragile beauty to be protected? To be taken care of? To be treated with the utmost care? Do you even notice that? Notice how frail you seem? With your bright smiles and your expression filled eyes? Did you ever notice that you're not something most would expect to even be involved in the war? You just don't....seem like a pilot. Where as all of us have that `look' which makes us seem like were wiser than our years, which is true, you simply....don't. O.k. so most of the time your face is twisted in grim concentration, but that look could still be passed as a teen fretting over an important Math test or something trivial. Not someone who could die at any second.
I just simply....don't get you. Your hands are as blood stained as ours, yet you are able to be so happy. Able to smile so brightly that it cleanses us. Are you clean Quatre? Have you smiled your sins away too? Or are you dirty under it all? Are you filled with the blood of innocence? Can you still hear them? Feel them? Even after all this time? Can you still feel the emotions of your first kill? Hell, do you even still remember your first kill?
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything.
You probably do. I wouldn't be surprised if I asked you and you could tell me everything about your very first target. You could never be a cold blooded killer. You feel too much. That's probably why you seem to attract us all. Because you're so much like us and yet.....so different. Your light where were darkness. You're the happy to our bitter anger. Your level ground when were unbalanced roads. Your sensible when were not. You're our opposite, and yet.....you're just like us. And that's one of the things that make you special. Among other obvious reasons. You simply refuse to let us be bitter, even if it means we take our anger out on you. You won't let us stay mad. And you most definitely won't let us die. I'm sure that if the war could be solved by one of our deaths that you would gladly sacrifice yourself to spare our deaths. I can even see it now, you jumping forward to end your own life, you'd probably even get your dessert men to hold us off while you do it, because you know we'd never sit by and allow you to die. That's another good point you have. You would gladly sacrifice yourself for another.
Without a thought Without a voice Without a soul
Don't let me die here
(Wufei: Oh come on that part was so deliberate...|A/N: *still cranky from the drugs*Wanna make it through this fic alive?...|Wufei: o.o....) You are a saint, whether you know it or not. I still wonder about where we'd be now if it wasn't for you. No doubt most of us would be dead, your our strategist, you plan for us. I've noticed that most of the time you put yourself as a shield for us, when were on missions you seem to take the job of cover. Before I really knew it, I thought you did it just because you got to fight, but now that I really know you I see. You did it for our protection. I have a feeling that you don't want our deaths to be because of war. You'd probably prefer we die of natural causes.....like old age. I don't think I can speak for the others on this but I'm fairly certain that they'd rather you never die. We simply see you as this symbol of peace and innocence, the things we fought so hard for in this war. And like a child believes their parents will always be around, we believe that you'll always be around.
It must be something more
Bring me to life.
But I know,-we know- that like innocence your existence is not a constant thing. It's special while we have it, but we know that one day you'll be gone. We can't save you anymore than we can save the innocence you represent, no matter how much we wish we could. But I do know one thing; I want to live for the here and now. I want to live in the peace that we have now, the false security we've given others. I want to live it out happily until it's no longer allowed. I want to live it here, in this safe house, with Trowa's quiet support, with Yuy's strong security, hell even with Maxwell's constant cheerful banter, and most especially with our innocent one, with you.
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up and
(Save me)
Call my name and save my from the dark
~~~~~~~~~~~~Wufei P.O.V. End~~~~~~~~~~~
Wufei glanced up from his spot on the couch; he had been staring at his book for the longest time, not really seeing the words but simply looking. He turned to the door as it opened. The others must have left, he mused noticing they weren't in the room. He glanced at the couch and allowed himself a small smile. Quatre was lying there, asleep. Without another thought Wufei closed his book and walked over sitting on the floor infront of the couch watching the angelic blonde sleep. `He looks...just like an angel.' He smiled and bit his lip, he glanced around him. No one was there...and Quatre was asleep. One little kiss wouldn't hurt. He took a deep breath and slowly leaned in hesitating a bit he leaned down capturing the small lips in a sweet kiss.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Halfway through the kiss Wufei noted that one, Quatre tasted like the blasted tea he was always drinking, two Quatre's lips were as soft as he imagined and three, Quatre's tongue was nice and warm... It was about the last realization that he finally realized that Quatre was awake and kissing him back. He sat up quickly and blinked down at him. Quatre slowly opened his ocean eyes and looked right back at Wufei. "Ah...uhm.....I uh..." Wufei was at a lost for words so simply shut his mouth and watched Quatre as the blonde slowly sat up. Quatre's hand raised and he gently touched his own mouth before looking back to Wufei. ".....I....Gomen na Quatre-san." "What ever for?" "For...for kissing you." Quatre laughed slightly. "Don't be, I'm not." Wufei had enough time to blink in shock before he was pulled in for a not so innocent kiss. A few moments later found Wufei breathless. "Wait...does this mean....do you know?.....I mean do you?.......What I mean is-" "Shh. I understand. Yes I know you love me, and yes this means I love you too." Wufei grinned widely before attacking Quatre's mouth with more kisses, much to the Arabian's delight.
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie)
(Nothing inside)
Duo grinned as he quietly closed the door. It was getting kinda steamy in there. "It's about damn time!" He mused Trowa simply smiled and leaned against the wall by Heero. "I mean it was sooooo obvious! Both of them dancing around each other like some kind of high school girls, giving each other the eye when the other wasn't looking. I mean really!! They should have come out and said it years ago!" "Like you did?" Trowa cut in, Duo stopped and frowned. "Well I was a different case." "Oh? How so?" Heero mused arching a brow. "Well because I had the hots for two not one!" "Hots? Only the hots Duo?" Duo smirked. "More than that....want me to show ya both how much more?" Heero and Trowa exchanged looks before they both lifted up Duo and walked off to their room closing the door behind them to Duo's small comment of `Sex deprived soldiers'.
Bring me to life.
~~~~~~~~End Story~~~~~~
A/N:....Now where did those two go?...
Wufei: *ambles back in* ...Hm?
Quatre: *walks back in biting back a giggle* -^.^-
A/N:.....Wuffle-iron?
Wufei: *sigh* Hai?
A/N:.....Since when do you wear pink shirts?
Wufei: *blushing crimson* Uh...uhm.....
Quatre: *bursts into giggles* I tried to tell you...
A/N:.....For shame you two....didn't even pay attention to my fic..
Wufei: Well...we all got what we want didn't we?
A/N:.......Point taken, you may go.
Quatre: About damn time!! *drags Wufei away*
A/N: o.o....Bad Quarter-chan! . Wait......Wuffle-iron isn't a virgin anymore!! Woot!(For all those who don't know this is to the website dedicated to getting Wufei some XD Lovely site I swear!)
Quatre: *off screen* Amen to that!
Wufei: *of screen* Hey!!