It's too hard. Too hard being angry, too hard being frustrated, making friends, falling in love. It's easier not to do anything, just stand on the sidelines and go along with what they tell me. I'd rather not think about anything complicated like that anymore.
If I don't have dreams, I can't be sad when they're crushed. If I'm not close to people, I won't be feel anything when they die. If I don't have friends, I won't be sad losing them.
I wish I'd never met you. If I didn't then I wouldn't have known what love is. I wouldn't be confused like I am right now. My heart wouldn't ache like it does right now. I can't stop crying now, but that's okay I think, it hurts less when I do.
I don't want to love, I don't want it, not at all. I'm scared, scared, it's dark and cold, but that's okay I'm used to that, but I don't understand what you're saying anymore. I don't understand anything. I don't want to remember this, think about this, be reminded of this. I hate you I hate you I hate you for doing this to me.
Ikari-kun. I like you. I love you, Shinji.
Liar. Liarliarliarliar. I don't want to listen anymore. It hurts it hurts and I'm scared, it's dark. I don't love you. I don't I don't I don't I don't. I won't love you. Never. nevernevernevernevernever.
I hate you. I hate you so much I could die.
Help me, Kaworu.
You know, I'm pretty sure I was heading somewhere with this, but I'll be damned if I can remember now.
Thanks to:
Sleeptalking: Sora Yoshigatzcu Descent into Madness: pamellka, ellesra, Tangerine342 (hilarious KHR fml crossover), CH0C0CANDYZ Patience and Cautiousness: CelticAngelWings (writes awesome 6927 fics, although I'm not a huge Mukuro fan, they're still good~!) Confirming Existence: Yokoist, nana-zuki, akuma-river, Emotive Gothika, anon person A Twisted Kind of Destiny (I promise I'll update soon! .): Shiznitch, .x, Ms Random Freak, 5ribbon Diversions snoopygirl11