Light up, light up, as if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear.

When she was younger, her mother always used to tell her fairy tales of princess locked away in towers, with prince charmings coming to the rescue.

Ever since then, she always believed she'd find her prince charming.

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They were her two boys. No one could ever change that.

It had been that way for years, her, Sora and Riku.

Everyone on Destiny Islands knew that where one was, the other two were sure to follow.

Together, they had been through everything from laughing until it hurt to nearly losing eachother.

She thought she could cope with anything that the two of them presented her with.

So when she found out that they were finally a couple, her heart broke in two.

This jealousy will screw you up one day.

She knew it was coming, she shouldn't have been surprised or effected, but it still hurt. She was angry at herself for letting it shock her like it did, when she saw herself as prepared.

She had built up a mental block over the years, patiently waiting for the final blow, but all that hard work was smashed to pieces in the seconds it took Sora to say those words.

She blamed it on the fact that her guard wasn't up at that moment.

Even though she knew it all along, there was still a piece of her that wanted to hold onto that tiny thread of hope that her and Sora, could one day, be together.

She knew that it wouldn't come true, but still she held onto it.

That hope was always there in the back of her mind, knawing at her thoughts every so often, getting thiner as time went on.

Don't hold onto hope, you know it will only drive you insane.

Of course, she was happy for them, no question about it, but there was always something else mixed in with the happiness that made her stomach churn.

Everytime she thought about it, her heart sank, but she still put on a brave face and bottled it all up inside.

She always pulled on her best fake smile and said she was fine when someone asked her what was wrong.

But she knew Sora and Riku could see straight through it.

She knew she looked ill, she had tired, purple bags under her eyes and she had lost a lot of weight. She hardly ever talked anymore, and always looked in deep thought.

She knew they knew something was bugging her because whenever they saw her, they'd always trie to help her but when she saw them both together, she felt sick.

They'd joke that she was just skin and bones now, and then they'd laugh. She'd get angry at their jokes and lash out at them both.

No point being angry, he chose him over you. Get over it.

She felt guilty, she knew she shouldn't be thinking these awful things and feeling these emotions.

But was it her fault she fell for him?

But was it her fault she could never be with him?

At times, when it all got too much, she'd cry in her pillow. She'd cry, cry, cry, cry for all she was worth.

They always say that crying helps to get over the pain, it doesn't.

No matter what she did, she would always feel those raw emotions eating away at her insides.

She made a promise to herself, that she would always be there for both of them, no matter what.

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She used to believe in fairy tales, that the princess would always end up with prince charming. Happily ever after.

Not no more.

Have heart my dear, we're bound to be afraid

Even if it's just for a few days, making up for all this mess.