I can't take it...

No, not anymore...

I wish someone would save me...

But I guess that's to much to wish for.

Russia, Oh Russia

Russia opened his eyes against the morning light that fluttered through his window. He lifted a hand over his violet eyes to block the sun for a moment then lowered his hand to his mouth as he yawned. He sat up, the sheets falling from his slim body, the one he hid by wearing such a big coat all the time. There was no smile on his child-like face as he looked out of the window almost sadly. With a sigh, Russia got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. He started the shower and waited it to warm up by doing his business and then brushing his teeth.

He removed the rest of his clothing and stepped into the shower. He let out a hiss as it burned his skin but he like it. A pleasant difference from the coldness he always felt. Russia grabbed the soap and began to wash his scarred body. He quickly washed it off and cleaned his beige hair before stepping out. A hard shiver racked his body as his feet touched the cold tile. Russia ignored it and grabbed a towel, roughly drying himself.

He walked out into his room and grabbed his normal clothing and quickly put it on, hiding his slim body again. Russia looked at the pink scarf that Ukraine had given him as a child and smiled fondly. So many years had passed since then, the times were rough and unforgiving but he always felt that he could survive with his sisters by his side...all that had changed now. Russia frowned, they were separated and cracked by time. He bit his lip and ignored his memories. Russia took the scarf and gently wrapped it around his neck. He walked out the door with a fake smile on, like always.

He entered the building that they held meetings and walked forward to the main door. He would be the first one and he knew it. He always was. He couldn't stop a giggle as he sat in his seat. The others would come soon, and like always, they would be scared. They were scared of him and Russia knew it…but he did not like it. He wanted everyone to become one with him, so he could protect everyone and have a big family. But they didn't see it that way, and he gave up trying to tell them a long time ago.

Russia looked up as he heard talking and footsteps. America came in first and saw him

"Ah! You communist bastard! I was going to be here first! I'm the hero!"

Russia giggled "Maybe next time Amerika!" then Italy knocked America over, on accident and Germany stepped over them, sighing. One by one the others come in, never looking at Russia.

Greece, France, Japan, China, England, they all took their seats, even though they didn't have assigned seats. Russia wondered who would be forced to sit next to him this time. Russia glanced to the side and saw Greece playing with a kitten. He blinked, his wide violet eyes curious. But he bit his tongue against saying anything. Greece was one of the few who had neutral feelings towards him at the moment, and he didn't want to ruin that. So instead he smiled widely at the tanned man.

Greece looked at Russia and nodded slightly to him, which cause Russia's smile to grow. Unknowing to Russia, Greece had gained a light tinge of red across his cheeks.

Russia looked forward and saw America get up and enthusiastically say

"I know how to stop global warming! We could build a giant robo-"

"Nein!" Germany slammed his hands on the desk and stood, glaring at America

"But it-"

"No it can't!"

"How do-"

"Because that would waste our resources!"

Russia giggled at seeing them bicker "Such a happy family, da~" he said to himself but France overheard and looked at Russia

"Why do you say family, mon ami?"

Russia tilted his head and smiled at France "They remind me of brothers. Always bickering." he giggled again, then out of nowhere his mouth moved without him wanting it to "It makes me want to smash their faces in~"

France got a look of fear and scooted away from Russia. Russia mentally sighed and in his eyes there was a flash of sadness. He knew no one would see the pain, they were to afraid to look him in the eyes. But for once Russia was wrong, someone saw.

Author Note: This is a Russia centric with Yaoi parings. Russia will be on bottom! I had to make that clear. If you don't like it then I am sorry. Also I know I have many other stories that need to be updated but I had to write this. It called to me!

Please R&R! tell me what you think!