ALL I ASK OF YOU
Stop telling me what to do,
Stop holding me back.
Do you trust me at all?
Let me be me.
I love you,
But I can't stand you holding me back.
Give me a chance.
Trust me.
Let me go.
I'm almost 18.
Please, let go.
I can't do anything for myself.
I can't do anything crazy.
I can't learn from my mistakes.
I can't be free.
Why?
This cage.
These restrictions.
This wall.
This trap.
Why can't I do the things you never did?
I'm not stupid. Trust me.
Let me live.
When I'm 18, and loose,
I'll do something crazy
Because I never could.
I don't know who I am,
Because I never got the chance to find
The real me.
This is the time.
This is the time to make mistakes.
Let me!
Maybe, when I'm free,
You'll be
Sorry.
I'm a child?
How dare you.
A child at heart I will always be
Because I never left the nest.
I never tested boundaries.
I never got to live the life
Of a free young bird.
No.
Always under mama's wing.
Always shielded from the
"Bad Influences."
Are you blind?
This is what the world is all about.
Why hide the truth
Just to throw me to the wolves when I'm old enough?
Thank you for not preparing me.
Thank you for not letting me reach out and touch
The spindle.
Thank you for growing this
Deep
Deep
Resentment
Towards you that will one day
Set my soul free.
Help me be crazy.
Help me be wild.
Help me find out what's good and bad
(the hard way).
Help me find myself amongst the
Crazy.
Wicked.
Fun.
This me, right now,
Is trapped.
Fighting to be free.
Blurring the lines between
'too close'
And
'not happening'.
Every 'No', every 'Stop that'
Hardens that ball of resentment.
Every scolding for every
Little
Insignificant
Thing
Adds to the rock of
Hate
Building inside me.
It hurts me to feel it.
Because I do love you.
With all my heart and soul.
Which is why I don't understand.
I do everything for you.
The more I do for you,
The tighter you're hold becomes.
Don't make me hurt you to satisfy myself.
Don't make me turn away my own
Flesh and blood
To save myself.
Help me help you.
Let me go.
Let me live.
Let me have the life I choose.
Let me do what I want.
Not what you want me to want.
I can't live like this.
Caged.
Trapped.
In a world of love.
Only a few more months.
Watch me fly.
Watch me spread my wings
Finally out of these
Bars of love.
Make my own nest
Where and when I want it.
Freedom.
That's all I ask of you.
Victoria Amaria