Disclaimer: Naruto doesn't belong to me, but Kiba's little sister Jiira does. :P And the song is "The Night" by Disturbed. Yummy stuff, for sure.
Author's Note: I decided to write something angsty, cause I've been in a bad mood all day. The song inspired me. Enjoy, and please review. Also, I would like to let everyone know that I really want an Aburame Shino poster. But I don't think anyone makes those. Someone should, gosh darn it!
What has come over me?
What madness taken hold of my heart?
Kiba sat with his back against a tree, legs stretched in front of him and eyes staring up at the night sky. The clearing he sat in was barren, the grass dry and lifeless beneath him. The tree he rested against was an old oak; gnarled with branches twining into the blanket of darkness above him. He growled to himself. His dog, Akamaru, sat curled up in his lap, asleep. Kiba pet his snowy white fur gently. Akamaru was almost too big to sit in Kiba's lap, and the dog-like ninja knew he would miss times like these when Akamaru grew to his full size.
But at the moment, Kiba's mind was reeling. The image of Hinata and Shino, lips touching, was imprinted into his memory. It wouldn't go away and give him peace, and it tortured him. He had been sitting in a tree at the training grounds, minding his own business, when he looked down and saw his teammates walking onto the grounds. Before he could yowl a greeting, he had noticed Shino's fingers laced with hers. He had watched, puzzlement turning to rage as Shino leaned in and kiss her gently.
But what had angered him most was the fact that she had smiled after the bug-nin had kissed her.
Kiba had been in love with Hinata for a long time, ever since he laid eyes on her at the academy. She had been the most beautiful creature he had ever seen, and he had tried his hardest to woo her. He used his charm, his wit, and his sense of humor to impress her. He had always been unsucessful, but he figured she would come around eventually.
But she never had. She had fallen head-over-heels for the bug-freak.
To run away, the only answer.
Pulling me away.
Kiba had rushed away in the trees, leaving them without letting them know he was there. He had been shocked and ignescently upset, so he left them. He needed time to think, time to cool down. His animal instincts had told him to attack Shino and save his mate, but he knew better. So he left, to avoid hurting his comrade.
To fall upon (the night)
The source of my recovery.
He had always been more beast than man. His Inuzuka blood gave him the dog-like intuitive that made him uncontrolable in battle, which balanced well with the prescision of Shino and Hinata's techniques. Where Shino was serious, Kiba was lighthearted. Where Hinata was hesitant, Kiba was ready to jump right into things.
Kiba could still remember the day the three of them met like it was yesterday.
Sweet shadow taking hold of the light
Another day has been devoured.
A seven-year-old boy with shaggy brunette hair walked into his class at the academy, looking around with widened eyes. There were so many children here. He had seen them, but he didn't know anybody by name. He was frightened, clutching to his small white puppy as he stood in the corner and watched the other kids.
A small girl, dressed in a tan sweater and blue pants, approached him. She smiled shyly at him. Her eyes were the most amazing he had ever seen; such a pale lavender that they looked white. Her jet black hair was cropped, except for two strands that hung in her face. "H-hi, I'm Hinata. Who are y-you?" She stuttered a little, obviously new here as well.
The boy flushed, unsure how to react to her unexpected greeting. "Kiba." He said softly, petting his puppy's head self-conciously.
Hinata looked at the puppy. "Oooh! What's your doggie's name?"
Kiba managed to smile at her, happy that she was talking to him. "Akamaru. My mommy gave him to me when he was born."
"He's adorable!" She squealed. "May I pet him?"
"Sure." Kiba said, holding tiny Akamaru out towards her. She ran her small fingers over his pure white fur, giggling when he turned to lick her hand with his tongue, rasping over her fingertips lightly.
Kiba was surpised. His puppy didn't normally like new people. "He likes you." He said quietly.
Hinata's eyes glittered. She took her gaze off the puppy and looked up into his eyes, once again dazzling him. "Do you want to sit with us?"
"Us?" Kiba was confused for a second. Perhaps she had a puppy too?
"Me and Shino." She pointed to a boy at the back of the classroom, sitting at a desk. He was wearing a large jacket, collar covering the lower half of his face. He had sunglasses over his eyes, which Kiba thought was odd due to the fact that they were indoors. The other's boy's dark brunette hair fluffed up around his head. He was looking at something on the table, not saying a word to the chattering children around him.
"Yeah." Kiba answered her, following her to the table Shino sat at.
Hinata whispered in his ear softly, making Kiba's tummy get butterflies. "Shino has a lot of bugs, so don't step on them. Neji-nii-san already did, and Shino wasn't happy at all."
Kiba had no idea why Shino would have a lot of bugs, or who Neji was, but he nodded and continued to follow the girl.
When they got to the table, Hinata called to Shino. "Shino-kun! I want to introduce you to someone." The boy looked up in their direction, but Kiba wasn't sure what exactly he was looking at. His eyes were still shielded by his sunglasses.
"I'm Kiba." Kiba said, projecting his voice a bit louder than he had spoken to Hinata. He felt braver, now that he was making friends.
Shino nodded, speaking in a low-toned voice. "Pleased to meet you. I am Aburame Shino, but it seems that Hinata already told you." His voice expressed no emotion, which bothered Kiba a little.
Kiba smiled, despite his initial discomfort. "What are you looking at?" He asked, peering at the thing in front of the other boy.
On the table sat two bugs, very small and black with wings, scuttling around in circles. Kiba scrunched his nose up, observing the bugs more closely. "What are they?" He was curious and had held his fair share of crawlies, like any other child.
Shino's voice was a bit more lighthearted when he explained. "My destuction bugs. They live inside of me." He said, a hint of pride in his voice.
Kiba was dumbfounded, and grinned from ear to ear. "That's so cool!" He exclaimed.
Snapping his head around to look at Kiba, Shino's voice sounded suprised when he spoke. "You really think they're cool?"
"Of course!" Kiba said. "Destruction bugs and Aburame Shino, meet Akamaru!" Kiba held up his puppy, and Shino reached forward to pat the pup on the head.
Once introductions were concluded, the teacher called from the front of the classroom. "Allright, everybody sit down!" She tried to get the attention of the room of rambunctious seven-year-olds.
Kiba sat to Hinata's right, with Shino on the other side of her. Kiba was very happy that Hinata had introduced herself to him, and he was sure that he had the coolest friends in the whole academy.
Calling me away, bringing a question
Why?
Why not me? Kiba asked himself. He could give Hinata so much. He was loyal. He would love her unconditionally until the end of time. Surely she realized that? But the angrier he got, the guiltier he felt.
For saving me from all they've taken
Let my armor fall again.
Shino and Hinata were his best friends. And he wanted them to be happy. A part of his mind told him that Hinata would be happier with himself. He whimpered softly, wishing things could be different.
Giving me the strength to face them
Feeling it taking over.
Rage pulsed through his veins once more, making him want to rip the forest apart in search of that bug-eating jerk. He would shred Shino to pieces to show Hinata that he was better. He would rip the bug-freak's heart out, and devour it while it was still beating.
Now, on a path to take it all away
There can be no better way of knowing.
Kiba could practically taste what life would be like with his shy teammate. They would live happily, somewhere in Konoha, raising new ninjas for the academy. She would look at him with her lavender eyes lovingly, kiss him with those silky rose-petal lips.
He wanted her to be with him with all his heart. Tears started to fall down his face, streaking his cheeks. His rage scared him. The fact that any part of him wanted to hurt his best friend frightened him. He was a monster. He pushed away thoughts of hurting Shino, and tried to think of what was best for Hinata.
In a world beyond controlling
Are you going to deny the savior
In front of your eyes?
Despite how Kiba felt about Hinata, he knew that Shino was right for her. He was patient and kind while Kiba was angry and uncontrolable. A new memory filled his mind, this one more faint and painful than the first.
Stare into the night.
Kiba had been five years old, playing blocks with his three-year-old sister, Jiira. She had called him a mean word, and he had gotten very angry. He had been blinded by his rage. He remembered howling and a flash of blood, but after that, his mind was blank.
After, he remembered his parents crying and telling him that he would never see Jiira again. They looked at him differently from then on, and he knew deep inside that he was responsible for the fact that his little sister was gone forever.
He visited her grave every year, apologizing and telling her that he loved her.
Power beyond containing...
Kiba had to leave. He knew it in his heart. If he felt like killing his closest friend, he needed help. He would go visit his mother's brother, Iriko. He lived somewhere in the mountains, and he was also a dog-nin like himself. Maybe he could find inner peace before returning to Konoha.
He had reached a descision. He was leaving that very night.
Akamaru awoke, yawning. Kiba stuffed his dog into his shirt. "We're leaving." Akamaru didn't make a sound, and curled up next to Kiba's chest to comfort his master.
Are you going to remain a slave for
The rest of your life?
He stood, giving one last glance to the lights of Konoha. He whispered under his breath, new tears falling down his face. "I'll be back, Hina-chan and Shino-kun. Promise."
And with that, the dog boy raced off into the darkness.
Give in to the night.