Losing him was blue like I'd never known; missing him was dark grey all alone.
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met, but loving him was red
I've always dreamt about what life in New York would be like but never in my dreams did I imagine it like this. It's been two months since I've heard from Finn.. I missed him like crazy. I always had this empty feeling in my chest.. I didn't feel home here mainly since I was all alone and I missed my fiancé.. Well scratch that I guess you could say our relationship really doesn't have a title at the moment. I moved into my dorm here at NYADA and it has been a pretty bumpy start. I guess my roommate is nice.. I wouldn't know since we really haven't talked. You could say she's been "busy." Ugh… I stuffed my face into the pillow and sighed wishing that I could rewind back to before graduation when everything was perfect. I was supposed to be married to the man of my dreams right now, but instead I was trapped in this terrible dorm room staring at my laptop watching everyone back at McKinley enjoying another year…
I couldn't help but keep staring at my multiple photos of Finn. I just wish I knew how he was doing. He's busy with the army, but I would give anything to just hear his voice again… My bathroom schedule has been reworked since people just don't understand here. I have to be up at 3 a.m. every morning so I can perfect my beautiful complexion. You could say that I'm a bit over dramatic but I like to look my best.. When I'm on Broadway it will all be worth it. All of a sudden I was interrupted from my thoughts by the sound of music coming from one of the shower stalls. I peeked around the corner to find someone very handsome. I told myself to stop paying attention to him because I already had Finn. I blushed a bit and then headed back to the sink to finish my routine. He spoke up "Hi, I'm Brody. I'm a junior here, what about you?" Brody.. that name there was just something about it. "I'm Rachel Berry, a freshman here." He gave me a small smile and I felt my heart start to race. I needed to stop myself before I did anything stupid. We talked for a bit about how we both had the same morning routines and I headed back to my room. I laid down in my bed holding up the photo frame of Finn while at the same time thinking about Brody. I just couldn't leave everything I had behind with Finn. He was my first love… my only love. Why did I have these small growing feelings for someone else? Especially someone I had just met.. I guess I was just lonely… I'm so confused and I just don't know what to do…
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