Become You
I was just old enough to know the lie
Dad told me when I was five
I saw you when you couldn't handle it anymore
Pills like polished bits of jewelry littered the floor
I watched you when you were condemned to your cage
You fought hard against the men you thought were aliens
I knew then you were through with being truly you
I came to visit you today
But I don't think you recognized me
Through your mask, though the metal bars
Not quite the same as home
But don't worry Mom, I understand
Even If you don't
My sister told me to tell you Hi
Dad only told me not to go
But I came anyways
Because my voices told me so
I am doing well in skool
I still haven't made any friends
But that's not really news
I lost contact with my shadow today
But that's okay, he wasn't really there anyways
They have become louder recently
My voices
Are becoming harder to ignore
But I will fight them
Because I won't become you
Locked in a cage
Restrained
It was fun for a while, mom
But one can't play the games of a child forever
Eventually you will let go of the truth when you are lied to enough
That alien in class is no more than Santa existing
It was fun while it lasted mom
But I got to stop
Before I become you
I can fight this, I can win
If I keep trying, I'll win
After all it's drawing it's power from me
Surely I can do the same
I just wish I knew
Where all of this was coming from
I know I am not alone in this
I just wish I knew the people who
Didn't become like you
I think I know how to stop this
It involves the dragons and the unicorns
Phoenixes and fairies, demons and angels
All fairy Tales are derived from some fact, mom
Real facts
Exaggerated by the mind
Tomorrow mom, I will start
I don't want to,
But I don't want to become you
When I hear sights of Big Foot and Nessie
I will ignore them all, because I won't become like you
When I see the shadows on the walls, forming into shapes
I will ignore them all
Because I won't become you
When I dream of things before they exist
When I dream of friends and happy times
Dream of times that don't exist
I will ignore them all, because I won't become
You
When I hear myself speak, I will stop myself
No one's there to care
If you were you mom
You would be proud of me too
And I will always love you
Even if you don't
Love me too
And when I hear the voices in my head screaming at me to stop
That I am killing myself...
Drowning myself...
Raping myself...
I know I have won
Right?
Our minds our are most deadly weapons, be careful to what you set your mind to. Thank you for reading.