Leah:
There we all were, huddled in my cousin's kitchen laughing at some joke they had said. Or at least they were. I looked from face to face of my family, at least in one way. They seemed to be enjoying themselves. Sam and Emily seemed to be. But what about me?! Nobody ever tried to even think about me, about the way I felt. That would be the reason I was always so cold. They didn't deserve my kindness, if I had any left in me. If people thought I was just sour all the time, they were right, but it hadn't been me who decided to be this way. It was all just…somebody's fault.
I was still standing there when I noticed I had been staring intently at Sam. His arms were gripping Emily by the waist, swaying her from side to side. His lips were on hers at that moment, and the whole pack started to howl at their lover's moment. Even though, I could tell he was uncomfortable that I was there, witnessing their love. Their forced love is what I thought of it.
I couldn't stand being present anymore. Happiness surrounded me, but not all of the happiness in the world would ever be enough to heal my heart. I had lost Sam definitively and it wasn't going to change.
I turned to leave. I didn't turn back, but I could feel their stares on my back. I walked in silence out of the house. The cool air hit me and it felt nice. I sighed. Why did things have to be this way? Why did my fairytale not have a happy ending? Why did my prince never rescue me from this life I was destined to have…
Snap out of it! I told myself in anger. Kicking a rock that was in my way, or so it seemed, I started to walk faster toward the trees. It was the only way I could find to help the pain, not completely, but it helped some.
I didn't care what the others were thinking of me right now: Sam, Jacob, Paul, Embry, Quil, Jared, Seth, my brother the only one who sometimes actually seemed to understand me, or at least tried or Emily. Nothing seemed to matter to me since the day it happened, the day my life came tumbling down from the clouds.
I didn't struggle much to strip off my clothes as I ran. Soon enough, I was running on four legs, or paws. I just hoped the pack didn't think about changing soon. I really wanted some time to think, alone.
I got to the First Beach as the sun went down. I sat on the sand, transforming again. I dressed, leaving only my shirt and pants off, and then I lay on my back, looking up at the sky looming above me. I remembered how many times Sam and I use to come here and just look up at the clouds, talking about our future together.
"What do you plan on being when you grow up?" I asked him, his arms around my waist the way they had been on Emily.
"I plan on being your someone you can always count on, someone who will always be there for you, someone who will dry your tears, someone to protect you from the monsters under you bed," he joked. I laughed with him as he left a trail of kisses from my collar bone to the corner of my mouth.
"It breaks my heart to hear you say such sweet things to me," I said, bringing my free hand up to my heart. He took one of his hands and grabbed my hand away from my chest, placing it on his cheek.
"I can heal that," he whispered before kissing me tenderly.
The tide was coming in, and I could hear the crashing waves somewhere nearby. I would have to start heading home sometime now, before it got too dark. I took one look at the darkening sky; then closed my eyes.
"We will get married one day, right?" I had asked him outside my house one time.
"I promise," he had said, taking my hands. "I'd propose right now, but you deserve better than this right now," he observed.
"Better than what?" I asked with butterflies in my stomach.
"Better than me proposing too you when there are people spying on us," he laughed, turning his head toward the living room window. I could see Seth looking out at us with a big smirk on his face. I made a face at him before he disappeared behind the blinds.
"Don't be too harsh on my future brother-in-law, hon. I want him to like me instead of detesting me."
"Who could ever detest you?" I asked him, playing with his hair.
My eyes opened to find myself in darkness. I looked up and could see the stars. I was still at the beach, I guessed. I had better get home now before my mom or Seth got worried and came out to look for me. But no. If they were worried, they would have found me by then.
I sighed one last time before getting to my feet and shaking the sand off my clothes and myself. I started to take the rest of my clothing off, so I could transform, when I noticed I wasn't alone.
I turned around and in the dark I could make out the shape of the person I would least be expecting to see there.