Author's Note: I just really need to fix the MerDer fight. I was waiting for someone to write it but no one did, so yeah.

"You know what? This argument will go no where! I'm tired and I'm hungry and there's no food so I'm just gonna take a shower and go to bed!" I didn't wait for him to respond, I go straight to our bathroom. After I strip my clothes and go under the shower.

This day has been emotionally exhausting. Trying to be a surgeon and a mother at the same time. Arguing with Christina. Picking a fight with Derek. I'm so exhausted.

I suddenly felt tears running down my eyes. I slump down on the floor.

I heard the shower door open, I looked up and saw Derek.

"What?! Aren't you done fighting with me?! I'm so exhausted and I can't. I just can't." my sobs grew louder.

Derek turn off the shower. He grabbed a towel and picked me up, "Common, let's get you to bed."

I hugged him and cried on his shoulder.

Derek put me to bed and hugged me close. "Shhh. It's okay."

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for picking a fight."

"I'm sorry too Mer."

"It's just that this day has been a bad day. Maybe I was wrong for thinking that I could have it all. Be a great mother and an amazing surgeon at the same time. Maybe I will just end up like my mother. I mean today, I choose to do that surgery rather than be with Zola while Alex is stitching her up. Though Christina didn't let me cause she said that I'm a good surgeon, but not a great one. I'm worse than Ellis Grey, at least she was a great surgeon. Me? I'm failing at both. And I'm being a bad wife for taking out my frustations on you." I was trying so hard to stop my tears from falling but I can't.

"Shhh. It's okay. And you're not failing at anything. You're great with the kids. They adore you. And I know you're a great surgeon, I've seen you done great things before, and you will keep on doing those. Don't lose faith on yourself okay? And for the record, you're and an amazing wife. We're bound to fight every now and then. It may be small, it may be big, but at the end of the day I'll still be glad that you are my wife. Cause I love you so much." he kissed my forehead.

"I know, I love you too." I snuggle closer to him.

"Sleep now, we'll talk more tomorrow."

"And we need to have that Princess Tea Party for Zo."

"We will, I promise."