Cowboy Bebop FayeXSpike Rated M for future Lemons
They told me he was dead. That he was never coming back; it started to sound like a broken record. I saw his corpse and yet I still refused to believe them. A lie. That's what they were telling me. Life went on without him, like he was never here. The only thing proving that wrong was his old syndicate headquarters were in ruins. When he decided to do something he went all out. He kept his promise; he followed his fallen angel to hell dragging that bastard Vicious with him in the end. The bebop seemed eerie without him, there was an immense void.
So why the hell do I see him lying in my bed with nothing but a towel…
Rewind…..
Ever since he decided to play the righteous cowboy off to revenge his fallen angel, everything has changed. Jet doesn't talk much these days, Ed's not bouncing off the walls like usual. Ein just lays there on the floor with his ears flat against his head. Me, well I'm just a mess. I haven't eaten or slept right, since they told me he was dead.
In a way I knew. I just knew if he walked out, he never come back, never again. Yet at the same time I prayed, hoped he would return and say something like "it's over" or "I no longer have a past." Nothing, nothing is what happened. Well, nothing is not exactly what happened: he died after all.
I keep replaying what he said to me, the last things I would ever hear him speak.
"Look at my eyes, Faye. One of them is a fake because I lost it in an accident. Since then, I've been seeing the past in one eye and the present in the other. So, I thought I could only see patches of reality, never the whole picture. I felt like I was watching a dream I could never wake up from. Before I knew it, the dream was all over."
I asked if he was "going to just throw away his life for nothing."
His reply was "I'm not going there to die; I'm going there to find out if I'm really alive."
Those were his last words to me, his very last words.
I was going to shoot him, I really was, I thought if I shot him and stopped him, he would stay. In the end I couldn't do it, I shot the ceiling instead and watch from my peripheral his fading back as he left for good.
That night I didn't sleep I just cried, cried a million tears like the tiger stripped cat in that story. Me I was nothing, nothing of importance to him, none of us were. We were the "various people who he really didn't care for." The eerie silence that fills this ship seems to be the knowledge, the recognition that we didn't mean enough to him, not enough for him to stay at the very least.
HI the part was Faye remembering the last thing he ever said to her. The actual lines were the ones he spoke in the anime. The reference to the tiger stripped cat story is part of the last episode as well.