I can't do this anymore.
I can't. I can't do this to myself.
I can't keep reminiscing on the memories we shared. I can't keep staring at the back of your head, keep thinking about you in class, keep pretending that you will come back, that you will ditch that Potter boy and run back to me with open arms.
Because it's not going to happen. You're in love with him. You look at him with such joy in your eyes; you never stop smiling when you see him; you laugh at his jokes, even if they aren't funny.
So, you see, if I keep thinking about you, keep getting my hopes up every time you look into my eyes, even if it's for a split second-
I'll just fall apart.
You were the only one who listened to me. The only one who would willingly sit there listening to me rant about my stupid childhood and the stupid kids in my neighborhood who made fun of greasy-haired Snape. The only one who would enjoy my company, the only one who didn't make fun of me.
The only one that I will ever love.
You were there for me when I felt like breaking down.
When I felt like I'd just fall apart.
When I felt like…today.
But this time, you're not here for me. You're not here to comfort me, to listen to me, to be with me.
So, you see, if I keep going down this path…
I will just fall apart.
For in order not to fall apart…
I must let go of what keeps me together.