. Hey this is my first fanfiction ever don't know if it'll be a one shot or multiple chapter I guess I'll see where it leads me to. Some of it follows the story line of 409. I switched from a mcSwarek to a mcCollllins but the truth's im just a sucker for happy people I hate when people get hurt and are sad. Most people know the way to get me is with a sad story or something and then ill almost always give in

I do not own rookie blue or the characters

Happiness

Andy awoke to the greatest hangover ever, groaning she turned over only to bump into a warm body. Startled she jumped but then a serine smile soon appeared on her face as she remembered what happened the night before.

10 hours before

As she was coming home after the long day of watching christen, christen getting kidnapped and talking to nick about why they couldn't start this relationship Gail, they work together….

To be honest this relationship kind of scared her she never felt this way with a man before she never had a man know her so deep and really know her. She wasn't used to the concept of relationship based on real things, not just love on first sight or the fact that the boy was a "safe choice".

With nick the feelings were really based on real stuff she had a background with him she knew him, what he likes and dislikes and all that stuff. Sure things with Sam were great and shed do anything to have it again but she knew it wasn't possible there was just too much in it too much hurt and angst.

Her heart was crying and she really wanted to tell nick it's not that I don't want to I really do its that you scare me and I don't want to lose you like I lost Sam. You became another rock that I could lean on without being too pushy if I lose you I will lose myself.

And suddenly she finds him right there waiting by the threshold of her door. Her brain went into overdrive she couldn't think straight she just wanted to run into his arms and never leave go but being the convo they just had it wouldn't really work.

So she finds herself asking if everything's ok. Her heart warming at the fact that he's here to check up on her and reassure her again that it's all right.

And then suddenly her heart froze he was agreeing with her. The relationship wasn't worth it if only he would of said who cares that's all she wanted to hear that it's worth it and its worth the fight and then she'll be all in. so she just stares and agrees with him once again.

Then he stopped looked at the ground and jammed his hands in his pockets. Suddenly he looked up

"The thing is I don't care it's worth the fight ill just wait your worth it."

That's all she wanted to hear as she laughed and connected her lips to his slowly at first. Then they both smiled into each other's mouths and franticly made their way into the house. Hardly making it to the couch after much needed sex where they fulfilled each other in ways not to speak about. They collapsed on the couch to watch and drink away the rest of the day's worries.

And here she was lying next to nick, she felt safe again, whole like she finally belonged somewhere. That she was worth something to someone. She snuggled up to him and just relished being next to him.

Feeling him stir she started kissing him passionately, trying to put all the feeling she felt for him in to it. She wanted him to know why she had her reservations that it had nothing to do with him. Smiling he flipped her over so that he was now on top of her The way he kissed her back was telling her don't worry I know, I understand your reservations it's okay it'll be okay, we'll be okay.

"I'll bet I'll get shot", Andy whispered

"What!?" said nick incredulous "why would the happen?"

"things are just great now and they don't last that way for too long look at my life every time I think I'm getting somewhere and finally gonna be happy something happens and then I'm down again"

"Andy, uh, look I'm not gonna let anything happen to you, I'm gonna protect you"

"You know what the problem is?"

"Hmm?"

"I love you!"

"I fail to see why that's a problem." Nick said laughing.

Andy fell silent you can see that she was over thinking everything.

"Andy what is it what's bothering you?"

"Nothing its' nothing I'm fine'' instead of waiting for an answer she just reached up and kissed him again. Her tongue begging for entrance which permission was immediately granted. The need of air was too great and they pulled away panting.

Andy abruptly got up and moved away to stand by the open window. Nick watched her knowing she needed her space now more than anything. Even though he was dying to know why she thought it was a mistake.

"Andy, he asked hesitantly, "tell me what it is"

She turned to him with sad eyes shook her head slowly and didn't answer instead she just turned her attention back to the window.

Nick taking this as permission to join her by the window slowly got up and went to stand behind her. Wrapping his hands around her waist and rested his chin on her head.

Andy turned her head up to him and he can tell she was crying. Their lips met again and this time nick was asking her, no begging her to let him in and tell him what's wrong'

"I love you, means my hearts sold to yours and it could get hurt again I can't think of it happening again it'll just be too much for me to handle and also what happens when Sam finds out that we are a thing. I still care about him, I think I always will, I don't want him to think that we got together undercover."

Nick sighed, "its' okay Andy well figure this out together"

Nodding she leaned into him feeling herself just sort of blending and melting into him. They stayed like that for a few minutes until she laughed and said "it's a good thing we're off today"

"Oh? Yeah and why is that? He replied laughing.

"Cuz, we get to do this, she says mysteriously, turning around planting a kiss on his lips and unbuttoning his shirt at the same time.

Smiling he complied and did the same to her till they both were in the place where they wanted to be. Lying there side by side panting (and horse from screaming so much)they felt and home for the first time in a long time and surprisingly this time there was no qualms it was almost as if the divine interference was saying this is where I want you to be right now. Make the most of it and I promise things will be good.

Sorry wasn't quite sure how to end it.\

So let me know what you thing.