Again, tears streamed down my face. He was ignoring me for HER again. I'm his girlfriend, shouldn't he pay attention to me too? He should but he doesn't. she is all he ever talks and reams about. Even when we're together, she is always on his mind. When I hug him he turns away now. Am I just some girl you placed next to you? I am here just to make you forget? He used to hug me all the time, now he barley utters a single word to me. Even when I went missing, he barley noticed. I was gone for almost half a year! All he said when I got back was "Oh, your back." Not; "Where have you been? I missed you." I feel so invisible, so unreal. I'm starting to trip, I'm losing m grip on you. I feel so alone even when you're right next to me. Could you recognize me in a crowed? Now I'm just sitting there outside, grinnin' with a lost and torn stare. You drained all my love and life, not that you noticed. I've decided, why should I care anymore? You weren't there when I was scared an alone. I was left to cry there when you didn't care. You never cared did you? Did you even ever love me? Was I always just a girl by your side to replace someone? The gun in my hand feels so light and yet my heart felt so heavy. Did you get my note that was left on your bed? I wonder if you just threw it away or think I'm bluffing. I look up at the bright blue sky one last time before I rise to gun to my heart. For one last time, and in a long time, a happy smile crossed my face. "Raven! Don't!" I could see you not to far away, calling my name in anger. I thought I heard regret but ignored it know it was my imagination. "Good-bye Hikaru, my love." I pulled the trigger and pain filled my already aching chest. You ran towards me, regret now clearly displayed on your beautiful face. "Raven, why? Why!?" Your voice held the same regret that I saw but mixed with sadness. "G-Go be w-with t-the r-real p-pers-son you l-love. L-Leave me t-to d-die." You eyes swelled with tears. "What do you mean?! It you I lo-" I just had to cut you off. "D-Don't l-lie to a d-dieing g-girl. I k-know t-that you l-love her. T-There's n-no need t-to h-hide i-it any m-more." I smiled happily but sadly at the same time. "Raven, please don't go…Raven!" Your voice only fell on dead ears. You not noticing me had been both your, and my, downfall. Now, I could only watch you from above, still with tears in my eyes. I could see it now…you never truly loved me until you read my little note but you were too late. You were to late for my love, to late to save me, and to late to notice your own love for me. Good-bye my dearest love my dear Hikaru Hitachiin