So Meredith left Seattle during season four when Derek started dating Rose and their clinical trial was a success. Instead of going to his land and making the house of candles she up and left not wanting to hurt Derek anymore. She realized that she was no good for him. Not entirely sure where this is going yet but MerDer are by far my fav couple so we'll just see how this goes. Reviews are appreciated as well as suggestions (:!
It's been three years since I left Seattle. I can say my life is better now it's more intact and I'm more focused on what I should be focusing on. Leaving Derek Shepard was the hardest thing I have ever done. He is the love of my life. But, I love him too much to hurt him. And by being in Seattle I was hurting him. Using him for sex. He's better than that. As much as we tried to make it work it never did. So, it's better for both of us to be away from each other. Because I'm scary and damaged and he needs better and I don't want him waiting around forever to get someone that's good for him. Rose is good for him. She's stable she won't leave him or hurt him and she wants what he wants to settle down have a family and they are happy together at this very moment I'm sure of it. I did the right thing for him and me. Baltimore is treating me well. I'm a fifth year resident and believe it or not my specialty is pediatrics. I specialize in children with brain tumors mostly but I do it all hearts, livers, brains you name it. This was the last specialty I thought I would ever get into. But my mother messed me up more than I know. Shockingly by being in Peds it prevents me from turning into her. Because to be in this specialty you have to have a heart. These children need someone to be kind and caring to them, it's more than just cutting. My friends here are great, not as good as Cristina, George, Izzie, and Alex but their good friends. My old friends come to visit when they can. Cristina comes out once every two months and we catch up. Besides Derek, Cristina is the person I miss most. Patrick, Tina, Archie, Neila, and Eli are great. Neila is my kind of sort of Cristina. She's my Cristina of Johns Hopkins. Patrick is a fifth year resident like me and Neila and he's fun to party with. Tina just fits in with our group. Archie is my mentor. Dr. Archer Adams one of the most respected Pediatric Surgeons in the country and the man who inspired me to go into Peds in the first place. So believe it or not but Meredith Grey child of Darkness has actually found a way to be somewhat happy. Eli is my fiancée, the thought makes me laugh but, I never thought I would get married in a million years. Hell I wasn't even wanting relationship but Eli just happened. He is my Rose. He's not Derek but he's cute and funny and smart and one hell of a good Cardio Surgeon. He, like Cristina is the next up and coming thing in Cardio, so naturally Cristina loves him. The sex is great. Still though I don't get that feeling I used to get with Derek after the one where the whole world stops and I feel completely safe but still, its ok things are looking up. The wedding is in 8 months George, Cristina, Izzie and Alex are all flying down for the wedding they all love Eli too. And so do I, I love Eli. Things with Eli are easy there not complicated and that's exactly what I need right now. Believe or not the ceremony is actually kinda big it's on the beach and my I'm going dress shopping in a couple of weeks. I'm not into the whole wedding thing but Eli is so why not make him happy. So for now things are working out and thought I will always love Derek Shepard, Eli and I will be happy together.
The crisp air hitting my face feels soothing after being in the hot shower. Its November so the air is getting cool. It's my favorite time of year. Being a fifth year resident has perks. I could never say three years ago that I was able to be at the hospital by eight for my first routine surgery of the day. Then I would be out of here by six. Eli and I are going out to dinner tonight for a romantic evening taking advantage of the excellent hours we both seemed to magicly receive this week. Johns Hopkins is much different than Seattle Grace. The layout the look the environment, everything.
"hello beautiful, sleep well" smirks Eli his shaggy blond hair kept nicely and his beautiful bright green eyes staring into my greyish blue ones. I smile at him at him and he leans in a plants a soft kiss on my lips then the top of my head.
" why of course because our bed is just so comfy" I joke knowing he was on call and did not have the luxury of sleeping in it.
"oh, now that's just cruel of you Meredith Grey" he jokes with a pretend look of hurt on his face. I smile at this.
"you smell very good by the way" he whispers smelling my hair. Lavender, men really seem to love the scent but for reason Eli didn't so now I use his favorite vanilla.
"well it is your favorite scent?" I say as I lean in kissing him.
"that it is" he says pressing his lips to my temple
Beep beep beep. Shit.we stare at eachother for a moment knowing that I was paged 911 I start to run off towards the ER.
"what have you got for me?" I question.
"Chloe Arunski, 8yr old female suffured an head injury during a fall in an ice skating competition pupils are dialated and I'd guess there's a hematoma.
I let out a long sigh. Poor thing must be terrified.
"Chloe my name is doctor Meredith Grey and I'm gonna be your doctor everything's going to be fine ok we're just gonna take you down for a head CT."
"o-o-kk " she stutters timidly.
"oh its ok baby your going to fine your doctor going to take great care of you ok I promise." She leaned down and kissed her little girl on the head.
"hi are you her mother?" I question.
"yes, Kathleen nice to meet you doctor Grey" she says still in tears.
"I promise I'm going to take great care of your daughter she will be fine" I reassure her.
"so you think she has a hematoma?" she asks worriedly.
"yes. Are you a doctor?" I question
"I'm a shrink, but my younger brother and sister are both neurosurgeons" she states.
"oh, well I promise you I will do everything I can to make sure she's okay"
"thankyou so much Dr. Grey!"
Just as I suspected Chloe had bleed, but with a couple hours of surgery I was able to fix it and with time she'd be back to her old self. The repair was simple one as well wich made it all the more easier on her mother. Once I explained everything to her very nervous mother and father and brothers and sisters. I preformed a craniotomy and a kidney transplant. Overall I had a good day for surgeon and saved three lives. Now it was time to go out with Eli. I changed into a tight grey spaghetti strap dress that shows off my figure nicely. Simon got for me as a gift to wear out. He hates my clothes. We have differences when it comes to how I should dress. He thinks pinks and dresses and crap look gorgeous on me where as I'm fine with just jeans and a long sleeve tee shirt. I also slipped into a pair of blue Prada heels which tipped the outfit off perfectly my hair was in long loose curls and my hair was honey golden blonde against my pail skin. I slipped some brown mascara, grey eyeliner and purple eye shadow onto my eyes. Put clear lip gloss on lips and I'm ready to go out. Walking out of my office I spot Eli. He looks hot. His hair is slightly less groomed, giving him a sexy look. His eyes are brighter than ever and he's sporting an expensive sleek grey suit that shows him off nicely. He's chatting with some people friendly which I assume are a patient's family. He spots me and I smile at him and he flashes a smile back and motions for me to come over. Weird, why would he want me to meet a patient's family it doesn't make sense.
I make my way over and stop dead in my tracks. Those blue eyes seem to look deep into my soul. Its like I'm seeing a ghost he looks at me with surprise in his eyes. Seeing him with her is like having someone punch me in the stomach, hard. All the air seems to be knocked out of me and it's hard for me to breathe. Knowing he's with her and seeing him with her are two different things.
"this is my gorgeous fiancée Meredith Grey, she preformed your nieces surgery doctor Shepard" he states proudly. We stare at each other for a bit longer. Hearing the work fiancée have him a pained expression.
"It's nice to see you again doctor Grey, thank you for saving Chloe's life" he states politely. Still staring at me giving me the look. The oh so Mcdreamy look that just melts me where I stand. Rose flashes me a dirty look defensively grabbing his hand. Eli puts his hand around my waist.
"well we better get going so we don't miss our reservations" he beams. These kinds of things really excite him. Derek and Rose nod slightly and Eli puts my coat on and we make our way to the car. Derek staring at me the whole time with those eyes. Crap! Why is this happening now? Seriously! What are the chances.
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