Kingdom Come.

Prologue…Snow

Ever since I can remember, it's been like this. I can't even imagine that my life would be any different. Maybe I don't want it to be.

Thing is, I just don't know anymore. Now that everything's gone wrong…I just don't know. So, I'm writing this so that people know my story, maybe they'll learn from it somehow. It's weird to think about, but I think it's important enough that it matters. Also, I'm writing this for you. If you ever find this letter, I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry. Just thinking about what I've done to you…

The snow crunches under my feet as I walk forward. It feels so strange, walking. I never thought I'd have to resort to that kind of thing. It also feels nice. My legs need the motions, they crave them. I yawn, and it sends billowing smoke from my mouth. A feather drifts down between clumps of white, a contrast against the scenery. It looks strange there; an orange feather, just for me, a reminder of the things that have past. I feel as if it's been a century or two since I have seen my feathers orange, clean of blood or dirt. Maybe it's the snow that cleanses them now, as I walk. I just needed that break from flying. I look up. The sky is grey, and the snow drifts past my bright blue eyes and falls to the solid foundations below, searching for a place to rest, like me. Although, my foundations have been shaken. The ground is no longer solid beneath my feet.

I struggle just to find someplace to stop. I don't know how far I should go. I don't even know if I should keep going at all. Yet…there's so many questions I have for you. I want to ask you everything. I want to ask you everything I never had the chance to. I wish you were here. God, how I wish you were here! If only I could see you again, then maybe everything would make sense. You were always the one with the plan, after all. I never was anything but trouble for you. I regret that now. But, at the same time, I regret nothing. Do you know that feeling, I wonder? Are you watching me now, and thinking that all of this was worth it?

There are a lot more feathers now, tumbling from my wings, sloughing off of my body with the pain. No, the pain lingers actually. I'm grateful for that. It makes me feel human. At least, as human as something like us could be.

I can't see the end of this snowy landscape. It goes on forever, only hills and ice and white and the occasional orange feather drifting from behind me. That, and the blood trailing from my back, leaving behind a small, trickling track by which my follower will find me by, I'm sure. I don't care. Let him find me. Roger can kill me, if he wants to. He'll probably just lead Ari here though. Not much fun in ending my suffering, now is there? He has to watch it increase to really start the party. Damn, I should have bought some streamers. I guess my intestines will have to do for now. I can hardly contain my excitement.

There's something up ahead now. I'm not sure what it is. My vision's pretty terrible, what with all this blood loss. Is this what I deserve? Do you enjoy watching me suffer too? You can, I suppose. With all I put you through, this is your time to wreak havoc on me.

Are you…Did you have fun, I wonder? With life, I mean. You always smiled, even at me. It's something I have learned to miss very much; in this desolate world, where everything is always fleeting, or running from me. It was the one thing I had to hold onto, that gave me happiness. I have our picture, but it's just not the same anymore! I want you here with me, however selfish that is. I know you said that this was what you wanted most…but I can't accept that. We could've been happy, you know. I think…I still think we could've done it.

Damn it…I've fallen. The snow's become too heavy for me, and I've fallen into this earth. It's so cold out here, even with the cloak you gave me, it's so cold. I can feel it all around me, deep in my bones. I have no more warmth in me. All of my warmth has been taken away. Not even my wings can guard me now, they've long since withered away. I still don't regret anything. This is just how it's supposed to be. I'll be with you again. I'll be with everyone, even closer than I was before.

Speaking of which, Max and Fang have gone off. They said something about looking for you. It's a shame you're already dead.