(A/N: I know, I know… I am working on Valentine's Day AND the sequel to it… I am also home sick, and it really sucks. But I was watching one of the lost episodes at 9:00 this morning, and this idea came to my mind. This is to cure my temporary and MILD (thank god) writer's block. So… Here it is!!!)

Dear Family,

I should've never gone out.

You all gave such strange looks when I stated that I wanted to go out for a run. I mean, I never do. You guys said that you'd pass for tonight, leaving me alone.

You guys didn't even realize this was the night that I'd need you most!

After you guys told me that, I left. For the first hour of my loneliness, I was on our rooftop, Leo, sobbing. And you others, yes, you were wrong! You were always saying 'oh, I am the closest to him', when you guys are far from it!

At least he understood me!

Well… Um… After that, I was angry, not with you guys, but with myself. I don't even know why I was even crying anymore… When did I become so weak? God… I am so stupid. So vulnerable… Now my tears are hitting the paper. Now some of my words are smudged. Wow.

But when I was angry with myself, I began to have bad thoughts. So I ran.

But that was stupid on my part.

I got jumped.

Stupid Foot Ninjas. Stupid me. I thought I was going to win. I wasn't prepared. I didn't expect the last ninja to have a long knife in his hand. Everything went in slow motion as his knife, stronger metal than I expected, went straight through my plastron. So close to my heart. Before he even had a chance to give a stupid, victorious grin, I smacked him upside the head with one of my chucks.

I slowly dragged myself back to the Lair.

That's how I found myself in this position. I am sitting here, on the couch, writing this meaningless letter, knife still stuck in my chest, with Klunk lying on my lap.

Great. Now my blood is staining this paper.

But sitting here, I find that I really was ungrateful for most of the things you guys gave me.

Splinter, you gave me endless comfort in my saddest of stages, and you gave me a home to live in.

Raph, you gave me loyalty and discipline. I thank you for that… So much.

Don, you gave me at least some brains and a good common sense.

Leo, you gave me endless love and understanding. You were better of a big brother than I could ever ask for.

When did breathing become so tough to do?

Every few seconds now I am blinking black spots out of my eyesight.

I stroke Klunk's soft orange fur, careful not to get any red splotches in his fur.

The pain is getting unbearable… I bet my writing now just looks like a whole bunch of squiggles. I hope not. I still have things to say.

Sensei, keep my nunchucks safe. Keep my brothers happy. That's all I need to ask of you.

Raph, try not to kill anybody okay? I hope we can still be awesome buds in turtle heaven.

Don, do not let this stop your smarts. You need to continue what you do. It makes you the way you are.

Leo, do not blame this on yourself. Just keep being a great leader, big brother, and friend to everybody else, okay?

I love you four… So much… As I may of said at times, I would die for you… Like I am now.

Be careful, and don't be too upset about me. We all need to die at our own times. My time just happens to be tonight.

I don't know how much longer I am going to be awake… So I should end this letter.

Just remember, my family…

This may be the end of the beginning… But this is the beginning of the end.

I'll miss you.

Don't keep me waiting too long.

Heaven can be a lonely place.

Love in life and death,

A friend.

A son.

A brother.

Michaelangelo.