This is my first fanfic ever, hope you like it.
Warning: If you like T/R, I don't think this is a story for you.
11:16pm
Ted was in Luke's bedroom singing a lullaby when she heard the song that brought back memories she wanted to forget. She quickly picked her phone up to see it was him calling her. He hadn't been calling her for years and she'd totally forgotten to change the ringtone on him. She didn't know if she should take it, but the sound of "Sandcastles in the sand" told her guts she should.
"Hello!"
"Robin," He said with a quiet voice. She could feel her heart racing by the sound of his voice.
"Why are you calling?" She whispered. She didn't want Ted to know she was talking to him. They hadn't seen him in a long time and we could easily say they weren't really close friends anymore.
"I miss you," he whispered. Those words made her whole body shiver. She was sitting in the living room, listening to her husband's voice in the background singing to his child while she was talking to her ex husband on the phone who'd just said he misses her. She had a good life with Ted, but she never felt really happy. She'd just agreed to marry him because she'd been so lonely, and hearing Barney's voice now made her realize she missed him too.
"And I miss you." She whispered and walked slowly towards the door to get out of there.
"I want to talk," he said with a hoarse voice before she got out of the house.
She locked the door behind her, "Are you crying?"
"No!" He quickly answered, but he didn't convince her.
"How's Ellie?" She hadn't seen that girl since the day Tracy died, which was 8 years ago now.
"She's fine, she's sleeping, so I have to be quiet." His voice was still hoarse.
"Barney, be honest. Are you crying?" She felt something in her heart that she hadn't felt since the years after the divorce with him. It felt like it was breaking again. It hurt to hear him like this.
"Maybe," she could hear him break down on the other end of the phone.
"Where are you?" Robin questioned, worried about him.
"Home." He answered like that was obvious, which it was, but that wasn't really what she had meant.
"Which room are you in?"
"The bathroom. Why are you asking me this?"
She could hear the sobs coming from the other end and pictured what he looked like, and it broke her heart.
"Do you want me to come over?"
Barney didn't answer. She heard strange noises on the other end. "Barney?" She asked more worried.
"Barney?" She almost yelled in the phone not caring if a window was open and if anyone heard her.
He didn't answer, but she heard gagging.
"Oh my god, Barney, I'm coming over."
She walked quickly in to grab her coat, but Ted stopped her "Hey, the kids are asleep," he said and winked at her. Usually she liked alone time with him, but for some reason she found the way he flirted with her gross and she knew that was wrong. He was her husband, she shouldn't find it gross, but she did and denied the kiss he tried to give her.
"I'm sorry, I have to go to work, it's an emergency."
Ted looked confused.
"Emergency at midnight?"
She hadn't noticed it was midnight already and hadn't worked up an escape plan, so she just nodded and smiled.
"Okay, then." Ted said and kissed her quickly on the mouth.
"Good night, Ted." She said and left.
She heard strange noises inside Barney's apartment when she arrived. She knocked on the door loud enough for him to hear and waited at least one minute before the door opened.
Sweat ran down his cheek and his blue beautiful eyes screamed of pain.
"Oh my god, what the hell happened to you."
He let her in without answering and it immediately smelled vomit. "gehh...how can Ellie sleep through this?"
Barney stumbled to the couch "I'm as silent as I possibly can," he said and forced a fake smile.
Everything about him made her cry inside. She didn't know what was wrong with him, but it seemed like he needed help.
"It's good to see you, Scherbatsky. If I wasn't so sweaty and gross I'd pull you in for a hug."
She smiled at the thought, but it quickly faded away.
"How long has this been going on?" She asked when she noticed how much skinnier he was.
"A while."
He reminded her of how she'd been acting after their divorce and somehow she felt guilty.
"Does Ellie know?"
He shook his head and took a sip of a glass filled with water.
She couldn't believe this was the man her heart never stopped loving. She was sure she'd forgotten the feelings by now, but seeing him like this made her heart break once again for him.
"No, don't cry," he said sweetly. He wiped his sweat away with a towel and walked slowly over to her. She hadn't noticed she was crying before he mentioned it and now she was in his arms, burying her head in his shoulder letting all of her tears out.
She could feel his body shaking and she pulled away far enough to see that his face was filled with tears as well.
That's when she decided to kiss him.
I've had this idea for a while now, but didn't know if I should write it, which I ended up doing today. I still don't know if I should continue it, so if you like it I would appreciate some reviews ;)