Declaimer: I don't own Jen and her crazy thoughts on the frog, wish I did.

A/N: I was sitting, being bored, and I just started to 'Free Write' as McGee calls it and this came out. I think that it is mostly based on Jen's feelings on what she is doing with the whole La Grenouille issue..

Enjoy and review please!

-Tori

Is it possible to just loose the ability to feel a certain emotion? Do you outgrow it like phase? Or maybe you learn to evolve and work around the problem that is feelings.

She started to doubt that she ever truly had those in the first place. Maybe if she faked genuine feelings that others expected her to have she wouldn't be so inhuman. She couldn't tell if it was a blessing or a curse; but in this job she reluctantly admitted it might be easier without guilt or an overbearing conscience.

Well, whatever happened to those feelings—if they were ever there in the first place—she couldn't find them now; or she could, but it just too so much more to draw them out of the depths she locked them away in.

Years ago she would have been nervous at the possibility of facing the press after a particularly public case. Once, she would have looked for excitement in her life, now she just accepted the fact that her world revolved around nothing but her job. And if she bundled everything that barely touched the boundaries of said job into the only thing her life was about then she didn't feel that what she was doing was based on emotions. She could justify she was catching a criminal. It had to be done for the safety of the country and the world.

She most definitely wasn't doing it because of her personal affliction with this man…right? She didn't need the rules about drawing lines and not getting personally involved in a case hanging over her. She was doing what had to be done not because of her feelings, because emotions caused problems; and she was never good with dealing with those kind of problems.

She could deal with other agencies and tough politicians; she could work out logical problems and sort information pertaining to a case with practiced skill. But things that required emotional decisions were tough. Because in a logical problem, you were right, or you were wrong; there was no in between. But when you had to decide something based on what you were feeling, you never knew if your choice was right or if you screwed up big time; there was never a definitive answer.

She was never good when it came to those types of things.

Maybe it was a good thing she wasn't plagued with guilt and the desire to make everybody happy, maybe it was good that karma never seemed to be there to hinder her thoughts or actions.

Because if this had been nine years ago she would be ashamed of her selfishness.

But it wasn't and she wasn't