Fandom: Shaman king
Genre: Romance
Couple: Ren x Jeanne
::POV Ren::
I'm not an affectionate person. Not one ounce of my body shows it. It's not that I don't want to; it's just that I can't.
I've spent all my life hiding everything I feel and turning it all to anger, but I can't do that now. It's 2am, and it's the only time I can show affection. When the person I love is in a deep, deep sleep next to me that's when I feel I can roll closer to her.
When I can run my fingers though her hair, or have them tangled up in her fingers. It's when I can softly kiss the back of her neck, without any judgement or questions.
I feel really warm, having my body mimic her position and have my hand follow the curves of her body, from her thin waist to her feminine hips. To be able to actually whisper the simple things I should be able to just say.
"I love you."
I want to be this comfortable with her always and forever, but for now I just have to deal with her being so asleep she won't even know how much I do care, and how much affection I do have.
Most nights I just wish I can feel her return it, but then that would mean her knowing I am affectionate. That would mean her knowing I'm vulnerable, just like everyone else.
If I'm honest, I just wish she would wake up… I just wish she would see me for who I am. I want her to see me weak… I want her to be weak with me. Because once we are finally able to be weak in front of each other then we can be strong together as Man and Wife.
Please, just wake up. Wake up and catch me being weak, before I have to wake you up and make me see who I am. Before I have to lose a little of my identity you fallen in love with and show you my true nature.
But, just for tonight let me stroke my foot against yours, let me listen to your breathing. Just for tonight, I'll go without judgement one last time.
You can always just wake up tomorrow night, but just for now… Just for now let my secret lie.
I love you, Jeanne.
My first story of some POV's of Ren Tao :3.