Disclaimer: I thought we figured out that I don't own Stargate Atlantis. If I did then Carson would be, well alive.
Enjoy! Spoilers for Sunday.
Regrets Of An Astrophysicist: Mitto
Prologue: Pertristis
Part 1/3
Today a friend of mine died.
I still can't believe it. He was talking one the radio and then just… wasn't. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of people, my friends dying on me! And what's worse is it was because of me. If I would've just gone on that stupid fishing trip of his, none of this…. Carson might still be alive. It's funny because in a sick, twisted way, I sort of hate him. Hate him for trying to save everyone, no matter the cost.
I promised I would go fishing with Carson next week. What I never…, what I never stopped to realize was next week might not come. So I lied to him. Looked him straight in the face and told him that Katie wanted me to spend the day with her. Now, I'm not even sure if it was worth it. And you know the funny thing about is? I would give ANYTHING to go on that trip with Carson, even if it would be the last. I would DO anything to hear him talk about his boring stories. I bailed on a friend for my personal benefit.
I really never thought it would be one of us. Never thought it would be Carson. I mean the man hates,… hated going off-world. Not including the trip to Atlantis, in the three years he was here, he maybe stepped through the gate, what 6, 7 times? Atlantis was supposed to be safe! I mean if anyone was going to die first, it should have been me! God knows I've come close more than enough. And for Carson to die because I made an idiotic mistake and screwed up is just… I just don't know if I can live with that.
So today, because of me, a friend of mine died.
I'll have to live with that for the rest of my life,
because the last words I said to my best friend in person, was a lie.
And that's what's killing me…
This is a short story, one of most likely 3 parts. I couldn't wait for the next SGA ep so I wrote something for in between. The events of this story will most likely be used in reference in Memoirs Of An Astrophysicist.
Translations: Latin:
Mitto- Letting Go
Pertristis- So Very Sorry (Very sorrowful)